LOL i forgot to mention the drooling my GOD the droolingin your sleep then u wake up and think ur sweating??? no way buddy u just drooled all over your pillow. hahah i find it really funny because this happened to me.
paranoid android said:
I don't think it's a coincidence that i almost hung myself the second day after being on risperdal. I was on 1mg twice a day and i really had no idea about the drug at the time. This is a fairly high dose i think starting off because risperdal is alot more potent then the other atypicals. My GP prescribed it and he really has no goddamn idea about psychiatric meds and risperdal was the only atypical he knew anything about at all because that was the only thing on the market when he was in school. I was desperate though and just wanted the racing thoughts in my head to shut the fuck up.
Risperdal gave me a feeling of panic and gave me heart palpitations as well. This was abit scary because seroquel did none of this. It also did not sedate me, did little to help the mania and mixed states i was suffering from and made me feel like a total fucking zombie. I could barely think and felt dumb as a box of rocks.
Anyway i woke up the second morning after taking it feeling terribly depressed yet active. A mixed state which is very dangerous. All i wanted to do was kill myself and i hung a rope up downstairs and was going to hang myself. It was 5 in the morning so i knew that it would be awile before anyone discovered me so i would be dead for sure. Fortunately some sense came into my head at the last minute and i thought of what it would do to all the people that loved me. So i just waited out the bad feelings and took a load of clonazepam which helped quite abit.
I sure as hell never took risperdal again.
this happened to me on aropax/paxil around 2 weeks after i got my dose increased to 40mg from 20mg, only my preference of death was a mix of codeine, zoloft, paxil, mirtazapine, stilnox, valium and temazepam..... and alcohol. i thought the same shit that nobody cared and therefor nobody would find me for days after i died, which if i seriously had of died nobody would have found me for at least 3 days.
anyhow i started seeing crazy shit and called my friend to get all these people out of my room, i had no idea who they were or what they wanted but they sure as hell would not leave my bed room. when my friend got to my house he didnt see anyone realised what happened and took me to the hospital. that night when i came too, i realised that i must have thought my home phone was my mobile phone so i took the home phone with me to hospital, i didnt have any pants on and i only had one shoe? it was quite an embarrassing ride/walk home for me, at the time i kinda wish i had of just died.
i was taking risperdal/respiridone at 2mg a day once a day, taken at night to supposedly help me sleep and compliment my anti depressants(effexor) to make them more effective. i specifically asked for a sedating anti-psychotic if they were going to put me on any because there was this whole "oh no not benzos" thing around benzos this was in the government supported mental health services by the way.
anyways i put on 7 kilograms in less then a month on this medication and HAD to stop taking it. yeh after that was abilify, and abilify didnt work for me either..... nomatter what dose, and i did not get any withdrawals from stopping 15mg a day cold turkey............ i realised im not a schtzofrenic so i dont need these stupid medications which do nothing for me whatsoever apart from hold me back from being a productive human being.
everyone seems to have different responses to the different medications.
something else i might suggest would be trying a SSRI or SNRI such as effexor, people say this is a bad drug (effexor) but it has helped me heaps. personally the SSRI's i have tried have not been as effective and have had worse and longer lasting side effects then the effexor has had on me. many people may say that they get brainzaps and all this shit when they dont take it, which i have to agree with but seriously i dont find them that bad and quite tolerable if and when i forget to take my medication ( i can forget to take it and not realise until the next day having no brainzaps whatsoever, and i can start getting brain zaps around 3pm~ mid arvo and then realise i forgot to take my meds) i think the extended release or effexor -xr is the reason for inconsistency.
allot of people seem to complain about withdrawals from effexor but i went down from 225mg to 150mg and all i got was a bit of diareah. benzo withdrawal is about 100times worse if not managed properly on a reducing scale, this i have also experienced. and would not want to attempt again whilst unmannaged by a doctor.
in saying all this i would suggest staying on the benzos for a good solid anti anxiety drug.
and if you want to swap to another kind of medication the second type i would recommend would be anti-depressants SSRI + SNRI. i dont think all SSRI's are bad i have head really good thing about lexapro, its just that i havent tried it before, so anything i could say about lexapro would not be based on personal experiences i have encountered.