Alprazolam, 2CB, DMT, Cannabis, Alcohol- Approaching DMT impure - Warning from Lady D

[Kallisti23]

Tonight I angered lady D, I invoked her in a moment of hedonism and impure intent - I had already taken Xanax and codeine earlier in the day, snorted a few lines of 2CB and had a couple of beers, and have been generally unhealthily binging as of late. I picked up my DMT pipe and decided to see if there was anything left in the ashes for me to vape. There was, it couldn't have been any more than 10mg but I was blast off and she responded with pure pain. Electricity surged over my whole body, dotted fractal patters moving in three dimensional rooms at incredible speed, intensifying with the intensity of the electricity throughout my body. It felt like a surge of cold electricity through every nerve in my body and was quite painful. I could sense that this was a warning, there was malice in her the energy. Similar to the feeling I got when I invoked her only yesterday and looked out into the impending storm, the trees all looked perfectly smooth and alive, and all was shimmering in divine clarity. Then the winds picked up and I felt a surge of violent energy thrust towards me. I closed the window and calmed myself down, immersing myself in the room around me. But I got the feeling that I am not ready and pure enough for lady D right now, and have angered her for encroaching on her space with impure motives and frivolous intentions. I shall be back, but next time I will choose my moment right.

I believe DMT requires pureness of spirit and intent.

Has anyone else experienced such negative reactions, physical or otherwise when doing DMT at an improper time? It is worth noting that I have smoked this batch of DMT several times before at varying doses and only once before (my first time with a much higher dose) had such an intense physical reaction.

PS. Sorry for the swirly language I am still tripping.

Peace and Discord.

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[BreakingBud]

Hope everything went well after this post since you were still tripping.

 

[Kallisti23]

Yes everything went ( relatively) well for the rest of the trip, I distracted myself with some music and TV, then I fell asleep not too long after due to the benzos and alcohol in my system. I was left with a clear feeling of needing to clean my act up though and stop taking such maters so lightly. I used to approach psychedelics as sacraments and with respect. lately, although not every time, they have started to become another retinue of my general drug-binging. With some it doesn't seem to matter that much, I have had some fairly positive hedonistic LSD and 2CB experiences, occasionally mixed with un-entheogenic substances. DMT seems to be of a different caliber though and doesn't take kindly to this sort of disrespect. I feel tired and a bit generally out of sorts and self-reflective of my drug-abuse today, but apart from that nothing too serious. I see my last DMT experiences as a much needed kick up the arse to get my act together.

I probably wasn't in the best state of mind to be taking on the DMT sacrement. I had been binging on Codeine, benzos, lsd, and booze for the last 3 days before this experience. As I said in my original post, I think the DMT spirit appreciates a clean mind and body. The intensity of the physical experience took me by surprise though, especially considering the low dosage. It's a powerful and unpredictable substance and not one to be used frivolously.

 

[Xorkoth]

Maybe it was simply that your subconsciousness was punishing you for your binging on addictive drugs? I don't believe drugs exist with a purpose that is theirs, they're just tools to alter the way we perceive. The meaning comes from you. Pureness of intent and body help you get the best reaction out of any drug, because you're healthy and focusing your mind on a particular outcome.

In any case thanks for sharing.

Also, yes, I've had negative reactions from DMT before. One time a few days after my ibogaine flood dose (I did it to get off opiates, it worked after my follow-up dose but I had taken an opiate since the flood and was trying to use DMT to give me some clarity as to the state I was in). I vaporized only 10mg and had the strangest DMT experience ever, it was nothing like DMT usually is. It came on late and kept coming down and shooting back up, and every time I went back up I suddenly had various super intense and terrifying "memories" that I am not sure were real. I basically felt overwhelmingly terrified for about 45 minutes.

 

[Kallisti23]

Xorkoth, I agree. I see it as a definitive sign from my Self reprimanding me for falling for the lure of addictive and non-valuable (subjective I know, but I think we all get the point) drugs. It is an idiosycracy of mine to refer to messages from my psyche or subconscious in the third person when I am tripping, although I do believe that the majority of messages I have gotten have been a product of my own psyche there have a been a couple of more questionable experiences. My trips were always a lot more valuable when I was in a generally better, or purer, if you wish, place in my life and state of mind. Which chimes well with all the stereotypes of approaching psychedelic use. I am planning on maybe taking one last good acid trip to blow off the cobwebs that have gathered in my life-stasis and hopefully reset myself, and then try take a break from everything got a while. I will not be approaching DMT until I have sorted my life out better though. Hopefully this experience will spur me on to finally go through with it and not just temporarily like before.

 

[belligerent drunk]

A good example why set and setting matter. Plus you had 2C-B before, which like DMT has serotonergic action, so you may have went overboard with serotonin for a bit there.

 

[Kallisti23]

Yeah a classic case of bad set and setting, just the type of thing benzos don't make you consider. I never thought about the effect the serotonergic properties of both drugs might have. I've smoked DMT at the tail end of both 2CB (oral though not insufflated) and LSD trips before with no problem. This time it was during the peak though.