stivsmegg
Bluelighter
yes! take it from me, i am 33 yrs old, been addicted to heroin almost half my life and now been on methadone on and off for 10 yrs so now a lifer. i started out shooting meth at 15 so i love speed but the heroin ruined my life even more because of the need , now i am in a nursing home/rehabillitation center after a major stroke, in the last 6 months i had to re learn to eat,walk and do about everything and still the whole left side of my body is numb and practically useless, i went through twenty some years shooting whatever i could find so that didnt help but the last 5 years i mostly only took my methadone and still love my herb but my girl has adhd like me only her doc is liberal with the addy so the last year and a half she has been basically sharing her script of 30/30s 3020s(xr btw and 60 20s(ir) and filling scripts early was no problem for the good doctor ...but then the headaches came.....then one day(thank god my girl was there i had a siezure so she called an ambulance,long story short they had to remove 1/3 of my skull and later replace it with a plastic prosthetic..anyway just a story for ya i am just walking with a cane finally and wouldnt ya know today is fuckin pill day so a couple bombs (30xrs and a couple 20s chewed up for good measure im finally feeling no nueropathic pain and for the first time in months im happy! is this smart? opinions differ even among doctors but i am a born addict and feeling good NOW is what i want so i try to d everything ese the docs say and mostly nowits physical rehab getting my left arm and leg working again and im a drummer so getting them to work is a must!just a cautonary/exp tale i hope someone learns something usefull from it. questions welcomed and encouraged -justinI was just like you when I was younger. During my first year of college I schemed my way into a fat script of Adderall. I got a 3-month supply in the mail and I would burn through it in a month, maybe a month-and-a-half. When I was out, I'd have to search around and try to nab a couple out of all of my friends' scripts. I was hardly sleeping, lost a ton of weight, and was generally retarded. I couldn't remember anything, wouldn't study for tests properly, and despite the fact I felt like SHIT and wasn't sleeping or eating, I would still take that extra dose of Addy to keep it going. I've run the gamut of addictions and drug use over the years and this was, by far, the one that ran me into the ground the hardest. After about a year and a half of that shit, I went into my quack Indian doctor and told him I would not be seeing him again and that was that. I quit and have only used it a couple times in the last 5 years. (Freebies that were given to me my best friend.)
You need to figure out what changes you can make without stimulant medication to treat your ADHD. Do you really -have- ADHD? What distracts you from the things you need to accomplish? Set aside a schedule, write everything down, of things that you need to accomplish for the day. Look at number one, and do it. Finish it. Completely. Cross it off the list, and move on to number 2. You need to begin training yourself to finish things you start, and do a damn good job. You'll be proud when it begins to work for you. You're a 22-year-old man and you need to focus on your future. You can't rely on speed forever. It's only been a year and you are already feeling the toll it's taking on your body and mind.ps. also very important and very true is how easy quitting stimulants is compared to so many other things i remember kicking 150 mgs of methadone and about 6 mgs a day of klonopin cold turkey in jail,literally shitting myselfand therewas a guy there "kicking"meth he kept saying al i can do is sleep and eat ad i thought i would kill right now for an hours sleep or to even eat, all im saying is w/d when compared to benzos or opiates or even alchaholis non existant your ody will mrely crave what it had lacked for so long,now i ca eat fine on good, clean amphetamine and as long as my temazepam isnt out i sleep too so its a lot easier on my body to begin with. q's comment's?
Just quit that shit man. There's no withdrawal. You'll fiend for a while, you'll feel depressed, you'll crave that sugary goodness. But it goes away. Be glad you won't be tossing cookies and launching yourself off the toilet. You won't ache and have to stretch for hours and hours on end like with H or Methadone. You'll WANT to sleep. You'll WANT to eat. And you'll be better for it. Trust me.
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