Ready to try and contain my rage not sure when I will ever put out the fire though
I dropped my new Dollar General phone on my driveway hadn't gotten around to getting a case yet and it cracked but still works fine and it made me think bad sign of trouble ahead but also repaying bad karma but all around I want to go get cannabis now from downtown at this place that sells it out their backdoor lol
The real issue with that is wanting to drink beer after smoking and then bingeing on sex, drugs, and rock n roll without the rock star suite lifestyle man I am exhausted of this but I have to work tomorrow my subpersonality knows this so maybe I could use it contained at work and just vape D8 which is much lighter psychoactively speaking at home
That being said the vape I have been using also has CBD in it and I got back on a nic vape so they are keeping me super mellow now
So I wanna put a bandaid on my temper instead of start to unthread the knots of it basically I am saying within my psyche I better keep hush about subpersonalities now one might start to get ideas to thwart my better intentions
Been tuning into Rastafarian elders on YouTube and trying to widen my understanding of things from a holistic perspective like they embrace some encouraged me through their talks to quit using marijuana I don't need it any longer honestly and I feel understanding more will naturally undo anger