Recovery An Honest Review on Methadone Withdrawals

[RC-Lover123]

Damn, how long were you heavy using, u over 40+y/o? Lucky you on your wife's libido (was she a heavy user as well), my mf gf is like a rabbit, it used to make me feel bad and useless when the viagra pills didnt work but she has cool down a bit in the last year or so lol. I guess since you stopped in June this year u might still get something back in that regard, its still kinda soon and those organic poppy pops sound like no joke, interesting addiction there, not as common as the other ones but i guess is same shit different thing lol. Take care RC.

Yeah, I am 40+ years old, been with my wife for over 20 years. I was using Kratom for 4 years and then switched over to the poppy pods. Kratom really destroyed my libido and it never came back properly. And no, my wife is a medical doctor nd she is usually scolding me about my drug abuse.

Regarding the poppy pods: I am a lazy addict, I never abuse any drug that is expensive or difficult to source. I need cheap and reliable access and a huge stash in my basement. Poppy pods were cheap, my habit never cost me more than 100 Euro per month. Strong stuff as well, I enjoy the pods more than oxycodone. Oxycodone always leaves me craving booze whereas the poppy pods have a nice sedative effect if you take enough. The withdrawal was hell, though. I have had all kinds of withdrawals, from benzos, GBL, some opioid withdrawals. All were bad and I was miserable but this poppy pod withdrawal was an entirely new experience. I did not know that you could feel that awful, felt like torture until I used a lot of loperamide to get over the poppy poison.

 

[HerbsQuit]

Day 17 here off this bitch "done.

Yesterday was actually a very surprising day in that my legs werent hurting as much, like i could walk faster and with less pain, it surprised even me. Maybe all those vitamins and b complex and me doing legs exercise in the pool this weekend helped me out. I sleep...fine, i mean who im i kidding, i sleep good, from 9pm until 2:30am and then about 45 min at 6am. which is fine in my book, i get what i can get. Maybe soon i can start exercising again, slowly but something is something. Cause those legs exercise in the pool i could only do 5 to 10 min, that was it, i was gassed. What else.....ohhh wooooooood, ive been getting morning wood, after breakfast wood, after lunch wood, afternoon wood, etc etc my dick is feeling like Frankenstein, "ITS ALIVE", just a lil breeze down is enough to...yeah. after about 8 years on maintance drugs (subox and then methadone) my libido is coming back. Guess my GF, who is back home in Europe, is going to be happy about this fucking news. Dude those subox and done fucking demolished my libido, not only down there but mentally as well. Like when my girl and i got down i had to have one of two of those blue pills....but not bc i really wanted to in the last 2 years but to please her....and how many times did i had to faked cum ufffff, cause it was endless, u never cum. So yeah, another thing thats coming back. Take care everybody and stay safe.

Funghi out.

Glad u r doing fine Funghi!

 

[neversickanymore]

4 hours sleep is normal and money.. that will reset. Amazing work. Id roll exercise as soon as you see it benefiting. Can really help with fatigue and Paws etc. Rub a few out to clean out the plumbing.

 

[Fungus_Am0nguz]

Day 18

I woke up after an amazing 6:30 hours of sleep. I think the sleeping meds are working better, one thing that really knocked me the fuck out were a 2mg Clonazepam (watch out with these fuckers, only using them a week tops, ill explain the reason) i remember i went and got a muffin, in case i got late night munchies, dude when i woke it was all over the bed demolished, crumbs everywhere in the bed, just a complete mess :/ but whatever, when i looked at the clock i couldnt believe it how much i sleep in one go. Anyways maybe somebody could give some advice on this, so on Day 16 at 9am i had my last Lyrica of 100mg (not bc im out of them, shit i still have a new box of 86 pills but bc i dont think i really need them anymore,,,,,legs are feeling better, sleep is coming back, etc), i used to take 3 lyricas of 100 for maybe a year and a half up to very recently that i used them to help with the methadone kick, anyways day 16 wasnt bad since i took one at 9am, but yesterday day 17 (in which i didnt take one), i started to feel ....something, first lil ants in my arms and legs, a bit uncomfortable and funny enough the runs came back with a vengeance, weird. So i started reading a bit here in the bluelight forum and even though there are plp who claimed horror stories (one dude said that it was worst that opiate wds, lol, of course he was taking 1500mg a day but only for a few months, again lol.....but hey everyone's different) I found 3 bluelighters that took the same those as me (3 pills x day of 100) for years and didnt really have wds, one of them said that at worst is like 2 or 3 days of middle uncomfortable signs, so after that i started laughing about these bitch ass "wds" if you could call em that, they are annoying but i wouldnt called em wds, just pesky lil ants. anyways today is over 48 over without taking any lyrica, and even though i feel a bit...hmm not pleasant with these fuckers sensations i can bare with it for a couple of more days. Anyways any1 here has experience cutting lyrica from its head? not cutting lil by lil but WHAM later fool. Forward if the only option from here. Take care my friends.

