Am I possibly bi-polar?

[CalmG]

Not sure if this is the right forum. This will be a long topic too by the way and it is soley about me.


OK SO bit of history about me. As child always full of energy used to run laps and laps around school playing field.

Whole life have been described as eccentric.

As teenager after bullying in middle school am described at school as 'a legend' really really popular get on with everyone and am funny. VEry popular and confident. Get up to do kareokee by myself infront of entire year group on last day of school (aged 16) that confident. Am a sweet, nice person. Happy, get on with teachers ect.

Aged 17 find out I'm gay. Smoking alot of Chronic at this time. Become an arsehole and very depressed. Examples of my kind of behavior - befriend kid at college who is always bullied. I'm his only friend. We have rapport. I go up to him whilst drunk and say 'Aaron.... you're a cunt!'' he looks destroyed. Pick arguments with people constantly. Have people tell me I'm weird and crazy all the time. I have a drinking problem always going to college drunk. Get put into alcohol counclleing. Study hard though out of determination to get out of sleepy hometown and get joint with another girl joint best exam results and escape to university in another part of the country. I have alot of issues revolving around being gay whilst simutaniously smoking lots of chronic. Key example of my craziness I rock back and forth on a tombstone in the local cematry thinking ''I'm crazy I'm crazy'' over and over again. I smoke cigerettes made of bible paper and then stub them out on the church door. I start vicious arguments with others and call them cunts ect to their face. Completely uncomfrotable in my own skin. Have a few anxiety associated social phobias. Suicidal thoughts but not to a serious extent. Take lots of ecstasy, speed, magic mushrooms all at this young age.

Go to university can't handle it because of the culture shock drinking all the time don't attend classes.

After graudating confidence gradually builds through doing telephone jobs and evolve into a really lovely, charismatic person. People describe me as on the nicest people they know, genuine and lovely, sweet, funny. Am completly comfortable in my own skin. All past issues gone. Capable of forming relationships and friendships. Hold down a job I enjoy. I am like manically happy - described as the ball of emotion and energy. Intensly happy, described as a character - example I will be walking down city street if soemone is playing a song I like from a window I will shout loudly I LOVE THAT SONG! I go out 5 nights a week and regularly go to work on maybe 4 hours sleep hungover or on a comedown and still hit target (am a telephone fundraiser). You can literally never shut me up I talk constantly. Very popular described as a legend at work. I will walk up to people who don't like me push them genetally and say ''I'M A REALLY NICE PERSON!'' in a room full of people will sing at top of my voice. Described as ray of sunshine. At this point I am not at all arrogant and if I find myself getting cocky I say to myself in head ''Don't get arrogant calum don't get arrogant!'

Get into abusive friendship at work. All social anxieties come back. Tells me lots of people at work have said that I'm intense. I obsesses about it constantly spend about 4 months obsessing about whetehr or not I am crazy. Start falling out with people like before when I was 17. Hit friend who was mean to me in the face. Get thrown out of houseparty. Can't do job anymore. Fall into massive depression that old issues have come back. Become sucidal and arrange to meet people off the internet to do it via charcoal method. Start sleeping with creepy weirdos.

That's my pattern. Swing between being full of energy and life chatterbox who is very charismatic (not just saying this is true) to depressed bitter issue ridden kinda nuts vinidictive cunt.

Sister suggests there might be somethign more to my depression that just that, she suggests perhaps i'm on the spectrum or bipolar. A friend said that to me before. I go to a and e because of suicidal tendancies they do hour long assesment shrink says I seem manic they are putting me forward for further assesment.


Other things that suggest it 1)awful with money will spend £500 in 2 weeks purely on going out. Completly live in present with no consideration of the consequences 2)never stop talking 3) either described as ray of sunshine 4) when I'm down I obsesses about what I used to be like ''oh iused to be such a legend.... i used to be so awesome...... I was the nicest person ever at my old job...' ( a symptom is illusions of grandour). 5 Selfish. When I'm down all I will think about is myself literally nothing else have no empathy, no ability to form rapport with other people. 6) get angry and will smash bottles in street 7 ) have identity disturbance don't even know what music I like anymore start dressing compeleyl different.


