and again I'm doin it wrong.

Why cant I just be nice to my friend. I always end up hurting her. Which makes me feel like shit beyond words. The one person whos never fucked me around, never hurt me on purpose or used me, and I always hurt her. I'm half debating 10mm or 12ga 000 to the face right now.

 

dude man, just apologize to her and tell her exactly what you just said. You're good people and I'm sure she is well aware of your qualities.

Sounds like you guys have a strong friendship. That's good shit and hard to come by :D