I recently found a bottle of 100 4mg hydromorphone pills under my parents bed since they are pharamacists. I've been taking some every 2-3 days for about 3 weeks and have built a tolerance of around 10mg. I recently tried to stop but then felt really depressed and sick, am I addicted? I also have 70 pills left can I use them to slowly taper off?
[May 16 2018]
edit part 1:
Hi everybody im back after year.I accidentally ran across this thread without realizing it was me until I checked the name haha. its been a long road hard road but im finally clean now. I just have some things to explain. My parents are one of the most honest people Ik. They had it under the bed inside the medication box, that they were using to move everything to the new pharmacy they bought so nothing illegal there lol.
[May 16 2018]
Edit part 2:
I just wanna tell people my story in case someone is in a similar situation.I was a naive and retarded 15-16 year old looking to get high. Like most people It all started with a relatives meds. In the med box was hydromorphone I did some research and found out its opioid(I knew what they were from my schools anti-drug program the fucking irony right). Also inside inside the box was 50 OxyContin 20mg, a sealed bottle of probably 1k worth of straight morphine powder and 100 1mg pills of xanax (also sealed) so I took Everything.
[May 16 2018]
Final edit:
At this point only things left were morphine and Xanax. I had been using the morphine for a while till I nearly died as it was 100% pure and I didnt even bother to weight it. At this point my family was going on vacation to Disney world and I decided it was the perfect opportunity to get clean. So I left everything at home. Anyways worst experience of my life ? 6 hours in; while waiting in the airport I had super serious cravings and withdrawal from the Xanax started kicking in. About 12 hours in on the plane I started sweating heavily and aching badly. Anyways when we got there i couldnt take the pain so I told my parents about everying and they snapped at me and got seriously angry and worried. So they went to a local pharmacy and got some medication that would help (muscle relaxers, anti-diarrheals, cold medication, NyQuil etc). So I spent the worst 14 days of my life at Disney; not able to move or get out of bed while my my parents and sisters had fun, guess I deserved it tho lmao. Anyways since then iv been going to therapy and taking kratom for the cravings and 0.5mg of clonazepam daily as prescribed.
[May 16 2018]
edit part 1:
Hi everybody im back after year.I accidentally ran across this thread without realizing it was me until I checked the name haha. its been a long road hard road but im finally clean now. I just have some things to explain. My parents are one of the most honest people Ik. They had it under the bed inside the medication box, that they were using to move everything to the new pharmacy they bought so nothing illegal there lol.
[May 16 2018]
Edit part 2:
I just wanna tell people my story in case someone is in a similar situation.I was a naive and retarded 15-16 year old looking to get high. Like most people It all started with a relatives meds. In the med box was hydromorphone I did some research and found out its opioid(I knew what they were from my schools anti-drug program the fucking irony right). Also inside inside the box was 50 OxyContin 20mg, a sealed bottle of probably 1k worth of straight morphine powder and 100 1mg pills of xanax (also sealed) so I took Everything.
[May 16 2018]
Final edit:
At this point only things left were morphine and Xanax. I had been using the morphine for a while till I nearly died as it was 100% pure and I didnt even bother to weight it. At this point my family was going on vacation to Disney world and I decided it was the perfect opportunity to get clean. So I left everything at home. Anyways worst experience of my life ? 6 hours in; while waiting in the airport I had super serious cravings and withdrawal from the Xanax started kicking in. About 12 hours in on the plane I started sweating heavily and aching badly. Anyways when we got there i couldnt take the pain so I told my parents about everying and they snapped at me and got seriously angry and worried. So they went to a local pharmacy and got some medication that would help (muscle relaxers, anti-diarrheals, cold medication, NyQuil etc). So I spent the worst 14 days of my life at Disney; not able to move or get out of bed while my my parents and sisters had fun, guess I deserved it tho lmao. Anyways since then iv been going to therapy and taking kratom for the cravings and 0.5mg of clonazepam daily as prescribed.
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