am i adddicted

[pillman1224]

hi all this is a very simpple question sorry if there is bad typing i just downed 25 100mg capsules of gabapentin anyway my first opiate expirience was when i dipped into my grandarents meds. they had mentioned they both take pills for pain grandma takes lortabs and grandpa takes vikes. didnt give this any thought until the second day of our stay their (they live in WV) they mentioned they only use about one 5mg pill a day. i was 15 at the time of this expirience i went to thheir room and downed four pills. 20mgs hydro total. let me tell you the bliss i felt was better than fucking my gf at the time (who was THEE hottest braud in the school aside from some milf teachers) not a care in the world my grandpa would tell me stories of blacksmithing and such which usually made me yawn. i got very into these storiies and even asked questions. when we left i took about 90 pills out of each bottle both containing 120 5mg hydros each. every time we made the trip i stole. one day after returning from town my grandma was onthe porch saying "one of yous is guilty there is six pills missing (it wasnt my mom or dad). my dad searched my things and didnt find the pills they were well hidden. anyway enough rambling about 8 weeks ago i tripped over a paint can and milked that injury by PURPOSLY fracturing my foot by dropping a brick on it several times this yielded forty perc 5s i have also faked a cough and got codeine syrup stealing pills from any house i go to. my greatest haul was when my uncle had spine surgery and got 50 perc 10s i stole them all and replaced them with a similar looking otc pain pill it was a win win. but fracturing my own foot not caring about the pain nowing it will lead to an opiate bliss is whats concerning me. i took the am i a drug addict quiz and scored a 7/10. i also have HYPOTHETICALLY defrauded docs in order to get benzos and opiates do any of these things make me an addict. oh and dont tell me to "stop now while your ahead" i will kill myself before quitting opiates for good. just want to know if im an addict (im 18 btw and drink like a fish).

 

[pillman1224]

i also have dreams of robbing pharmacies to bad i dont have the balls just some added info and dreams of a giant rain storm but you guessed it not water coming from the sky opiates

 

[wezface]

If this isn't a troll, I think you already know the answer. But I'm going with the former.

 

[pillman1224]

no this is a serious question not a troll i dont play that game. i dont know the answer

 

[T. Calderone]

Yeah, I'd say you have a problem since you're stealing pills and by deliberately injuring yourself in order to get more. The road you're on gets much worse. Visit our recovery forums if you are thinking about quitting. I'm closing this, pm if you have any questions.