Psychedalienation
Bluelighter
Age: 18
Exp at the time: Etizolam, Alprazolam, Methylphenidate, Codeine, Hydrocodone, Oxycodone, LSD, Mescaline, MDMA, Ketamine, Alcohol, Dextroamphetamine, Cannabis (Daily), Nicotine
Forewarning:This trip report won't be too long as it was a few months ago and also because I cannot recall most of the events. This trip report was written for the sake of harm reduction. Please don't repeat my actions. The day/night of this experience I cannot recall as "fun". In fact, I can hardly recall AT ALL.
Intro:It all started when I was searching for some Xanax bars (2mg). I wanted to get some for the comedown of an MDMA experience and a little for recreation as well.
I went through a few different people, trying to get a good price. Then, my cannabis connect referred me to someone who had a car and went to the local community college near my house. I hit him up and he was able to drive and deliver to me. He sold me some yellow school bus bars. So that was all cool and I had a good time and enjoyed them.
A few weeks go by and I get some more money. At this point, I am coming back from quitting drinking. I am now starting to drink vodka every day again. Now that I have a connect, I hit him up and also hit my molly/shrooms plug. She tells me she wants 100$ worth of these school buses per my recommendation. So me and her meet up with him and he gives me 5 bars plus 3 for free for getting him the deal.
Day:This is where my memory gets faded (literally). I remember getting back home all excited. I remember smoking a bowl, subbing one, and snorting (yes I know, and I knew at the time too but didn't care. It's an addiction to the ritual) one. From this point on, I recall a few events. I recall hanging out with my ex gf's sister. Smoking weed with her and 3 different people 3 different times. I remember losing my iPhone 5s and not being able to find it, then my friend pressured me into leaving the search and telling me "it's gone bro". Throughout this day I was getting into this weird phenomenon that always happens to me with alprazolam. I will convince myself that I'm not high anymore or I'm coming down when I'm certainly not. So I'll take more. And then it's a wrap. A total blackout. I remember this one time I ate 20mg because of this same phenomenon and I woke up with a fresh ounce of weed with crumbled up chocolate mini donuts mixed into it and a hot ass girl I couldn't fuck the night before because I couldn't achieve an erection on that much drugs.
So throughout this day I remember getting down to my last bar and popping it.
Then I was with this homeless kid who I hung out with a lot. He's a nice guy and he has his problems and I have mine and we hang out and drink and smoke bud a lot and don't do what each other doesn't want to do basically. He's actually addicted to benzos if I recall correctly. He's ALWAYS on Xanax. So we went and stole a 750mL bottle of Skyy Vodka out of Stater Bros as if we had already owned the bottle and were just letting Stater Bros borrow it lol (I think it's 750mL. It's whatever the standard bottle of Skyy is). We drank half the bottle each until is was gone.
Night:I'm fucked up. My friend I was with smoked BTH sometimes back then. He had his foil on him with the resin of the tar on it. I have never done heroin before, and it was always one of those things (along with methamphetamine) that I would vow never to touch. We decided to attempt to smoke the resin off the foil in the bathroom of Del Taco together. From what I remember, either none or BARELY any smoke came off and the mission was a bust. We decide to go outside Del Taco.
At this point I am so gone. The fact that I can remember this next part is ungodly surprising at the dose I was at.
I remember seeing this blonde girl in short booty shorts sitting up against the wall of Del Taco. I remember my friend leaving me for a second to offer her food because he thought she was homeless or something. Then I remember me telling my friend "watch this". I stumble over to her and say "Hey, wanna fuck?" (I am NOT like this sober. I would never be this disrespectful in my right mind). All I remember is two things: she screams at me while I laugh like a retard and walk away, and then her picking up her phone and calling someone.
I cannot not walk straight. I am slurring and hiccupping.
All I remember after this point is a white truck pulling up. Two white "gentlemen" got out. I remember seeing them and me immediately walking towards them aggressively as they walked up to me the same. I don't remember being beat up, I just know it occurred. I remember my friend splitting up. Then I remember blurs of memory of me moaning and dragging myself home 3 miles away with a broken nose, and blood all over me. Then I remember my backyard. I apparently hit this gate at the bottom of it while barefoot. According to the information of my parents, my scream could be heard from the next block over while my mom was INSIDE the house.