Do I sound perhaps bi-polar? I switch between being this extremely charismatic person who speaks constantly can get on with anyone to depressed bitter vindictive cunt with no consideration for others not even family.

It could however be that I was once a happy socially capable person who found out I was gay, then had loads of issues, got over them and returned to being charismatic, then had old issues re-emerge. Rather than have a mental health condition. Could just be 2 occurances of major depression. Reason I think perhaps its this is that the 'manic' and 'depressed' phases have been for literally years at a time.

Either way getting screened by a team soon who should be able to tell me for sure but have to be careful not to respond to their questions in such a way i'm telling them what they wanna hear (have studied psychology have vague understanding how it works).

What do you guys think? Am hoping one day I can get to the point where I'm just my happy charming self and stay there without relapsing. At the moment i'm on valium as of the last 3 days which is helpful because for the last 8 months have thought about nothing but killing myself 90% of waking hours and this has calmed me down significantly.

 

[CalmG]

Sorry just to make it clear the thing making me doubt itself is though I do switch between being a manically happy ball of energy to majorly depressed obsessess about killing myself it happens kind of year periods at a time rather than very regularly.

 

[B1tO'RoughJack]

Right.

I have been where you are.

This is probably going to go to HL, I reckon it would be more fitting BUT do not ask people to help you put yourself in a box - being diagnosed as Bi-polar is something that is very hard to break away from. You are a person. You are an individual. You are in emotional and psychological pain. Do not treat the symptoms treat the causes.

If you are awful with money, that is probably innate, not a symptom of any disorder - there are truly very few real disorders out there - just work on that. Work on it bit by bit, but accept it as part of your natural way of dealing with life, tis part of your mind/body makeup.

It could however be that I was once a happy socially capable person who found out I was gay, then had loads of issues, got over them and returned to being charismatic, then had old issues re-emerge. Rather than have a mental health condition. Could just be 2 occurances of major depression. Reason I think perhaps its this is that the 'manic' and 'depressed' phases have been for literally years at a time.

Yeah. Think along this line...get screened as a last resort - you are not at rock bottom, you don't necessarily have to go there either. Just work on yourself. If you are quick with your money and depressive I would hazard a quick guess that these are both innate qualities of yourself. Are you also quite slim? Do you have bad circulation in hands and/or feet?

Is your palm wider than it is long (bracelet to top where fingers connect)? Are your fingers as long as your palm, or a few mm shorter? This could be why you go from charismatic (in comfort zone, safe and secure), to vindictive (feeling unsafe and scattered) at teh drop of a hat. Innate qualities of you, possibly, not disorders.

If you fit the bill give me a PM, I can give you some good pointers to get back on track.

Peace my friend SMILE "one smile can open the world for you" - remember that you are attractive, and listen to this too macka B - positive affirmation alphabet - the power of the mind is infinite, you just need to trust in yourself.

This team you would be seeing, they would twist you against yourself, and make you cough up for drugs you don't need and that will most likely retard your development.

 

[CalmG]

Yeah I'm going to answer their questions truthfully and not insuch a way as to tell them what they want to hear.

I think it might just boil down to me being someone who is prone to massively depressive episodes and has trouble excepting themselves. I'm complicated though I guess alot of people are.

 

[B1tO'RoughJack]

No no you don't understand. PLEASE do not go. You will be manipulated to take pharmaceutical drugs - the NHS cannot help you with this sort of thing, they are not qualified as true holistic medical practitioners. As I said - speaking to a team and getting tested will only get you boxed in - as I said some things are not disorders, they are natural parts of ourselves, that just don't fit into society as the status quo dictates "what is and isn't normal".

