Hey MrsGamps how’s your essay coming along? It’s been awhile.
oh, rotten.
I have tried. And I did have the flu. Plus a computer issue. Plus my new teaching job which entails a
lot of fucking around with tiny bits of work these poor ten years olds have managed.
But am beginning to wonder if the problem is that I can't write on Dex very well. Sounds silly but other day I was on cold and
flu tabs with pseudoephedrine and that was SO MUCH better.
I am dependent on Dex as it is the only thing that shifts my depression, but at the same time it
makes me dumb. I am
pretty stim sensitive and even a few Dex make me restless and fidgety.
They are great for getting housework done, but not for anything requiring mental application.
The other thing is that the topic is SO ugly. There's so much ugly
porn around.
I have recently started seeing a very nice ex-boyfriend of mine again and I was trying to talk to him about it today, and he ended up saying, "oh God, do we have to keep talking about this?" - meaning he finds it too ugly to cope with as well.
And I thought, SOMEONE needs to talk about it - someone who is not, for example, trying to convert people to Christianity or Mormonism (which seems to be the hidden agenda for the 2 most vocal anti-porn orgs online - Exodus Cry and Fight the New Drug).
I am not too "hip" to take my hat off to fundamentalist Christians or Mormons if they are involved with NO expectation of effecting conversions or enlarging their ranks.
To be frank, I am a Christian myself, but in a non-church going way ... I've read the Gospels and I see so much beauty and truth in them, whether or not they accurately reflect what Jesus may or
may not have said.
One thing He did allegedly say was that when trying to help people in distress, "never let your left hand know what your right hand is doing": ie, give your help, love or money with NO expectation of "thanks" or being seen as a "good person". A good deed is vitiated as soon as you say, "hey, I'm doing good deeds here!" and begin moralising and self - aggrandising and expecting your kickback.
That's what Exodus Cry and Fight the New Drug seem to be doing.
It's very off-putting. Yet in a way they are the only groups who seem to impress people on a large scale.
And it seems petty to criticise Exodus Cry IF as they claim they really have rescued young people from sex trafficking ....
oh, their "doco". It was heavily relying on "re-enactments", very slick ... and very salacious I thought. Struck me as suitable for people with a prurient interest in the subject who need the cop-out of "oh but this is ANTI-EXPLOITATION", while having one hand in their pants as they watch scenes of beautiful teenage girls being menaced and beaten by vaguely Russified "traffickers" ... huge thugs with foreign accents and (implicitly) very large penises.
Well, there's my porn piece so far.