Funghi out.

 

[Fungus_Am0nguz]

Glad u r doing fine Funghi!

My dear friend, you have been a saint with all your incredible advice. Thank you so much. Hope you are having a great day. Fr thank you.

 

[Fungus_Am0nguz]

4 hours sleep is normal and money.. that will reset. Amazing work. Id roll exercise as soon as you see it benefiting. Can really help with fatigue and Paws etc. Rub a few out to clean out the plumbing.

Dude i cant wait to start exercising, theres a lil gym in the place were im staying at, imma hop on that running machine as soon as i can (ive always been an active guy (surfing, weights) even when i was shooting up, i was always fucking around w something, u know, always moving) And the other thing, you know what they say, a good attitude has a way of rubbing of people, just like a public masturbator. Been jacking off whenever i get the chance, a lil relief in this hellish days is always welcome in my book. Thanks for the support.

 

[Fungus_Am0nguz]

Yeah, I am 40+ years old, been with my wife for over 20 years. I was using Kratom for 4 years and then switched over to the poppy pods. Kratom really destroyed my libido and it never came back properly. And no, my wife is a medical doctor nd she is usually scolding me about my drug abuse.

Regarding the poppy pods: I am a lazy addict, I never abuse any drug that is expensive or difficult to source. I need cheap and reliable access and a huge stash in my basement. Poppy pods were cheap, my habit never cost me more than 100 Euro per month. Strong stuff as well, I enjoy the pods more than oxycodone. Oxycodone always leaves me craving booze whereas the poppy pods have a nice sedative effect if you take enough. The withdrawal was hell, though. I have had all kinds of withdrawals, from benzos, GBL, some opioid withdrawals. All were bad and I was miserable but this poppy pod withdrawal was an entirely new experience. I did not know that you could feel that awful, felt like torture until I used a lot of loperamide to get over the poppy poison.

Damnnnn, interesting addiction u had there, your wife sounds a lot like my gf, not as a medical doctor (although my moms and sister are) but about scolding me about my drug use, illegal or legal lol, she doesnt even smoke, barely drinks. Damn 100 euros per month, thats insane dude, that would be my morning fix, im not saying ur lucky, since u went through hell to kick that nasty poppy addiction, but i guess the destruction of everything and everyone in your path you manage to avoid.....i least i would hope. That lazy card played in your favor, since w heroin/fenty u cant be lazy, u r a slave to this, theres no holidays, no birthdays, just getting your fix, stacking up, but that lingering feeling of "when this shit goes out, then what? i better start my hustle now" its a like racing to an never ending clock thats about to hit 0 soon if u dont get ur ass moving. Im agnostic (i was an atheist until a very high iboga flood dose) and the only time i REALLY pray to God or whatever was for Him to please dont let me wake up in the morning, im talking on my knees praying, because i knew that as soon as i woke up, the slavery was back on full motion. Anyways take care RC, have a great day.

 

[HerbsQuit]

My dear friend, you have been a saint with all your incredible advice. Thank you so much. Hope you are having a great day. Fr thank you.

Funghi if u wanna quit the pregab get GABA Supplement. It helps with the pregab jitters. But u cant take GABA supplement with Benzo (or pregab!). U need to lower down ur Benzo a notch or space it out in a day, as in take GABA supplement once a day in morning and ur benzo at night.