You will ultimately regret it, if you do not accept yourself, and take the easy route, where you are told, instead of do the work yourself on yourself.

If you can find a diagnosis of bi-polarism online, where they do NOT suggest pharmaceutical drugs, I will shut up - but seriously, I know what I am talking about - most "psychological disorders" were fabricated by the Rockefeller family's, to push pharmceutical drugs - neuroses are completely real, as are bad habits, and depression. But none of those are disorders - they are natural things, DIS-ORDER indicates by definition that something is WRONG, innately wrong. Which does not sound like the case at all.

Not just the US either - "It had long been my dream to make drugs for healthy people so that Merck could "sell to everyone.": this was a quote from one of the CEO's of Merck, one of the world's biggest medicine producers.

Divide and rule - you divide people by telling them they have disorders, then hold out their hands for "remedies', you then make them conform with dulled senses - all the side effects of MOST of these pharmaceutical for "mental disorders" leave the patient without compassion, apathetic, and easily led.

It will be harder to do teh research, meet the right people to converse with, be treated by etc (I reccomend a good cognitive psychotherapist), using NLP on yourself, take 5 minutes out of your life to calmly sit down and listen to that tune I posted everyday you feel like shit, and doing the right exercise for you.

Please let me know whether those factors regarding hand dimensions, circulation and your build pertain to you. Otherwise the advice I can give you is very limited.

 

[CalmG]

That's interesting you should say that because I was on anti-depressants for a while and found that all they did was numb me, so I stopped taking them. But at the moment I am so down I would try literally anything. If I was to find the old feelings of zombiefiedness returning would come off them for sure.

But yeah it's a real problem - mother has been on certain drug (forget name) for anxiety for 7 years and she is like batshit mental now. It's dangerous.

 

[Pagey]

I'm going to move this over to TDS, you'll find lots of help and support over there and it would be a more fitting forum for your question

 

[B1tO'RoughJack]

^That's good you have already been through that. I personally was offered them by my GP, 5 years ago when close to killing myself, my mum was urgin me to do so, but I was still adamant in my decision to never succumb to pharmaceutical SSRIs, except for self-medicating every 3 or so months with a relatively low dose of MDMA/psilocybin/LSD/2C-E.

My mum too - she literally last year kicked a Prozac hiatus of 3 fricking years!

Please note I edited my last post - added a lot more... I really urge you please to postpone talking to the NHS, until you have exhausted more avenues, and with the information I asked of you, I can direct you to particular specialists to help you out, which might cost a bit, but they will be truly effective, and you can always APPLY for them on the NHS...or get a crisis loan from the gov, and use that money...if you have been paying taxes, a bit of dole money or crisis loan which you never have to pay back will get you the holistic natural therapies and insight you truly need.

 

[pofacedhoe]

yeah a diagnosis of bipolar can have a stigma

but

if you are finding that your mood goes from super happy and then you get depressed and this is a cycle that keeps occurring and your sister has noticed it then maybe its worth going to a doctor/psychiatrist.

my experience though was that they tried to put me on risperidone and thank fuck i didn't take it. a guy in the room below me 2 years later had been on it for ages and he said it robbed him of his social skills because it monged him out loads and made him apathetic.

the real question is are you functioning in life? can you hold down a job? i dont mean a telesales fake ass job where if you dont sell you get fired. i mean something like a checkout job in a supermarket/care worker (something relatively stress free).

lots of people get fired.

one of my friends got fired from a really good job at a pension company because she spent to much time crying at the computer.

have you looked into getting your diet sorted. for me its really calmed things down though i cant speak for everyone. B vitamins are very helpful for depression. something like barocca with a lot of them in it. also eat fish/ omega 3 and cut out hydrogenated fat (i cant emphasize that last one enough- its just not meant to be in your brain or body and as your brain is made of fat it inevitably ends up there).

there are different degrees of mania- hypomania is often seen as being productive and happy. real fullblown mania is pretty scary and quite serious.

there is a big difference between hypomania and mania. if you are experiencing mania regularly then you need medical help. if you have experienced both then the difference will be like night and day.

self awareness is one of the first steps to dealing with mental health.

it is entirely possible to get out of this cycling but you have to cut out the drugs for one. do not underestimate the destabalizing effect that taking lots of uppers and drinking too often can have on your mental health. this is true even for people who are not bipolar

 

[B1tO'RoughJack]

^Quality sound advice - every single piece.

