forbiddenlife5
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So the first time i tried a psychadelic was acid, and my cousin gave one tab, but knowing me i had took two, and it took a real long time to kick in, but when it did things looked slightly brighter, i would space out a little bit, and with the mixture of alcohol things changed colors, it was a real fun experience, fast forwarding to my terrible shroom experiences.
Months went by and i tried, various drugs here and their carefully to space out how often i do them, so i don't become addicted. My desire to do acid again(or shrooms since i never tried those) started again, and for about 4 months straight, i had asked numerous people, looked in numerous places looking to get some but never could find either, i live in phoenix, az and for a large city acid and shrooms isn't the easiest to find, meth and marijuana were what most people sold and a few other things, anyways after months of looking i finally came across someone who sold some shrooms they were gold caps, from what i hear they were real good, anyways so i purchased 60 dollars worth (6.5g) so the first time i tried it, i was on my way to see my best friend at his work, i took the shrooms before i left my house, since i knew i'd make it to my best friends work by the time the trip would start, i ate 3.5 grams, on a COMPLETE empty stomach, and i only weigh 125lbs, not realizing i took too much, i started driving and about 30 minutes after taking the shrooms, i noticed music sounded amazing in my car, and everything looked so shiny, like i was in new york or something, when i got to my best friends work, i walked inside his store, and couldn't stop laughing, i just kept laughing and at nothing it made me real giggly, than i noticed things were real bright, and were slightly moving, nothing too dramatical, so i went back in my car and started blasting music, my best friend would come outside whenever the store wasn't busy, i sold him the rest of the shrooms left, this is when things got hazy, i slowly started to get real paranoid and started blacking out (which i didnt know could happen on shrooms) i would be sitting their, with my windows closed, saying go away, fuck off, leave me alone etc, and having the weirdest thoughts and body sensations, my body felt amazing to touch, i had visions of my past that seemed so real and scary, i saw people's face's from my car that looked real shaky and demon like, i could hear a bunch of people talking from far away, and than i kept thinking cops were after me, and hallucinated cop cars etc, i started crying asking my best friend if the cops arrested me, and i remember i would constantly yawn, and would stay seated in one spot, i would have seizures, my eyes would roll in the back of my head, and i'd be praying that the freaky stuff i kept visioning would go away, before i knew it, i was driving, thinking it was a dream when in reality it wasn't and i was driving crazy, than i completely blacked out, and just remember crashing into a car real hard, i woke up 8 hours later thinking i was dead with the airbag in my face and on someones driveway with my car totally destroyed, (nowone came to help, and the people didn't even know i crashed into both their cars till 8 hours later) the cops came, blah blah, found wrote the ticket, etc overall that experience horrified the living shit out of me, but i just couldn't get enough and once i got over my depression of getting in the car wreck i did shrooms again and did the same 3.5 grams, thinking i can handle it better, i did it with my best friend, who i sold it to, but he kept hesistating to do it and i was wondering why, because he's always willing to do drugs when offered especially since this time i was giving them to him for free, i later found out, that he kinda was freaked out by his experience on the shrooms too, although he maintained his sanity better, well what do you know, the night turns out to be 6 hours in hell, it started off with patters and things morphing, the fun stuff, and an amazing body high feeling real light but yet real drowsy, we wanted to watch music videos, because music sounded amazing, this is when things got to be too much, the music was britney spears, and other current popular artists, and the dances were too ... "in your face" and fast paced, plus lady gaga's videos were too freaky, and i started freaking out, slightly noticing the trip kept getting way too intense, and i would see demon face's in the music video, while my best friend would force himself to keep watching acting like he wasn't freaked out, and i could see like skeletons and shit in the peoples faces, i freaked out and started to shake real bad, wanting the trip to end, and my best friend trying to be the sane one for the two of us, convinced me to try and eat to end the trip, but i ended up taking 4 vitamin c pills reading somewhere that it ends the trip, but it made it worse, i started to see colors changing like crazy, my best friend went kinda crazy and kept talking and talking, but it just sounded like echoes, and i was thinking we became mental, and this will never end, before i knew it, i was talking about random stuff about our past with alot of intense emotions going through my body and mind that made it so spiritual, i woke up with my eyes wide open staring at the floor refusing to get out of bed, not being able to believe everything that happened was actually real because it always feels like a dream, i could hear noises from so far away, i could feel the insides of my body ugh it was weird, so sorry that this thread was so long, anyways my point is, why do i always freak out? i have a real high tolerance to most drugs and alcohol, and can handle things better than others, but when it comes to what i thought would be my favorite drug, i can't handle it. i do have alot of depression/anxiety, especially after my first bad experience on the shrooms, is it because 3.5 grams, on a complete empty stomach is too much? is it also because the setting i do it in, is never one i like? i know alot of people have freakouts on it, how do you keep your mind from going nuts, and how come from acid, i never experienced anything freaky like with shrooms? thanks guys, again sry for the real long ad.