Im not sure of ur goal. Is it to be fully drug free or do u want to keep taking benzo? If u wanna keep taking benzo then benzo can also kill pregab wd. Maybe u havent feel the wd of pregab yet coz u still taking benzo with long half life.

If ur goal is to be drug free and u only used benzo to kick this MTD wd u better start making benzo exit plan because u already been taking it for 18 days.

 

[Fungus_Am0nguz]

Funghi if u wanna quit the pregab get GABA Supplement. It helps with the pregab jitters. But u cant take GABA supplement with Benzo (or pregab!). U need to lower down ur Benzo a notch or space it out in a day, as in take GABA supplement once a day in morning and ur benzo at night.

Im not sure of ur goal. Is it to be fully drug free or do u want to keep taking benzo? If u wanna keep taking benzo then benzo can also kill pregab wd. Maybe u havent feel the wd of pregab yet coz u still taking benzo with long half life.

If ur goal is to be drug free and u only used benzo to kick this MTD wd u better start making benzo exit plan because u already been taking it for 18 days.

Day 19

My friend, thanks for the reply. I believe that when i made my first post, idk if it was this one or yours (Quitting methadone that bastard) that you suggested to get clonazepam better (along with all those natural supplements) since the half life is longer and is better for sleeping anyways. So Monday i threw away my lorazepam and bromazepam and got a box of clonazepam. And like always, you were right, ive only been taking it since yesterday and noticed a huge improvement in my sleep. I never been the biggest benzo fan, never liked the high, even when i was abusing them it was for a short time, then u stop, u sleep like crap 1 or 2 days and i was good to go. Never got benzo wds or anxious (never been the anxious or have panic attack kind of person). I have to say that yesterday day 18 the skin crawls came back, after days of not having them, i imagine it was bc of the lyrica but the mind is powerful once is set in a goal. Every time (and this went on all morning and afternoon) my skin crawl i just went "bitch thats all u got?" and then it came back a bit stronger, again "u call this a wd? lol, i used to be from the heroin school, fuck out here" all afternoon like that. Were it really got me was with the runs, only crap, not even immodium or pepto could stop it, i swear i got more runs today than when i was kicking methadone the first week, without question. But yeah, today morning it would be 72 hours without lyrica.

Keep taking benzos?? Hell naw, I WANNA BE DRUG FREE, i havent even had coffee in 18 days. Speaking of which, how many days u think i should take the clonazepam? 3 or 4 more days? a bit longer?? Also Clonidine, man that is a life saver. Every morning i take it along with Vic C and B Complex and a multivitamin and at night the Vit D and Gingko. How about the Clonidine, dont tell these ones also give u a mid wds when u cut em? lol, i remember in a lot of the rehabs what ive been to they used it for the dope kick wds, then they slowly cut it and u didnt feel anything bad.

Anyways something great happened last night, something that i hadnt experienced in yearsssss.....I had a dream , i was dreaming without noticing at first and it was me and some friends that unfortunately are not alive anymore, i was laughing, running around w them, i almost got into a fight w one of them (i used to fight a LOT when i was younger, just a violent kid that liked to square up) and then i realized "hey wait a minute, B, you arent alive" and thats when i realize that i was dreaming. I dont have to say "i aint joking" to a bunch of ex or current dope heads that you never dream on opiates/opioids, like the first thing it steals from you, your dreams, its been years and years w o dreaming, and i love to dream btw. Thats a good sign that im coming back, still a long way to go but day by day. I probably had 6:45 hours of sleep. BOOYAHH. im starting to feel like my dick "im ALIVE AGAIN"
Take care everyone, thanks for the replies and the dms, they help more than u can imagine.