 

[BlueHues]

^that's good advice for everyone....Eating healthy, not abusing drugs and eating healthy.....

You don't really want a bi-polar diagnosis, the meds just dull you down so you can't feel anything and cause all kinds of side effects like weight gain, hair loss etc....

If you do get diagnosed, they'll most likely tell you that you need to be on these meds forever and the meds don't really elevate your mood at all like antidepressants can, they just dull you right out.....I'd avoid it if I could

 

[pofacedhoe]

my experience of ssri's was that they were shit for depression

but YMMV

 

[BlueHues]

Yeah, I've never actually taken SSRIs as prescribed and when I got diagnosed with bipolar they prescribed me valproate and quietapine....If you're depressed, those meds don't do shit for you, they pretty much just stop you from going manic, and for the side-effects they have, I'll pass...

 

[truvision]

B1tO RJ thanks for having the strength to stand up on this issue since even I myself have known this to be true for a while but man you get kind of scared to say this to a lot of people because when you’re not a doctor, they just think your discouraging people from getting help. This is really ironic that I am seeing this now however, as just yesterday I simply searched the words psychiatry on YouTube and all sorts of documentaries and people were coming up saying exactly what B1tO RJ is saying. I’ve been going to school and working in the field of substance abuse and mental disorders for a while now and I’ve also had my own experiences with psychiatric medications and false diagnosis.I have begun realizing that a great majority of it really does seem to be a load of crap.

Unlike say diabetes or cancer or heart disease there is NO scientific test for this “chemical imbalance” of the brain, and the psychiatrists will readily admit this as well. It more like throwing darts at a dartboard in hopes of finding the right diagnosis.. which many of these said diagnoses are by the way only VOTED into scientific existence by the board of psychiatry. I have seen the DSM (Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of mental disorders) grow exponentially in the short time I have been in the field. The thing is 99 percent of people WILL come out of the psyches office with at least one script if not more. MOST of these drugs will actually cause the very symptoms they are intended to prevent and some will cause far worse problems than even that.

I have even recommended people see psyches but as I come to know more and more about it I kind of regret having done that however, it’s hard to convince people that they don’t have this phenomenon of the “chemical imbalance.” I have since learned that this was only invented to try and medicalize mental disorders. They understood that if they were able to medicalize the human condition and the human experience, that this would mean big $$$. I have now lived with several diagnosis that were stamped on my forehead and can see the medical docs apprehension in treating me ever since.

I finally gave up and saw a naturopath who was previously a neurosurgeon but gave up in the field because of what he saw. He got me off of everything and I swear to you it’s as if I came alive again. I’m not saying we don’t have problems sure we ALL do, but let’s just say you go see a psyche and you DON'T fit into one of those boxes.. they even have a box for those who DON'T fit into boxes and will put you into the “mental disorder NOT OTHERWISE SPECIFIED” box. This means, hey we don’t know exactly what box you fit in, but with this we can still bill insurance and send you out the door with at least something.

There were some things that were still puzzling to me like okay, I have seen those who seem to be manic and then very depressed and then what do you do for those who hear voices and such? My new doctor however, who as I said was also at one point a neurosurgeon and should know something about the brain states that mental issues are usually caused by a de-synchronized brain. What this means is, when we live too much in our left hemisphere, which is the seat of the future, we become anxious and when we live too much in the right hemisphere, which is the seat of our past, memories and fantasies, we usually become depressed. The key is learning to synchronize both hemispheres to live in the present. Along with this, we need to incorporate techniques such as cognitive behavioral therapy that addresses irrational thinking and fears, change our diets, exercise and bump up natural amino acids that are found within the body.

