Am I just Feigning?

[Leggz]

I dont know if this has been discussed, I couldn't find anything n I looked for 3 days....

Anyway, in spring 2011, I tried meth for the first time (after swearin for many years I'd NEVER touch the stuff) n I liked it. ALOT. I got to where an 8ball would last me 2 days (i prefer to vape). I quit after approximatly 1year CT, n its been a year since I've done any. But at least 3 times a day since I put the pizzo down, I get this odd lil phenomenon. Lets say I'm sittin on my portch havin my morning cigarette, n between draws on the cigarette, i take a deep breath through my nose, n I'll b damned if I don't smell dope. You know that funky smell it gets when ya burn it? I smell it. Other times I may taste it, not burnt, but like I'm tokin on the pizzo. At first I thought it was my neighbors. Then I moved. It still happened. Blamed it on those neighbors too. Then i moved out to the country. Its still happening. Cant blame it on neighbors now cuz nobody is that close. It drives me crazy cuz when it happens the first thing I think is "Aaaahhh yummers.'' So what Im wondering is, am i just feignin? N how the hell can i make it stop?

 

[Cadamec]

In another thread, I mentioned that meth seems to take away the power of choice almost immediately in most people.

Do you think that statement is correct?

I have heard others talk about phantom smells and tastes when it comes to meth. I used to smell pot sometimes when someone lit a cigarette. After a decade or so of being clean, it faded away. I think our experiences were so powerful and ingrained that something triggers those memories and seem to manifest themselves in physical sensations.

 

[Leggz]

Yes, I think you hit that nail right on the head. It does take the power of choice away.
Its good to know that Im not the only one with this lil issue. I think about dope alot. Mostly because I have this friend that i've adopted as my lil brother, that stays twisted. I tried to talk him into quittin every day for 3 months, but you cant tell nobody how to live their lives. So now I just spend most of my free time runnin with him just to watch his twisted ass n try to keep him out of trouble.
Anyway, yeah it does get control if you dont know how to keep it in check. I think if you get it in your head that you just got to try some meth, find you a old school tweaker- that knows the shit in and out- to get high with. That way they can watch your newly twisted stupid ass. (Not that anyone is stupid for wantin to try it, but dope makes a newb goofy for a while when they start, i think its your body tryin to tell ya 'this aint right' lol) Old school tweakers know when somethin ain't goin right, they'll teach you how to do your shit without wastin it, or how to hit yourself. N if u get too far gone they'll check that ass. Its best if your (lack of a better word) teacher is someone u respect cuz you're more likely to listen when they tell you to slow down.
Srry i got a lil long winded with it, Texans like to talk. Lol

Thanks for lettin me know im not the only one with ghost smells n taste

 

[ebola?]

am i just feignin

So you're asking if you're faking a condition? Only you would know. I don't really understand...
...
This just sounds like powerful classical conditioning. It will fade in time.

ebola

 

[Leggz]

No i wasnt askin if i was fakin it. I was askin if it's just another symptom of doin dope n then stoppin. Powerful classical conditioning huh? Good to know someone got a name for it. I think i'll ghost tho cuz its easier lol
Priciate ya

 

[Jeromaya]

I think smell/taste and memory are strongly linked.
I sometimes smell molly followed by a very strong craving which goes away very fast if I just ignore it.
It might be there are some triggers which if you could identify them might help you avoid it happening so frequently.

 

[Leggz]

I keep hearin bout this girl Molly, what she about?
Yeah I get a pretty intense crave when the ghost comes to c me lol it goes away in about 5 minutes, long enough to suppress it with some weed n a cigarette.
Ill pay closer attention to when it happens n c if i cant figure out what if there is something specfic triggerin it.

 

[deidara]

i tried meth for the first time today. i shot a little and smoked a little. honestly it didn't do much for me, maybe i didn't do enough? me and my bf split .3 so .15 each? it wasn't very good shit either, shake and bake i guess idk. anyways i prefer opiates

 

[Ozekat]

i tried meth for the first time today. i shot a little and smoked a little. honestly it didn't do much for me, maybe i didn't do enough? me and my bf split .3 so .15 each? it wasn't very good shit either, shake and bake i guess idk. anyways i prefer opiates

Once an opiate lover, always an opiate lover imo......I've done almost everything out there and nothing NOTHING keeps me coming back like opiates do.

Stay safe deidara.

 

[Leggz]

How long has it been approx.? N thats about how much i used when i tried shootin, but i was told maybe i used too much water. Idk i didnt get nothin off it. Anyway, meth is best smoked but i dont feel anything physically, just happy and awake when i smoked.

I dont know shit about opiates

 

[deidara]

ozekat i also wanted to tell you i love how your avatar is the kyuubi chakra form!!

 

[xx001]

I think smell/taste and memory are strongly linked.

This. I randomly smell dmt quite often.

 

[ebola?]

No i wasnt askin if i was fakin it.

heh...I was just making an orthography joke (maybe a bad one). Some definitions:

to feign: to create a false impression of having a condition. eg, "Little Billy should go to school--he's just feigning the flu."
to feind: to experience intense desire for the acquisition of something. eg, "Man, I haven't had a hit in 2 days; I'm feinding."

ebola

 

[Vaya]

I'm going to try this in Other Drugs, Leggz.

Homeless >>> OD

 

[cj]

I used to smell heroin everywhere i went. It will be better in time.

 

[Thorns Have Roses]

n I'll b damned if I don't smell dope. You know that funky smell it gets when ya burn it? I smell it.

I only used meth one, maybe two, weekends a month for a year (2011 for me too, coincidentally), and I get this sometimes.

I think smell/taste and memory are strongly linked.

Verily, verily.

 

[Leggz]

heh...I was just making an orthography joke (maybe a bad one). Some definitions:

to feign: to create a false impression of having a condition. eg, "Little Billy should go to school--he's just feigning the flu."
to feind: to experience intense desire for the acquisition of something. eg, "Man, I haven't had a hit in 2 days; I'm feinding."

ebola

Ok so i made a small spelling error. Lol i neva said i was perfect.

 

[Captain.Heroin]

I'd suggest you stop using cigarettes. Not trying to be a dick.

an 8 ball of methamphetamine in 2 days? You were either abusing the shit out of it, or had weak product. So don't go back to it.

In another thread, I mentioned that meth seems to take away the power of choice almost immediately in most people.

Do you think that statement is correct?

I don't. You're still totally in control on it. It takes much more self control to be a user than to stay clean. It's easier not to use TBH.

 

[Leggz]

I'd suggest you stop using cigarettes. Not trying to be a dick.

an 8 ball of methamphetamine in 2 days? You were either abusing the shit out of it, or had weak product. So don't go back to it.



I don't. You're still totally in control on it. It takes much more self control to be a user than to stay clean. It's easier not to use TBH.

Its not just when i smoke, that was just an example. It can happen when im in the shower too. Should i stop showering too? Lol jp

When i started i had no job, nothing i particuraly cared about n i was with a guy that made it. So i had all the free shit i wanted. I just hung around smokin myself into oblivion. I hd a lil routine, smoke a bowl smoke a joit smoke a cigarette, wait 20 30 min repeat. But i was also very generous, if i was smokin, then everyone else was too. If one of my friends was out n payday wasnt for a day or so id give them a goodie bag for the road. So maybe i didnt smoke the whole thing thats just what i was goin thru. Does that make more sense?