Months went by and i tried, various drugs here and their carefully to space out how often i do them, so i don't become addicted. My desire to do acid again(or shrooms since i never tried those) started again, and for about 4 months straight, i had asked numerous people, looked in numerous places looking to get some but never could find either, i live in phoenix, az and for a large city acid and shrooms isn't the easiest to find, meth and marijuana were what most people sold and a few other things, anyways after months of looking i finally came across someone who sold some shrooms they were gold caps, from what i hear they were real good, anyways so i purchased 60 dollars worth (6.5g) so the first time i tried it, i was on my way to see my best friend at his work, i took the shrooms before i left my house, since i knew i'd make it to my best friends work by the time the trip would start, i ate 3.5 grams, on a COMPLETE empty stomach, and i only weigh 125lbs, not realizing i took too much, i started driving and about 30 minutes after taking the shrooms, i noticed music sounded amazing in my car, and everything looked so shiny, like i was in new york or something, when i got to my best friends work, i walked inside his store, and couldn't stop laughing, i just kept laughing and at nothing it made me real giggly, than i noticed things were real bright, and were slightly moving, nothing too dramatical, so i went back in my car and started blasting music, my best friend would come outside whenever the store wasn't busy, i sold him the rest of the shrooms left, this is when things got hazy, i slowly started to get real paranoid and started blacking out (which i didnt know could happen on shrooms) i would be sitting their, with my windows closed, saying go away, fuck off, leave me alone etc, and having the weirdest thoughts and body sensations, my body felt amazing to touch, i had visions of my past that seemed so real and scary, i saw people's face's from my car that looked real shaky and demon like, i could hear a bunch of people talking from far away, and than i kept thinking cops were after me, and hallucinated cop cars etc, i started crying asking my best friend if the cops arrested me, and i remember i would constantly yawn, and would stay seated in one spot, i would have seizures, my eyes would roll in the back of my head, and i'd be praying that the freaky stuff i kept visioning would go away, before i knew it, i was driving, thinking it was a dream when in reality it wasn't and i was driving crazy, than i completely blacked out, and just remember crashing into a car real hard, i woke up 8 hours later thinking i was dead with the airbag in my face and on someones driveway with my car totally destroyed, (nowone came to help, and the people didn't even know i crashed into both their cars till 8 hours later) the cops came, blah blah, found wrote the ticket, etc overall that experience horrified the living shit out of me, but i just couldn't get enough and once i got over my depression of getting in the car wreck i did shrooms again and did the same 3.5 grams, thinking i can handle it better, i did it with my best friend, who i sold it to, but he kept hesistating to do it and i was wondering why, because he's always willing to do drugs when offered especially since this time i was giving them to him for free, i later found out, that he kinda was freaked out by his experience on the shrooms too, although he maintained his sanity better, well what do you know, the night turns out to be 6 hours in hell, it started off with patters and things morphing, the fun stuff, and an amazing body high feeling real light but yet real drowsy, we wanted to watch music videos, because music sounded amazing, this is when things got to be too much, the music was britney spears, and other current popular artists, and the dances were too ... "in your face" and fast paced, plus lady gaga's videos were too freaky, and i started freaking out, slightly noticing the trip kept getting way too intense, and i would see demon face's in the music video, while my best friend would force himself to keep watching acting like he wasn't freaked out, and i could see like skeletons and shit in the peoples faces, i freaked out and started to shake real bad, wanting the trip to end, and my best friend trying to be the sane one for the two of us, convinced me to try and eat to end the trip, but i ended up taking 4 vitamin c pills reading somewhere that it ends the trip, but it made it worse, i started to see colors changing like crazy, my best friend went kinda crazy and kept talking and talking, but it just sounded like echoes, and i was thinking we became mental, and this will never end, before i knew it, i was talking about random stuff about our past with alot of intense emotions going through my body and mind that made it so spiritual, i woke up with my eyes wide open staring at the floor refusing to get out of bed, not being able to believe everything that happened was actually real because it always feels like a dream, i could hear noises from so far away, i could feel the insides of my body ugh it was weird, so sorry that this thread was so long, anyways my point is, why do i always freak out? i have a real high tolerance to most drugs and alcohol, and can handle things better than others, but when it comes to what i thought would be my favorite drug, i can't handle it. i do have alot of depression/anxiety, especially after my first bad experience on the shrooms, is it because 3.5 grams, on a complete empty stomach is too much? is it also because the setting i do it in, is never one i like? i know alot of people have freakouts on it, how do you keep your mind from going nuts, and how come from acid, i never experienced anything freaky like with shrooms? thanks guys, again sry for the real long ad.