All I remember after that was laying down on my garage floor crying my eyes out while my mom threw a blanket on my fucked up ass in on and stayed with me until I inevitably passed out. She also checked on me throughout the night to see if I was still breathing.
I woke up searching for my phone. I got frantic and asked my mom what happened. She said I came in with nothing. My phone, skateboard, wallet, etc were all gone. I was PISSED. How could have I fucked up this bad? I went to the doctor and I apparently had a broken left big toe.
Afternote:So the moral of the story is that alprazolam and alcohol (ESPECIALLY AT THESE DOSES) is dangerous and could lead to bad things happening to you. What happened to me sucked ass but it could have been a hell of a lot worse. Don't do what I did. I am much better than I was back then and I learned my lesson from that.
TL;DR:I took a lot of Xanax and drank a lot of alcohol with it. I lost an expensive phone, attempted to smoke heroin, got beat the fuck up, embarrassed myself, broke my toe, and made my parents beyond pissed and disappointed.
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Exp at the time: Etizolam, Alprazolam, Methylphenidate, Codeine, Hydrocodone, Oxycodone, LSD, Mescaline, MDMA, Ketamine, Alcohol, Dextroamphetamine, Cannabis (Daily), Nicotine
Forewarning:
Intro:
I went through a few different people, trying to get a good price. Then, my cannabis connect referred me to someone who had a car and went to the local community college near my house. I hit him up and he was able to drive and deliver to me. He sold me some yellow school bus bars. So that was all cool and I had a good time and enjoyed them.
A few weeks go by and I get some more money. At this point, I am coming back from quitting drinking. I am now starting to drink vodka every day again. Now that I have a connect, I hit him up and also hit my molly/shrooms plug. She tells me she wants 100$ worth of these school buses per my recommendation. So me and her meet up with him and he gives me 5 bars plus 3 for free for getting him the deal.
Day:
So throughout this day I remember getting down to my last bar and popping it.
Then I was with this homeless kid who I hung out with a lot. He's a nice guy and he has his problems and I have mine and we hang out and drink and smoke bud a lot and don't do what each other doesn't want to do basically. He's actually addicted to benzos if I recall correctly. He's ALWAYS on Xanax. So we went and stole a 750mL bottle of Skyy Vodka out of Stater Bros as if we had already owned the bottle and were just letting Stater Bros borrow it lol (I think it's 750mL. It's whatever the standard bottle of Skyy is). We drank half the bottle each until is was gone.
Night:
At this point I am so gone. The fact that I can remember this next part is ungodly surprising at the dose I was at.
I remember seeing this blonde girl in short booty shorts sitting up against the wall of Del Taco. I remember my friend leaving me for a second to offer her food because he thought she was homeless or something. Then I remember me telling my friend "watch this". I stumble over to her and say "Hey, wanna fuck?" (I am NOT like this sober. I would never be this disrespectful in my right mind). All I remember is two things: she screams at me while I laugh like a retard and walk away, and then her picking up her phone and calling someone.
I cannot not walk straight. I am slurring and hiccupping.
All I remember after this point is a white truck pulling up. Two white "gentlemen" got out. I remember seeing them and me immediately walking towards them aggressively as they walked up to me the same. I don't remember being beat up, I just know it occurred. I remember my friend splitting up. Then I remember blurs of memory of me moaning and dragging myself home 3 miles away with a broken nose, and blood all over me. Then I remember my backyard. I apparently hit this gate at the bottom of it while barefoot. According to the information of my parents, my scream could be heard from the next block over while my mom was INSIDE the house.
All I remember after that was laying down on my garage floor crying my eyes out while my mom threw a blanket on my fucked up ass in on and stayed with me until I inevitably passed out. She also checked on me throughout the night to see if I was still breathing.
I woke up searching for my phone. I got frantic and asked my mom what happened. She said I came in with nothing. My phone, skateboard, wallet, etc were all gone. I was PISSED. How could have I fucked up this bad? I went to the doctor and I apparently had a broken left big toe.
Afternote:
TL;DR:
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