We are more than this “chemical imbalance” but what psychiatry does is to reduce the human experience and our unique differences down to disorders and mental problems. Of course, the feelings that you are experiencing over your sexuality has most likely caused many who have gone through similar things distress at some point, but like B1tO RJ pointed out above, these problems are usually far better served by exploring the emotions behind these things.To show the actual level of uncertainty that they have.. at one point, even homosexuality was deemed a mental disorder which they just recently changed or ‘voted out’ in the last ten years.

Not to mention that most of the time, these drugs are what will CAUSE the chemical imbalance. Whenever we add a chemical to make the brain do one thing, since our brains seek to maintain homeostasis it will only respond by changing another. Most of the time it goes back to the way it was, but sometimes it cannot. Anyways, I hope I haven’t sounded too against this because I will say that many people do claim to have been helped by these drugs, but there are many more who claim to have been hurt. Crap, I even recently recommended that a couple people on here go to see one and have to send others to one every day where I work only because they have it to where you absolutely CANNOT go against it anymore! Its just recently I am REALLY re- evaulating my stance on this.

You sound like you’re full of life and a very interesting person! I’m not trying to dismiss your pain but validate you when I say this; your problems seem to be more existential than biological. Like I said, the fact is I work with people every day who have many of the same emotional and spiritual needs as the rest of us and EVERY one of them have not one, but SEVERAL mental disorders stamped on their chart but if you heard their life stories and trauma it is NO WONDER many of these people are in distress. Not to mention, when we are self-medicating with other things such as drugs and alcohol we make it very hard for our bodies to repair themselves and to feel good at all.Funny thing is, I can’t deny what I see (which was the same for me as well) that the people I see don't really seem to do much better while on these meds. Of course, you will find those who say otherwise, however.

Sorry I got all trumped up on this, but it’s just kind of something I’ve gotten passionate about just recently, and I wanted to chime in on my experience so you could make the best decision for yourself. I wish you ALL the best!

 

[Lady Codone]

Only a doctor or psychiatrist can give you an accurate diagnosis. You very well may be bipolar but could have other co-morbid conditions that also need treatment.

My late grandma was bipolar and her life went something like this:

*Spend every waking hour on the Home Shopping Network, buying things until the UPS guy expressed concern.
*Paranoia that people were talking about / looking at her funny, or that her husband was cheating.
*Jumped out of a car on the freeway (survived).
*Refusal to stay on any psych medication whatsoever.
*Constant worry about everything from the news headlines to her adult children's well-being.
*Unprovoked crying or angry outbursts.
*Periods of seeming normalcy and extremely coherent thinking/behavior.

Not all bipolar people have ALL symptoms all the time, so your case may look very different.

 

[pattyn]

I can't tell whether you bipolar, but in my personal experience pharmaceutical drugs saved my life.
I was diagnosed with bipolar 2 not that long ago and was prescribed Abilify. It's an atypical anti-psychotic which has really been helpful to me. It's not like depakote or any other anti-psychotic that numbs you down. I feel better, more in control, less mood swings, no numbness. so whether or not you have a bipolar disorder, medication can help you if there's something inherently wrong. Maybe you don't need it, but maybe you do. It's a choice you have to make to take the first step or not. If you're prescribed any meds and you don't like them, then don't take them.

 

[DexterMeth]

CalmG: if you're thinking about killing yourself 90% of your waking hours, I'd go seek professional help immediately. Look into seeing a therapist (vs. just going to a psychiatrist) if you are so against medication.

 

[B1tO'RoughJack]

^ pretty much.

