Finally i got time and the right mood to put this experience into words. First some words about me. I am almost 28 years old and would say an experienced user. I started with weed about ten years ago and it didn't take long i ended up at my first psytrance party also about 10 years ago. If you know the psy scene u know how fast people get used to taking drugs regularly there.
For a long time i stayed mainly with psychedelics and took rarly speed and MDMA.
Lately i am quite into speed. Like to be awake some days from time to time. It also fits into my life as student (lot of learning @night).
Anyway, some weeks ago i stayed awake from saturday to sunday and went at morning to a nearby psytrance party that was happening till ten @ the evening of this sunday. I was happy that a officially long lasting party was in my area. I arrived at about 10 in the morning, so twelve hours to go
There were a lot of people and one dancefloor inside an old factory building, one outside it. Had some speed with me i got at a party two weeks before. With the time i met more and more people, some i new before but mostly new unknown freaks
Beer was quite cheap so at the evening i had drunken about 3-4 liters beer and took far to much speed. Bought some quite bad stuff there and got and gave lot of lines here and there (u know this kind of parties).
Between i think 6 and 7 in the evening i met a new guy with whom i chatted some time. He got some really good speed and we took a bit of it.
But here comes the main point of the whole story. Out of his pocket he took a small paper package with a white powder. I think he said it was MDMA, but i am not sure he actually said MDMA coz i was already far away. If he did say MDMA it was a lie. This stuff never was MDMA. I know for sure he said take "very very small amount" - i know a little about RCs, at least enough to not be dumb enough dipping some unknown stuff. Normally.
This day i was dumb enough to do do. I regreted this more than any drug i ever took before!!
Now it is hard to describe what followed. At this moment i still was sure i took something nice, so it started with a nice warm feeling, a "shiny warm" optic and no fear.
Soon the party was over and i went home - second mistake: forgot to fill up my water bottle!
The dry mouth and thirst got me walking fast to the train station and i managed to get to a gas station to buy a bottle water. I still enjoyed the unknown chemical feeling mixed with the still pushing speed. The alc feeling was completly gone.
About one hour after i left the party i arrived at home and decided to lay down for some time and started to think about the evening. I knew i had gone to far again but still thought main problem was the high amount of speed i took. The body feeling started to get strange, felt hot and cold at the same time. The optical perception still was disturbed, time perception too.
I went into the bathroom and suddenly i realized that this wasn't MDMA. I realized i took a RC without knowing what it was and how much i took - remembering i was quite drunk and spaced out and hat a white top of finger putting in my mouth
At this point the paranoia started - one thing relaxed me a little little bit. The guy with the chem took also quite a lot, i think more then me. At least i imagened he took much more, so i could think it can't be that bad.
I lied down again and tried to calm down and relax. Started a meditation and got me down a bit. Problem was i had to work next day. So i managed to meditate and maybe sleep a short time. When i waked up i got shocked. The feelings, the highness was still the same. Maybe stronger then before. The perception of time was completly disturbed, one moment i am at home next moment i am at work!
As lucky as i were my boss got right to me with a new task
Ok, i am working for a computer science firm, and it is no prob to be confused there normally, as long u don't have to understand a new problem. There i am - totally disturbed by some crazy chem shit trying to be relaxed and trying to get my new task. Wow! This was a really strange situation...
Finally i managed it - surprisingly i could behave as usual - but my inner situation was like an atomic super GAU
After work it still was the same - unfortunately my back began to hurt during the day. Hard to say if it were my kidneys (in my mind it was them for sure) or normal pain of muscles from dancing sunday and sitting all days at work. My paranoid mind was sure it were my kidneys caused by the chems and i almost went to the hospital. But i managed to get some more sleep.
The next day i felt more normal but still could feel the chemical in my body. The backpain got much better and i decioded not to see a doctor.
It took two more days till i could say i doesn't felt the chem in my body anymore! This was the hardest (not psychedelic) drug ride in my live so far and i for sure do NOT want this again!!
At some points i were sure i would die. My mind was disturbed long time - i am still not done with it yet. Tripped on acid last week and thought much about this experience, that helped a lot. And i know ill be MUCH MUCH more careful @ parties with chemicals.
People shouldn't take this stuff with them without a scale or dose it before.
I wouldn't say i dislike stuff like this per se - but people should tell you what it is explicitly dose it properbly!!