Funghi out

 

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Day 19

My friend, thanks for the reply. I believe that when i made my first post, idk if it was this one or yours (Quitting methadone that bastard) that you suggested to get clonazepam better (along with all those natural supplements) since the half life is longer and is better for sleeping anyways. So Monday i threw away my lorazepam and bromazepam and got a box of clonazepam. And like always, you were right, ive only been taking it since yesterday and noticed a huge improvement in my sleep. I never been the biggest benzo fan, never liked the high, even when i was abusing them it was for a short time, then u stop, u sleep like crap 1 or 2 days and i was good to go. Never got benzo wds or anxious (never been the anxious or have panic attack kind of person). I have to say that yesterday day 18 the skin crawls came back, after days of not having them, i imagine it was bc of the lyrica but the mind is powerful once is set in a goal. Every time (and this went on all morning and afternoon) my skin crawl i just went "bitch thats all u got?" and then it came back a bit stronger, again "u call this a wd? lol, i used to be from the heroin school, fuck out here" all afternoon like that. Were it really got me was with the runs, only crap, not even immodium or pepto could stop it, i swear i got more runs today than when i was kicking methadone the first week, without question. But yeah, today morning it would be 72 hours without lyrica.

Keep taking benzos?? Hell naw, I WANNA BE DRUG FREE, i havent even had coffee in 18 days. Speaking of which, how many days u think i should take the clonazepam? 3 or 4 more days? a bit longer?? Also Clonidine, man that is a life saver. Every morning i take it along with Vic C and B Complex and a multivitamin and at night the Vit D and Gingko. How about the Clonidine, dont tell these ones also give u a mid wds when u cut em? lol, i remember in a lot of the rehabs what ive been to they used it for the dope kick wds, then they slowly cut it and u didnt feel anything bad.

Anyways something great happened last night, something that i hadnt experienced in yearsssss.....I had a dream , i was dreaming without noticing at first and it was me and some friends that unfortunately are not alive anymore, i was laughing, running around w them, i almost got into a fight w one of them (i used to fight a LOT when i was younger, just a violent kid that liked to square up) and then i realized "hey wait a minute, B, you arent alive" and thats when i realize that i was dreaming. I dont have to say "i aint joking" to a bunch of ex or current dope heads that you never dream on opiates/opioids, like the first thing it steals from you, your dreams, its been years and years w o dreaming, and i love to dream btw. Thats a good sign that im coming back, still a long way to go but day by day. I probably had 6:45 hours of sleep. BOOYAHH. im starting to feel like my dick "im ALIVE AGAIN"
Take care everyone, thanks for the replies and the dms, they help more than u can imagine.

Funghi out

Hi Funghi,

I believe i was recommending Valium . I never taken Clonazepam all my life i don't even know what it feels like in comparison to Xanax or Diazepam. But glad that worked for u. Yeah we are both from the school of H. It's funny u also don't like benzo. I was a strict opiater.

I took Clonidine as well for my MTD wd but only for a week if i recall correctly. I was wary of the possible wd: Hypertension, if taken too long. I have no idea tho how long it takes before Clonidine wd starts. But my psychiatrist warned me not to take more than 14 days so i didn't. The only one that stuck was the Valium but i keep on reducing the dose. Today is my day 7 without any medications at all. No benzo no pregab no nothing. Im 4 months after my last MTD and starting to feel somewhat normal. Just slight anxiety in morning. Brain running like an old ferrari that needs repair. Runs really fast, then blank, then really fast, then blank.

Ok Funghi, see u! Keep on going bro.

 

[Fungus_Am0nguz]

Hi Funghi,

I believe i was recommending Valium . I never taken Clonazepam all my life i don't even know what it feels like in comparison to Xanax or Diazepam. But glad that worked for u. Yeah we are both from the school of H. It's funny u also don't like benzo. I was a strict opiater.

I took Clonidine as well for my MTD wd but only for a week if i recall correctly. I was wary of the possible wd: Hypertension, if taken too long. I have no idea tho how long it takes before Clonidine wd starts. But my psychiatrist warned me not to take more than 14 days so i didn't. The only one that stuck was the Valium but i keep on reducing the dose. Today is my day 7 without any medications at all. No benzo no pregab no nothing. Im 4 months after my last MTD and starting to feel somewhat normal. Just slight anxiety in morning. Brain running like an old ferrari that needs repair. Runs really fast, then blank, then really fast, then blank.

Ok Funghi, see u! Keep on going bro.

