i will be blogging every day on here... some days just what i've eaten and what drugs i've done; some days more... but something every day. the food aspect is important as i'm a recovering purging anorexic. the drug aspect as i used to self-medicate with street drugs and illicitly obtained Rx drugs, and am currently trying to refrain from abusing my Rx medications... though not successfully. so, here we go:
today is an odd day. one month till release date of the book. one month until i turn 27. i have a TON of transcribing to do, a flurry of editing, a ton of sketches and then the process of having the book printed in that time. i work best under pressure... and it's the start of pressure time... luckily, i have abandoned the idea of joining the "Forever 27 Club" and so i don't have to worry about getting famous and then dying tragically in the next 13 months. i suppose that isn't up to me though.
i should be going back to work at the pizza place again soon. bleh. i need money though.
i ate a fruit-cup, then a jalapeno cheese stick wrapped in tofurkey peppered lunch-meat and microwaved, and a Clif Bar, as well as drinking a Vitamin Water so far today. i will eat dinner of some sort... and i will have a Klondike bar for dessert.
i shot 5mg of oxymorphone IR (i call her Roxy M, as the pill is made by Roxanne Pharma) and 20mg of methylphenidate (i call it Ritty) at 6:30 AM. i crushed up another 10mg of Roxy M. and 20mg of Ritty and added it to the Friday slot of a blue pill-minder i mix my pill shots in. the Friday slot contained the remains of the 6:30AM shot and mooch. i know it's Thursday... i don't bother about the correct date though. i added about 150 units of water to the mix. i drew out 1cc and shot it around 10AM. around 11:45AM i added another 50cc and shot this. i may have done another rinse at some point. i will likely do one after i finish this and smoke a cigarette (my last one, and only the second one of the day). i've been lucky to hit easily in my thigh today. i haven't taken any of my Klonopin 2mg pills (K-pins) or Soma 350mg pills (Soma... hey, it's short enough already)... i've needed to raise a little extra money lately. i don't think i'm physically addicted to the K-pin right now, or if i am, i am just barely. i tend to save it and the Soma up anyways. last Saturday i took about 14mg of K-pin and 8 Somas. that was a good day.
i need to leave my left hand alone... i have a potential infection looming in the webbing between my thumb and index finger. i'm currently on Bactrim orally as well as an ointment. i have an abscess to be lanced on my right arm. it's in the crook of my elbow, the size of a marble, and where my first Staph infection occurred... a frustrated nurse triple stuck me trying to draw blood while i was in the psych ward. they had to put me on IV anti-biotics while i was there, then i had to return to the hospital a few days after i got out of the psych ward as i had to have an abscess about this size sliced open. that was Spring of 2011. two years and 30 or so Staph infections later, i keep getting them. i need to stop shooting, i know it doesn't help. i just want to do one last "Fireball Shot" (5mg Roxy M., 40mg Ritty, a $20 of bell-ringer Coke, and a $20 of Tar Heroin all in one syringe)... then i'll stop shooting the Ritty immediately, and taper off shooting the Roxy M. and switch to plugging or snorting it. i plan to snort the remaining Ritty i have, then go back onto Dextroamphetamine. the only problem is... Cocaine is impossible to find in this town right now; much less good Coke.
i will post a picture of me lancing the abscess tomorrow and a link to a video of me milking it too.
this is all i have for today though, my last cigarette beckons me. buckle up if you plan on continuing to check in though... it'll be one hell of a ride.
today is an odd day. one month till release date of the book. one month until i turn 27. i have a TON of transcribing to do, a flurry of editing, a ton of sketches and then the process of having the book printed in that time. i work best under pressure... and it's the start of pressure time... luckily, i have abandoned the idea of joining the "Forever 27 Club" and so i don't have to worry about getting famous and then dying tragically in the next 13 months. i suppose that isn't up to me though.
i should be going back to work at the pizza place again soon. bleh. i need money though.
i ate a fruit-cup, then a jalapeno cheese stick wrapped in tofurkey peppered lunch-meat and microwaved, and a Clif Bar, as well as drinking a Vitamin Water so far today. i will eat dinner of some sort... and i will have a Klondike bar for dessert.
i shot 5mg of oxymorphone IR (i call her Roxy M, as the pill is made by Roxanne Pharma) and 20mg of methylphenidate (i call it Ritty) at 6:30 AM. i crushed up another 10mg of Roxy M. and 20mg of Ritty and added it to the Friday slot of a blue pill-minder i mix my pill shots in. the Friday slot contained the remains of the 6:30AM shot and mooch. i know it's Thursday... i don't bother about the correct date though. i added about 150 units of water to the mix. i drew out 1cc and shot it around 10AM. around 11:45AM i added another 50cc and shot this. i may have done another rinse at some point. i will likely do one after i finish this and smoke a cigarette (my last one, and only the second one of the day). i've been lucky to hit easily in my thigh today. i haven't taken any of my Klonopin 2mg pills (K-pins) or Soma 350mg pills (Soma... hey, it's short enough already)... i've needed to raise a little extra money lately. i don't think i'm physically addicted to the K-pin right now, or if i am, i am just barely. i tend to save it and the Soma up anyways. last Saturday i took about 14mg of K-pin and 8 Somas. that was a good day.
i need to leave my left hand alone... i have a potential infection looming in the webbing between my thumb and index finger. i'm currently on Bactrim orally as well as an ointment. i have an abscess to be lanced on my right arm. it's in the crook of my elbow, the size of a marble, and where my first Staph infection occurred... a frustrated nurse triple stuck me trying to draw blood while i was in the psych ward. they had to put me on IV anti-biotics while i was there, then i had to return to the hospital a few days after i got out of the psych ward as i had to have an abscess about this size sliced open. that was Spring of 2011. two years and 30 or so Staph infections later, i keep getting them. i need to stop shooting, i know it doesn't help. i just want to do one last "Fireball Shot" (5mg Roxy M., 40mg Ritty, a $20 of bell-ringer Coke, and a $20 of Tar Heroin all in one syringe)... then i'll stop shooting the Ritty immediately, and taper off shooting the Roxy M. and switch to plugging or snorting it. i plan to snort the remaining Ritty i have, then go back onto Dextroamphetamine. the only problem is... Cocaine is impossible to find in this town right now; much less good Coke.
i will post a picture of me lancing the abscess tomorrow and a link to a video of me milking it too.
this is all i have for today though, my last cigarette beckons me. buckle up if you plan on continuing to check in though... it'll be one hell of a ride.