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opiatekrzy said:
Clearly there is always one asshole in life wherever you go. For someone who just became a bluelighter you seem to have all the answers don't you? You really need to sit your ass down and keep your dry sense of humor to yourself
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so you’re a junkie that’s never watched train spotting? 😂😂

and i’m and asshole because i’m telling you about trainspotting when you described the exact scene from the move ?

get a grip dude i don’t know why you’re mad at me i havnt done anything disrespectful or wrong here
 
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opiatekrzy said:
I see you like to politic debate and argue and I honestly don't have the energy to keep up with you.
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i updated my last post but dude

i havnt made a single post about politics at all.

i’ve been making resonses
to you about drugs mixtures and about movie scenes you described living out in a post
 
Dr. John Thackery said:
i updated my last post but dude

i havnt made a single post about politics at all.

i’ve been making resonses
to you about drugs mixtures and about movie scenes you described living out in a post
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@opiatekrzy

i see that you’re OP
and it’s rough right now in a new city z….so i’m sorry if my posts got you mad somehow but i seriously didn’t say anything against you or make fun of you,

i discussed the drug topic points in detail which i do about all drug topics here for 20 years .

the other thing i did was make a non malicious joke about a favorite movie on this forum trainspotting when you described your day like the movie scene.

if movie scene relationship offended you i’m a sorry.

i didn’t mean to attack you like you are saying


also i’m telling you it’s a known thing;

pll
in The bay area ignore eachother and act like you don’t exist.

it’s the most lonely crowded big city on earth imo.
 
opiatekrzy said:
Clearly there is always one asshole in life wherever you go. For someone who just became a bluelighter you seem to have all the answers don't you? You really need to sit your ass down and keep your dry sense of humor to yourself
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Good job!

I’ve always admired people that were able to make a big move like that all by themselves.

Don’t be so hard on yourself! It’ll take time but you’ve already got this far! Don’t give up now!❤️
 
Electrum1 said:
You did call a guy a junkie who relapsed for a week, after being clean for 5 months. Maybe you should should think about what you did
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cut the virtue signaling shit. l

ppl in NA with 30 years clean call themselves junkie so cut it with the virtue signaling BS.
 
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@opiatekrzy Did Whole Foods call you back yet? That's pretty much a perfect job to get back into the routine of being accountable and responsible while building a work history, at a job that isn't very demanding. If they don't hire you just try everywhere else ASAP. If you can lift stuff try Costco because they pay better. Get a job like those, work there for long enough to get health insurance and establish that you're a reliable and competent employee, and reassess once you're settled in
 
Im conflicted about working. Im trying to get CAAP which pretty much covers the cost for a single room occupancy. If I work and make more then $700 a month i can become Ineligible and the last thing I want is not being able to afford living. At the same time I feel like I'm cutting myself short and putting myself on the poverty line close to homeless. I'm in a position right now where I don't have stability to even work, I'm bouncing around from hostel to hostel making commuting to work difficult. Obviously if a job comes around It'll take it because they have programs that allow you to afford a single the room occupancy for $550 a month. My biggest challenge is technically still being homeless and not having a permanent address. Either way if I work or don't and get CAAP I'll still be struggling regardless. I spent the last ten years in a toxic relationship and the only source of income was barely making it selling meth and selling my monthly scripts. I admit I totally fucked my life up I'm 40 years old and I have six kids and a failure of a father and grandparents have custody. I was in there lives still but it be definitely is a huge regret. The whole reason I came to California and dropped my whole life in New York was to turn my life around and try to have a better life and get away from the drug lifestyle and toxic baby mother.

I been pretty active my two weeks in California so far , I was able to get my health insurance switched over and was able to get my food stamps
I have a phone interview for CAAP at the end of May and with that I'll be able to get a single room
I'm dreading having to go to a shelter but I'm going to have to or else I won't get my housing process started for a single room. It's pretty scary out here there are homeless zombies literally everywhere it's like the walking dead. The roads all smell like piss and I even seen human shit on the sidewalks
It's like they decriminalized all drug use , everyday I see people hitting there foil and smoking meth pipes. I have horrible anxiety and PTSD and being around it triggers my paranoia and anxiety and it is very painful mentally for me to go through.
Im just going to be positive and reach my goal at getting a single room
Sorry for rambling
 