LOL sorry for the mistake with that benzo, im still having brain farts all the time. Wow congratz on day 7 without nothing. I guess you had the same plan, CLEAN EASTWOOD for us, i wanna get there as well, im really happy that you did it and are doing it. U still taking those Vit C and B Complex in the mornings? I was reading your posts in your "Quitting Methadone" and we definitely shared a lot of past similarities, im over 40+, been shooting dope since the late 90s, been on Maintenance opiate drugs almost 8 years and even though ive done a lot of drugs, from crack to every psychedelic, i was always a heroinhead 4 life. I mean there were some years were i was shooting speedballs, which is always a bad move, always, u go from shooting dope 5 or 6 times a day to shooting 25 to 30 times a day, no joke, i still have the damn scars

And yeah my brain is kinda racing as well, mine is like a beat up Corolla at the moment, i cant concentrate to watch a movie or a tv show or youtube BUT i can read, im reading books like crazy (ive always like reading). Oh btw, my legs, shiiiiiiiiit i was dancing salsa this morning, so almost over that fucking hill.

Anyways i cant thank u enough girl for all ur advice, they really helped. U sleeping ok now without meds? U taking ur Vit D and Gingko Biloba (jesus i sound like a parent, wtf lol) just looking out, thats all. Have a great day hun. Day at a time, we got this bitch. Hey did u took time off to do this jump? dont tell me u were working like u were doing this.......right?

 

[Fungus_Am0nguz]

Day 20

Sleep very well last night, although i had some of those demon thoughts for the first time in a long time but since im older i know when its my addiction trying to fuck w me. You know those thoughts enter your head without asking permission, they come right in, the difference is: are you gonna let these fucking birds do a nest in your head and fuck up you shit.....nope, not this time. This "other" me is always gonna be there but this time im driving the car not him, matter fact i put him in the trunk of the car. Anyways yesterday it was ok, i didnt had that many ants/skin crawls (idk if its bc of the lyrica i quit this week or still the "done wds) whatever it was i told it to eat a bag of dicks the size of baguettes and i even went on the running machine, not running or jogging but walking for about 30 min, it hurt but felt good, pain is good sometimes. Anyways my appetite is gone, like gone gone, i guess it was the lyrica that was always making me hungry, no wonder when i was kicking methadone i kept eating, i was like wtf, this aint normal, usually i can barely tolerate crackers only. The runs are there but less, immodium help w this yesterday. Idk why but the day seems to really drag on yesterday, i couldnt wait for it to be over.

Anyways if i keep improving a lil bit every day, maybe next week i can do some work stuff, i have to check on some new contracts and start doing shit, yesterday i felt like i was loosing my mind a bit in this house. Legs are way better btw, my bro gave me one of those pro massage things that he uses after a surf sesh and it felt kinda nice in my legs and arms (not in my back, ouch). What else? reading like crazy, still cant watch tv or movies (except the world cup games) which kinda suck since u can kill a few hours a days watching tv but i just ....dont feel like it. My meds/multi vitamins are the same, next week Monday i would be a week off Lyrica, next stop benzos out. Have a great day everyone.

Funghi out

 

[Fungus_Am0nguz]

Day 21

Feeling tired and with RLS maybe is bc im cutting my meds a bit fast, who knows but shit is getting annoying. My sleep is ok, my appetite is zip, my mood comes and goes. You know, i got a friend that is an iboga provider in a center and he is coming in about a month to help me out with that....for free, thats nice of him. I remember Iboga helped me (the flood and then the ceremony) but i wasnt ready, i kept my old "friends" and environment, this was 10 years ago and i relapse.. But i never forgot the experience and ive done two Ayahuasca ceremonies, Peyote buttons, the bufo toad, and a lot of lsd and shrooms, all great trips, some of them really deep but man that Iboga flood sure kicked my ass (just demons and death for 12 hours straight) but i wasnt scared i was blown away, the journey ceremony was much more in depth and insightful.

Anyways im feeling a bit anxious but im just taking my benzo at night, not during the day. The vit help, at home i got nothing to talk to about this but at least i got yall mfs. Anyways take care and have a great weekend.

Funghi out.