NSFW:

B1tO RJ thanks for having the strength to stand up on this issue since even I myself have known this to be true for a while but man you get kind of scared to say this to a lot of people because when you’re not a doctor, they just think your discouraging people from getting help. This is really ironic that I am seeing this now however, as just yesterday I simply searched the words psychiatry on YouTube and all sorts of documentaries and people were coming up saying exactly what B1tO RJ is saying. I’ve been going to school and working in the field of substance abuse and mental disorders for a while now and I’ve also had my own experiences with psychiatric medications and false diagnosis.I have begun realizing that a great majority of it really does seem to be a load of crap.

Unlike say diabetes or cancer or heart disease there is NO scientific test for this “chemical imbalance” of the brain, and the psychiatrists will readily admit this as well. It more like throwing darts at a dartboard in hopes of finding the right diagnosis.. which many of these said diagnoses are by the way only VOTED into scientific existence by the board of psychiatry. I have seen the DSM (Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of mental disorders) grow exponentially in the short time I have been in the field. The thing is 99 percent of people WILL come out of the psyches office with at least one script if not more. MOST of these drugs will actually cause the very symptoms they are intended to prevent and some will cause far worse problems than even that.

I have even recommended people see psyches but as I come to know more and more about it I kind of regret having done that however, it’s hard to convince people that they don’t have this phenomenon of the “chemical imbalance.” I have since learned that this was only invented to try and medicalize mental disorders. They understood that if they were able to medicalize the human condition and the human experience, that this would mean big $$$. I have now lived with several diagnosis that were stamped on my forehead and can see the medical docs apprehension in treating me ever since.

I finally gave up and saw a naturopath who was previously a neurosurgeon but gave up in the field because of what he saw. He got me off of everything and I swear to you it’s as if I came alive again. I’m not saying we don’t have problems sure we ALL do, but let’s just say you go see a psyche and you DON'T fit into one of those boxes.. they even have a box for those who DON'T fit into boxes and will put you into the “mental disorder NOT OTHERWISE SPECIFIED” box. This means, hey we don’t know exactly what box you fit in, but with this we can still bill insurance and send you out the door with at least something.

There were some things that were still puzzling to me like okay, I have seen those who seem to be manic and then very depressed and then what do you do for those who hear voices and such? My new doctor however, who as I said was also at one point a neurosurgeon and should know something about the brain states that mental issues are usually caused by a de-synchronized brain. What this means is, when we live too much in our left hemisphere, which is the seat of the future, we become anxious and when we live too much in the right hemisphere, which is the seat of our past, memories and fantasies, we usually become depressed. The key is learning to synchronize both hemispheres to live in the present. Along with this, we need to incorporate techniques such as cognitive behavioral therapy that addresses irrational thinking and fears, change our diets, exercise and bump up natural amino acids that are found within the body.

We are more than this “chemical imbalance” but what psychiatry does is to reduce the human experience and our unique differences down to disorders and mental problems. Of course, the feelings that you are experiencing over your sexuality has most likely caused many who have gone through similar things distress at some point, but like B1tO RJ pointed out above, these problems are usually far better served by exploring the emotions behind these things.To show the actual level of uncertainty that they have.. at one point, even homosexuality was deemed a mental disorder which they just recently changed or ‘voted out’ in the last ten years.

Not to mention that most of the time, these drugs are what will CAUSE the chemical imbalance. Whenever we add a chemical to make the brain do one thing, since our brains seek to maintain homeostasis it will only respond by changing another. Most of the time it goes back to the way it was, but sometimes it cannot. Anyways, I hope I haven’t sounded too against this because I will say that many people do claim to have been helped by these drugs, but there are many more who claim to have been hurt. Crap, I even recently recommended that a couple people on here go to see one and have to send others to one every day where I work only because they have it to where you absolutely CANNOT go against it anymore! Its just recently I am REALLY re- evaulating my stance on this.

