Amazing MDMA experience + Question on High Dose VS Low Dose

[Revorocks]

So I wanted to write about an experience I had, just thought I would share it. Got a question too

So, it had been a while since I last went out, around 2-3 months. Friends had all had exams and been busy but finally we were all free, and went to a club (not allowed to mention?) to see Eddie Haliwell & Jordan Suckley.

Got there at around 1am, bit late but hadn't missed anything luckily, Haliwell was just starting and Jordan was the closing set.

Started off with a Partyflock (around 200mg), then after an hour took a 100mg bomb too (got inpatient). The initial come up was pretty intense, coupled with awesome music and being with two of my best friends it made for an amazing time.

After a few hours, around 3-4am the peak was wearing off, and the Trance music was playing (absolutely LOVE trance). I had a pill left, so I thought what the hell, might be a waste but lets see.

Took the pill. This time I came straight back up within 30 minutes and felt like I was peaking again. It was that intense rush of pure happyness and being awake but not speedy, just like the first rush.

I don't usually get this, after the initial rush, whenever I take more I get high, but it's more of a "f*****d" feeling you know?
Just pretty spaced out, trippy, loving life still and having amazing conversations but no intense euphoria like the first rush.

Around 5am I was flying. Loads of energy, not tired at all (I don't get hyper though, not like the people who dance at 100mph), just alert and loving life.
Anyway we left about 45 minutes later, I was still peaking at this point so we left on a good note.

Got home after a very surreal feeling tube journey across London.

In my room I started to hallucinate.
Now usually I do anyway, but only mild stuff. Flashbacks of the night, forgetting where I am momentarily, seeing shadow people etc
This time, it was in a fully lit room. Still only mild I guess but was pretty cool.


All of the walls had strange textures and patterns on them. My friend had this too, i read about it and apparently it's quite common. Was still cool the first time I saw it!

Anyway, eventually I started seeing small purple bubbles coating everything. It was like a purple foam, really clear just on every surface and corner. I could interact with it too. I think I spent about an hour playing with these imaginary bubbles on my hands lol.

Anyway got bored of that, tried lying on the floor. OH MY GOD.
Literally the best feeling in the world. Really made me think how much I love MDMA. For giving me the opportunity to feel that feeling. Its indescribable really.

Anyway, all in all an amazing night.
Next day after no sleep, no food. Got the train home. Felt very empty, starting thinking about deep stuff, life, what its all about, the usual stuff really.
Even walked past a church and considered going in, as maybe turning to god was the bigger picture? Not sure. My mind was in a weird way.

So got home, had shower, dinner, good nights sleep.
Wake up, feel good as new!

This happens every time. I feel empty for one day, then after that I'm good as new. None of this comedown for a few days. I feel so lucky! Not like trying to boast or anything, just thought I would mention it.



So yeah. Overall, had an amazing time. Only downside, is as with higher doses of MDMA, memory loss.

I can barely remember any of the night. I remember a few good moments, and they really were good. The sound system in Ministry is just amazing. When you're dancing and peaking I felt so in tune with the music. Also, they had my favorite types music playing.
Luckily, I get really camera crazy for some reason, so found about 15 videos and loads of pictures of the night to look back on.


Since then, I've been out and taken just 1 Partyflock for the whole night. Still a really good time, not as intense but can remember soo much more.
Thing is though, surely it should be intense with a Partyflock, they are like 200mg, or could it be that maybe I expect too much from them?
A lot of the time when my friends are super high, I don't seem as high as them and they ask if I'm ok.

I've only done MDMA probably 8 times in my life, all have been in the past year. What do you think?


TL: DR

AMAZING NIGHT
High Dose vs. Lower Dose?
Also how do you guys feel if you redose a few times or take lots (around .5g over a night). I know some of you take 1g but you're nuts!


edit: Sorry, new to this forum.

Would 0.5g be considered neurotoxic? And is that linked with memory loss at all?
Considering I will fine after just one day?

 

[cyberius]

This forum is about harm reduction, not what high is better. Higher doses can be neurotoxic.

 

[Suploris]

Personally I find that with MDMA less is more. I've done the higher doses, but when I try a low dose I'm always surprised at how effective it still is. Plus, much less teeth grinding, peeing problems and the hangover is much easier to deal with as well. I would NEVER take anything like 0.5, most i've done was 0.2 and that is already considered a really strong dose. Consider 0.2 the absolute maximum and anything above that is very likely to cause problems on the long or short term. Glad you had a good night anyway but be careful

 

[cyberius]

Personally I find that with MDMA less is more. I've done the higher doses, but when I try a low dose I'm always surprised at how effective it still is. Plus, much less teeth grinding, peeing problems and the hangover is much easier to deal with as well. I would NEVER take anything like 0.5, most i've done was 0.2 and that is already considered a really strong dose. Consider 0.2 the absolute maximum and anything above that is very likely to cause problems on the long or short term. Glad you had a good night anyway but be careful

I personally found that 200mg is my sweet spot. I love the teeth grinding eye wiggling overwhelming stimulation I get from that dose.

 

[Chum Bucket]

i usually do MDMA only when going to an electronic show of some sort and i take 1 cap as im about to walk in and save one for a couple hours later which is a total of 0.4-0.5 grams of mdma. that is just me though. any more than that and my jaw is sore for the next 3 days.

 

[JWills20]

120-150mg, with a 40-50mg redose, is what usually gets me to exactly where I want to be. I try not to venture above 200mg cause it just makes me feel like a retarded mess because I can't think straight or remember anything. Plus, the comedown is more confusing and my cognition is just fucked for a day.

.5g is probably, by definition, neurotoxic and could, if regularly consumed, cause memory issues. The key is to avoid regularly consuming 500mg. One off consumption will probably be fine.

Regarding the low vs. high dose, I much prefer the lower doses ranging from 100-150mg. The few times I've tried high single doses (150-200mg) were not as enjoyable as the 120mg - this is my ideal dose. 120mg will often floor me on the comeup (that heavy feeling that almost knocks you off your feet and inhibits movement), make me feel weird, strange and detached from the environment, before breaking through into the other end of pure euphoria, empathy and love. At least in my experiences, larger doses result in a very strange, anxious comeup and then the break-through is more messy, confusing and less 'clear-headed' i'd best describe it. For this reason, I stick to the lower doses - but I am a lightweight.

 

[RoyMunson]

1/2 a partyflock (100mg) followed by 1/4 (50mg) 1-1.5 hours later is about right for me.

I tried half and half recently and ended up a total mess with no memory of anything. No poit having a good time if you can't remember it!