 

[HerbsQuit]

LOL sorry for the mistake with that benzo, im still having brain farts all the time. Wow congratz on day 7 without nothing. I guess you had the same plan, CLEAN EASTWOOD for us, i wanna get there as well, im really happy that you did it and are doing it. U still taking those Vit C and B Complex in the mornings? I was reading your posts in your "Quitting Methadone" and we definitely shared a lot of past similarities, im over 40+, been shooting dope since the late 90s, been on Maintenance opiate drugs almost 8 years and even though ive done a lot of drugs, from crack to every psychedelic, i was always a heroinhead 4 life. I mean there were some years were i was shooting speedballs, which is always a bad move, always, u go from shooting dope 5 or 6 times a day to shooting 25 to 30 times a day, no joke, i still have the damn scars

And yeah my brain is kinda racing as well, mine is like a beat up Corolla at the moment, i cant concentrate to watch a movie or a tv show or youtube BUT i can read, im reading books like crazy (ive always like reading). Oh btw, my legs, shiiiiiiiiit i was dancing salsa this morning, so almost over that fucking hill.

Anyways i cant thank u enough girl for all ur advice, they really helped. U sleeping ok now without meds? U taking ur Vit D and Gingko Biloba (jesus i sound like a parent, wtf lol) just looking out, thats all. Have a great day hun. Day at a time, we got this bitch. Hey did u took time off to do this jump? dont tell me u were working like u were doing this.......right?

I sleep without meds way earlier than my month 4. I think by month 3 i start to feel the drastic changes in my brain. The no.1 most obvious is i become SUPER SENSITIVE to meds. Even anti anxiety supplements like GABA or Passion flower i actually fall asleep on those . In comparison when i was on MTD i was harder to knock out. 10mg Valium meh i can still walk around. But then on month 3 post MTD wd even a tiny 2.5mg Valium knocked me out cold. I felt like i had superpowers before but then it's gone.

The hardest part for me is actually NOT the sleeping or the RLS. They all return to normal pretty quick. It's the ants on arms, anxiety, ibs, diarrhea, electrocution feeling from spine, muscle pain and muscle weakness that took awhile. It improves really fast tho after i quit benzo. Makes me think it's actually the benzo

Now also my IBS starts to subside after i supplement with Probiotics. My diarrhea almost gone. Anxiety almost gone. I also starts regaining strength and muscle back.

As for vitamins now i take multivitamins, i don't supplement specific vitamins anymore. Gingko i dont really need anymore, the ants on arms have subsided.

For anxiety (come and go on some days yes some days no) i just take GABA before bed.

For muscle pain (sometimes) i just take tylenol. It works for me now .

No pain no gain. I realize with this paws thing, the more i crutch myself with benzo or meds, the longer the PAWS. So i just let my brain rewires itself.

By day 20 MTD should be gone from ur system. I quit my MTD with Codeine. I knew then MTD is no more when by around day 16 or 17 i couldnt open my eyes with 50mg Codeine. Codeine! Can u believe it.

Congrats on loosing the pregab. Try tapering ur benzo as soon as u can. Big hug and love.

Herbs out

 

[HerbsQuit]

Day 21

Feeling tired and with RLS maybe is bc im cutting my meds a bit fast, who knows but shit is getting annoying. My sleep is ok, my appetite is zip, my mood comes and goes. You know, i got a friend that is an iboga provider in a center and he is coming in about a month to help me out with that....for free, thats nice of him. I remember Iboga helped me (the flood and then the ceremony) but i wasnt ready, i kept my old "friends" and environment, this was 10 years ago and i relapse.. But i never forgot the experience and ive done two Ayahuasca ceremonies, Peyote buttons, the bufo toad, and a lot of lsd and shrooms, all great trips, some of them really deep but man that Iboga flood sure kicked my ass (just demons and death for 12 hours straight) but i wasnt scared i was blown away, the journey ceremony was much more in depth and insightful.

Anyways im feeling a bit anxious but im just taking my benzo at night, not during the day. The vit help, at home i got nothing to talk to about this but at least i got yall mfs. Anyways take care and have a great weekend.

Funghi out.