You sound like you’re full of life and a very interesting person! I’m not trying to dismiss your pain but validate you when I say this; your problems seem to be more existential than biological. Like I said, the fact is I work with people every day who have many of the same emotional and spiritual needs as the rest of us and EVERY one of them have not one, but SEVERAL mental disorders stamped on their chart but if you heard their life stories and trauma it is NO WONDER many of these people are in distress. Not to mention, when we are self-medicating with other things such as drugs and alcohol we make it very hard for our bodies to repair themselves and to feel good at all.Funny thing is, I can’t deny what I see (which was the same for me as well) that the people I see don't really seem to do much better while on these meds. Of course, you will find those who say otherwise, however.

Sorry I got all trumped up on this, but it’s just kind of something I’ve gotten passionate about just recently, and I wanted to chime in on my experience so you could make the best decision for yourself. I wish you ALL the best!

You're so cool.

Only a doctor or psychiatrist can give you an accurate diagnosis. You very well may be bipolar but could have other co-morbid conditions that also need treatment.

My late grandma was bipolar and her life went something like this:

*Spend every waking hour on the Home Shopping Network, buying things until the UPS guy expressed concern.
*Paranoia that people were talking about / looking at her funny, or that her husband was cheating.
*Jumped out of a car on the freeway (survived).
*Refusal to stay on any psych medication whatsoever.
*Constant worry about everything from the news headlines to her adult children's well-being.
*Unprovoked crying or angry outbursts.
*Periods of seeming normalcy and extremely coherent thinking/behavior.

Not all bipolar people have ALL symptoms all the time, so your case may look very different.

They can give an accurate diagnosis of something that was man-made.

We all have our own individual natural balance - diet, lifestyle, stresses, innate qualities, habits, etc etc the list goes on- when these things are out of balance, we are out of balance - all we need to do to be in balance is learn what is innate, what is external, and how to deal with them when they are out of balance.

Everything that is external we need to deal with calmly, everything internal we either need to fix ourselves through therapy(conversation is therapy), self-affirmation, acceptance, orrrrrr...I'm sure there must be something else but that will do for NOW.

Everything you marked in red is innate in her personality - this is just extremes of natural behaviour. Maternal qualities, awareness, and not wanting to have poisons in her body - these are all symptoms of fear.

Fear is both rational and irrational, innate and learned.

Fear is the biggest controller of man's actions today. It's fairly easy to get rid of with the right techniques.

THE REST of her symptoms is where you can tell she is truly out of balance, and could maybe do with some SSRI's for a short period until the cause is found as quickly as possible.

Bi-polarism is not a cause it is a symptom, or rather a whole knot of symptoms - a lot of them are normal, but maybe exaggerated.

As I said fear is a controller, due to it freezing most people, so they become easily led, especially by people or organizations they deem higher or more superior than them. Why the governments, and pharmaceutical companies are fear mongers - it gets them what they want - your money and your vital input.

Neither are interested in your health, as an individual.

WHich is why I suggest to chase up naturopaths after providing the info I asked for. I can tell you (you're in the UK I think) exactly where to go to for sound altruistic advice, after I have asked my herbalists to recommend some people in(london?) your area. The same goes for asking my acquaintances and colleagues in the ayurvedic, yoga, and psychotherapeutic communities.

 

[DexterMeth]

She jumped out of a moving car on the freeway.

 

[BlueHues]

Once you get officially diagnosed with something like bi-polar, it makes you wonder if you question yourself a lot more....I was diagnosed bi-polar I, and I did have a manic episode but it was after a months long drug binge...I had another one last winter and it was the same situation.

I have been through a lot of traumatic things in my life that the memory of triggers extreme anxiety sometimes, and this could be diagnosed as Post traumatic stress disorder, which shares a lot of overlapping symptoms with bi-polar....

They're just measuring your "behaviors" against a "list" of disorders and basically just matching you to the closest disorder....