Electrum1 said:
@opiatekrzy Did Whole Foods call you back yet? That's pretty much a perfect job to get back into the routine of being accountable and responsible while building a work history, at a job that isn't very demanding. If they don't hire you just try everywhere else ASAP. If you can lift stuff try Costco because they pay better. Get a job like those, work there for long enough to get health insurance and establish that you're a reliable and competent employee, and reassess once you're settled in
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Whole foods never got back to me
At the interview he told me I have to go do a final interview with some lady and he said he would call me Friday and hasn't. I plan to call to check the status of my interview tomorrow and see what they say. I don't know if it's worth doing though because it's only part time and I'm really on the fence about the whole CAAP thing and working
 
Sounds like you are either staying around 6th St or the Tenderloin. The Mission around 16th also has cheap housing and homelessness, but honestly it's one of my favorite neighborhoods. Travel one block away and you get into very lively businesses and restaurants. In any case, commuting from one part of SF to another is no problem by bus. Easy and reliable. Also, go hang out in a nicer neighborhood. Good for your spirits. 6th St I pretty much hate. Tenderloin is mixed : bad areas but also close to nice areas.
$20 an hour is pretty much the standard minimum wage in SF. Even for fast food. Getting a full 40 hrs a week might be hard, I'm not sure. But regardless, getting a job is always going to be a good reference for getting one later that you like better.
It sounds like you are getting some good counseling on available benefits and how to utilize them, which is great. But ultimately a paying job is going to be better. And maybe you can get some part time of under the table work that won't push you over the limit, though $700 a month is pretty low to stay under.
 
chippermonk said:
Sounds like you are either staying around 6th St or the Tenderloin. The Mission around 16th also has cheap housing and homelessness, but honestly it's one of my favorite neighborhoods. Travel one block away and you get into very lively businesses and restaurants. In any case, commuting from one part of SF to another is no problem by bus. Easy and reliable. Also, go hang out in a nicer neighborhood. Good for your spirits. 6th St I pretty much hate. Tenderloin is mixed : bad areas but also close to nice areas.
$20 an hour is pretty much the standard minimum wage in SF. Even for fast food. Getting a full 40 hrs a week might be hard, I'm not sure. But regardless, getting a job is always going to be a good reference for getting one later that you like better.
It sounds like you are getting some good counseling on available benefits and how to utilize them, which is great. But ultimately a paying job is going to be better. And maybe you can get some part time of under the table work that won't push you over the limit, though $700 a month is pretty low to stay under.
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Im about .6 miles from 6th Street. I walk there everyday to eat dinner that the community serves for the people lol.im staying at the Adelaide hostel on Taylor. I been applying everywhere on indeed and so far whole foods is the only place that has responded.
I'm on the waiting list for the shelter which I do be ridiculous that there is a waiting list. My stay at the hostel is coming to an end because the maximum stay is 14 days. Staying in a hostel long term can hurt my CAAP case
I'm hoping they call me soon for the shelter so my paper trial can start. I'm actual pretty scared about going to the shelter.i have horrible PTSD and trauma and social anxiety and the last thing I want is to bump heads with some asshole. Its probably going to take three months until I finally get a single room which sucks
 
opiatekrzy said:
What does this mean
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I went to San Francisco and wound up homeless. Guy I had met online to squat with raped me. Better guy took me in. Cute guy, nice guy. Musician. Keyboardist. Moved into his family's house and tried to keep the waitressing job I had with the rapist. We both did so much meth though. I even did it at work. Wound up having to move to florida. Hope you're not in too much danger
 
CalicoCatLover said:
I went to San Francisco and wound up homeless. Guy I had met online to squat with raped me. Better guy took me in. Cute guy, nice guy. Musician. Keyboardist. Moved into his family's house and tried to keep the waitressing job I had with the rapist. We both did so much meth though. I even did it at work. Wound up having to move to florida. Hope you're not in too much danger
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I'm away from all the bullshit Im in a hostel but I have to go to a shelter very very soon and not looking forward to feeling intimidated by all the people on the streets. I'm dreading it
 
opiatekrzy said:
I'm away from all the bullshit Im in a hostel but I have to go to a shelter very very soon and not looking forward to feeling intimidated by all the people on the streets. I'm dreading it
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When I looked at the homeless resources in california, it seemed pretty grim. Can you travel? All shelters kick you out but california seemed weirdly...idk. Well. I hope you find peace somehow.
 
CalicoCatLover said:
When I looked at the homeless resources in california, it seemed pretty grim. Can you travel? All shelters kick you out but california seemed weirdly...idk. Well. I hope you find peace somehow.
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They have 4 shelters..there is one that is an overnight shelter where you come at 6pm and have to leave in the morning. The other three are 24/7 where you can stay all day. I'm on the waiting list there's 450 people waiting it's ridiculous
 
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