Uh...Funghi..i don't think Iboga is a good idea for now...ur brain needs to return to baseline. Just the experience of MTD acute wd is traumatizing enough for ur neurotransmitters. They r imbalanced. Plus u r still taking Benzo (another brain altering meds). Ur goal should be focused on balancing ur brain chemicals. The faster u can do this the faster u will get out of this hellhole.

For ur restless leg syndrome if it is TOO MUCH, try 2mg trihexyphenidyl (warning: taste like on cocaine, euphoria, fast heart beat, happy mood. Don't get used to it!) For ur morning anxiety try GABA Supplement. It works.

 

[Fungus_Am0nguz]

Uh...Funghi..i don't think Iboga is a good idea for now...ur brain needs to return to baseline. Just the experience of MTD acute wd is traumatizing enough for ur neurotransmitters. They r imbalanced. Plus u r still taking Benzo (another brain altering meds). Ur goal should be focused on balancing ur brain chemicals. The faster u can do this the faster u will get out of this hellhole.

For ur restless leg syndrome if it is TOO MUCH, try 2mg trihexyphenidyl (warning: taste like on cocaine, euphoria, fast heart beat, happy mood. Don't get used to it!) For ur morning anxiety try GABA Supplement. It works.

My Dear Herbs, i thought u had abandon me lol, jk.

So day 22 today i felt a lot better, clonidine is half now, same as the benzo, only half in the night and r u right, i guess since the MTD is leaving my system or is already out, half a benzo knocks me out cold. I remember the first week it was a couple of benzos + 200mg of Seroquel and they didnt do shit for sleeping, lol. Guess we are loosing "superpowers", what im still taking is every other thing you recommended and at the time you said, also i need to get this GABA supplement, it sounds really good. Idk why but i thought gabapentin for a second and i was "what???? my fav doctor is recommending that?" l told u before, brain farts. So this GABA supplement i take it at night as well? This week im quitting the clonidine (which is nothing to quit) and the benzo (which should one or two day of not sleeping that well, but hey since u mentioned the GABA + plus gingko and Vit D, maybe it wont even be that bad, as we have talked, never been a benzo head, never liked em. So this week i will try eliminating both. Need to get this GABA.

As for the Iboga, idk, is happening in 3 weeks and i was thinking a mini flood (it kicks your ass but it removes every bad shit uve taken for years, every cigs lol, its a cleanse of body mind and spirit) and ceremony journey to go deep and answer some important questions i have but my friend provider is the one who really knows his shit. Also if i can cut or almost eliminate my PAWS of months by having a really hard night and day with the iboga,well u dont have 2 guess what coin im choosing here. Have u had experience with Iboga?? I know u said u were a dope head 100%, same here, even though ive fucked w tons of other "hard" drugs, they have all been a joke to quit, from crack, to meth to whatever. Only dope was my true love and it made me a slave to it, i manage to graduate and get my Master's and had great jobs and made great money and had amazing relationships with plp that care for me deeply but dope was my one true love.

The 2mg trihexyphenidyl sounds awful lol, like shooting coke or something haha, im not even drinking coffee, day 22 off that as well. i dont know about that one, i can handle the rls, i dont what nothing that accelerates me.

Thanks for replying to me, its great that u manage to be clean of everything, over a week and counting, balls of....im sorry ovaries of steal u got there, im proud of u. And thats crazy about the lean (codeine) since its one of the weakest opioids lol, 50mg KO u out? and 13 years "done user, thats nuts, MTD is such a bitch.

 

[Fungus_Am0nguz]

Day 23

Today i did some work, not a lot since i felt not motivated but something, then i watched the two world cup games and idk i has been kinda of a meh day, a bit anxious but more than that just tired. Is one of those days were u wished it was over. dont have any appetite but at least the runs stopped. anyways i dont got a lot to add today. Take care everyone.

Funghi out.

 

[HerbsQuit]

My Dear Herbs, i thought u had abandon me lol, jk.