Be careful especially when u drunk alc - i know it is almost impossible to decide at such a point - but i will remember this experience even when i am drunk next time!!
Have a good time but take care!!!
For a long time i stayed mainly with psychedelics and took rarly speed and MDMA.
Lately i am quite into speed. Like to be awake some days from time to time. It also fits into my life as student (lot of learning @night).
Anyway, some weeks ago i stayed awake from saturday to sunday and went at morning to a nearby psytrance party that was happening till ten @ the evening of this sunday. I was happy that a officially long lasting party was in my area. I arrived at about 10 in the morning, so twelve hours to go
There were a lot of people and one dancefloor inside an old factory building, one outside it. Had some speed with me i got at a party two weeks before. With the time i met more and more people, some i new before but mostly new unknown freaks
Beer was quite cheap so at the evening i had drunken about 3-4 liters beer and took far to much speed. Bought some quite bad stuff there and got and gave lot of lines here and there (u know this kind of parties).
Between i think 6 and 7 in the evening i met a new guy with whom i chatted some time. He got some really good speed and we took a bit of it.
But here comes the main point of the whole story. Out of his pocket he took a small paper package with a white powder. I think he said it was MDMA, but i am not sure he actually said MDMA coz i was already far away. If he did say MDMA it was a lie. This stuff never was MDMA. I know for sure he said take "very very small amount" - i know a little about RCs, at least enough to not be dumb enough dipping some unknown stuff. Normally.
This day i was dumb enough to do do. I regreted this more than any drug i ever took before!!
Now it is hard to describe what followed. At this moment i still was sure i took something nice, so it started with a nice warm feeling, a "shiny warm" optic and no fear.
Soon the party was over and i went home - second mistake: forgot to fill up my water bottle!
The dry mouth and thirst got me walking fast to the train station and i managed to get to a gas station to buy a bottle water. I still enjoyed the unknown chemical feeling mixed with the still pushing speed. The alc feeling was completly gone.
About one hour after i left the party i arrived at home and decided to lay down for some time and started to think about the evening. I knew i had gone to far again but still thought main problem was the high amount of speed i took. The body feeling started to get strange, felt hot and cold at the same time. The optical perception still was disturbed, time perception too.
I went into the bathroom and suddenly i realized that this wasn't MDMA. I realized i took a RC without knowing what it was and how much i took - remembering i was quite drunk and spaced out and hat a white top of finger putting in my mouth
At this point the paranoia started - one thing relaxed me a little little bit. The guy with the chem took also quite a lot, i think more then me. At least i imagened he took much more, so i could think it can't be that bad.
I lied down again and tried to calm down and relax. Started a meditation and got me down a bit. Problem was i had to work next day. So i managed to meditate and maybe sleep a short time. When i waked up i got shocked. The feelings, the highness was still the same. Maybe stronger then before. The perception of time was completly disturbed, one moment i am at home next moment i am at work!
As lucky as i were my boss got right to me with a new task
Ok, i am working for a computer science firm, and it is no prob to be confused there normally, as long u don't have to understand a new problem. There i am - totally disturbed by some crazy chem shit trying to be relaxed and trying to get my new task. Wow! This was a really strange situation...
Finally i managed it - surprisingly i could behave as usual - but my inner situation was like an atomic super GAU
After work it still was the same - unfortunately my back began to hurt during the day. Hard to say if it were my kidneys (in my mind it was them for sure) or normal pain of muscles from dancing sunday and sitting all days at work. My paranoid mind was sure it were my kidneys caused by the chems and i almost went to the hospital. But i managed to get some more sleep.
The next day i felt more normal but still could feel the chemical in my body. The backpain got much better and i decioded not to see a doctor.
It took two more days till i could say i doesn't felt the chem in my body anymore! This was the hardest (not psychedelic) drug ride in my live so far and i for sure do NOT want this again!!
At some points i were sure i would die. My mind was disturbed long time - i am still not done with it yet. Tripped on acid last week and thought much about this experience, that helped a lot. And i know ill be MUCH MUCH more careful @ parties with chemicals.
People shouldn't take this stuff with them without a scale or dose it before.
I wouldn't say i dislike stuff like this per se - but people should tell you what it is explicitly dose it properbly!!
Be careful especially when u drunk alc - i know it is almost impossible to decide at such a point - but i will remember this experience even when i am drunk next time!!
Have a good time but take care!!!