So day 22 today i felt a lot better, clonidine is half now, same as the benzo, only half in the night and r u right, i guess since the MTD is leaving my system or is already out, half a benzo knocks me out cold. I remember the first week it was a couple of benzos + 200mg of Seroquel and they didnt do shit for sleeping, lol. Guess we are loosing "superpowers", what im still taking is every other thing you recommended and at the time you said, also i need to get this GABA supplement, it sounds really good. Idk why but i thought gabapentin for a second and i was "what???? my fav doctor is recommending that?" l told u before, brain farts. So this GABA supplement i take it at night as well? This week im quitting the clonidine (which is nothing to quit) and the benzo (which should one or two day of not sleeping that well, but hey since u mentioned the GABA + plus gingko and Vit D, maybe it wont even be that bad, as we have talked, never been a benzo head, never liked em. So this week i will try eliminating both. Need to get this GABA.

As for the Iboga, idk, is happening in 3 weeks and i was thinking a mini flood (it kicks your ass but it removes every bad shit uve taken for years, every cigs lol, its a cleanse of body mind and spirit) and ceremony journey to go deep and answer some important questions i have but my friend provider is the one who really knows his shit. Also if i can cut or almost eliminate my PAWS of months by having a really hard night and day with the iboga,well u dont have 2 guess what coin im choosing here. Have u had experience with Iboga?? I know u said u were a dope head 100%, same here, even though ive fucked w tons of other "hard" drugs, they have all been a joke to quit, from crack, to meth to whatever. Only dope was my true love and it made me a slave to it, i manage to graduate and get my Master's and had great jobs and made great money and had amazing relationships with plp that care for me deeply but dope was my one true love.

The 2mg trihexyphenidyl sounds awful lol, like shooting coke or something haha, im not even drinking coffee, day 22 off that as well. i dont know about that one, i can handle the rls, i dont what nothing that accelerates me.

Thanks for replying to me, its great that u manage to be clean of everything, over a week and counting, balls of....im sorry ovaries of steal u got there, im proud of u. And thats crazy about the lean (codeine) since its one of the weakest opioids lol, 50mg KO u out? and 13 years "done user, thats nuts, MTD is such a bitch.

No i never tried Iboga before. I was a pure opiater. My one and true love.
Leaving it is hard for me. Hard hard hard. Sometimes i wake up like today and i have thoughts like, "Im so lost. I feel so depressed i wanna die. It was a mistake quitting Methadone."

The depression and feeling sick still comes and goes. Especially strong when i have period. I assume is because my body had a constant supply of Dopamine and Opioid for 13 years it doesn't produce its own natural opioid anymore. Even the touch of air from the fan on my skin hurts. It's crazy. Period becomes super painful.

I also have episodes of staring into space. Like today this period is so painful i want to pop 0.25mg Xanax just to get relief.

GABA can be taken anytime of the day u feel most anxious.

See u later Funghi

 

[HerbsQuit]

Oh Funghi before i forgot, DO NOT TAKE GABA TOGETHER WITH BENZO!
You know these two works the same in brain right, it will potentiate the benzo and may be way too much after u r not on MTD anymore

 

[Fungus_Am0nguz]

No i never tried Iboga before. I was a pure opiater. My one and true love.
Leaving it is hard for me. Hard hard hard. Sometimes i wake up like today and i have thoughts like, "Im so lost. I feel so depressed i wanna die. It was a mistake quitting Methadone."

The depression and feeling sick still comes and goes. Especially strong when i have period. I assume is because my body had a constant supply of Dopamine and Opioid for 13 years it doesn't produce its own natural opioid anymore. Even the touch of air from the fan on my skin hurts. It's crazy. Period becomes super painful.

I also have episodes of staring into space. Like today this period is so painful i want to pop 0.25mg Xanax just to get relief.

GABA can be taken anytime of the day u feel most anxious.

See u later Funghi

Day 24

Yeah i think im getting those feelings as well now, maybe now that my wds are a lil bitty less my mind is starting to f w me, Need to get that GABA, last night went to bed way to early (like at 730PM lol) and woke up at 1am like uh uh, now what??, its been an extremely tired day, legs are not hurting like before but they hurt today more than the past few days. idk its been a shitty day and i cant wait for it to be over.

Damn Herbs i sound like a puppy compared to your symtoms , specially after so much time.

What a gloomy day, feels like a dark cloud just follows me and takes my drive and motivation. A day at a time i guess.

Funghi out.