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Alone in San Francisco

opiatekrzy

opiatekrzy

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I made the decision to move to San Francisco from new york. I've been here for about 7 days now and it is absolutely horrible. I pretty much left New York without a plan in place and without much money all I know is I wanted to start a new life and do things different.
I have been staying in a motel for the past week and I can't keep affording it. My family is sending money helping me out but I know that will come to a stop because I can't do this forever the prices for a motel are actually outrageous or even affording an apartment.
Im really trying to avoid this but I probably have to go to a shelter which I am not looking forward to doing.
I was clean five and a half months until I came here I decided to pick up meth and ever since I've been doing it the last couple days I've been absolutely miserable.
I'm just feeling really regretful for moving and I'm really feeling uneasy about this whole shelter thing and finding a job because it is so expensive here to live and I'm going to be struggling the whole time even if I'm working.
I have been single for 2 years and I must say I am absolutely lonely right now and being in the city with nobody is absolutely the worst.
Sorry for venting I just figured I would talk
 
Sorry to hear about that. What made you pick San Francisco? Sometimes a person can feel like a clean break with the past is a good thing, but it's good to have resources you can lean on, like friends and family, or just familiarity with an area. And certainly money/job. San Francisco is not an easy place to get by in without resources and it seems pretty unfortunate if you have relapsed as a result of moving. You are in a hotel now but I'd do something to get real stability before you end of homeless. It's god awful expensive for any housing in the Bay Area. Nice place if you can swing it, but not easy. Can you return to NY, or somewhere easier for you to get by?
Anyhow, good luck!
 
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opiatekrzy said:
I made the decision to move to San Francisco from new york. I've been here for about 7 days now and it is absolutely horrible. I pretty much left New York without a plan in place and without much money all I know is I wanted to start a new life and do things different.
I have been staying in a motel for the past week and I can't keep affording it. My family is sending money helping me out but I know that will come to a stop because I can't do this forever the prices for a motel are actually outrageous or even affording an apartment.
Im really trying to avoid this but I probably have to go to a shelter which I am not looking forward to doing.
I was clean five and a half months until I came here I decided to pick up meth and ever since I've been doing it the last couple days I've been absolutely miserable.
I'm just feeling really regretful for moving and I'm really feeling uneasy about this whole shelter thing and finding a job because it is so expensive here to live and I'm going to be struggling the whole time even if I'm working.
I have been single for 2 years and I must say I am absolutely lonely right now and being in the city with nobody is absolutely the worst.
Sorry for venting I just figured I would talk
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I don’t know what sort of job you are looking for but I was going to say the post office has been hiring quite a few people if that’s something you would consider. (I don’t know about the Bay Area specifically though.) Of course to get a job you will need to be off drugs for the urine screen.

If you decide to return home it’s nothing to be embarrassed about, everything is a learning experience. It may be better to make that decision than to go into a shelter though. You will figure this out.

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I loved SF ,the parks,events,music, food, the people ,all the history.Hope you settle in.At least the winter won't be so harsh.
 
opiatekrzy said:
I have a job interview tomorrow at whole foods and I'm currently looking for work they have a one room occupancy for $550 a month but you have to work to be able to move in one room occupancy for 550 a month but you have to work to be able to move in
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$550 a month is very cheap. Around 6th St or the Tenderloin or in the Mission, I imagine. Some of those have been remodeled to be pretty nice, some not. But cool to have your own personal space like that.
 
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Robi said:
I loved SF ,the parks,events,music, food, the people ,all the history.Hope you settle in.At least the winter won't be so harsh.
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That is one thing about SF, the things you have to pay for can be pretty expensive but there are a lot of free things that are really nice. Just walking around looking at stuff is fun.
 
one nice thing about sf is its not hard to get around the city without a car. muni is great and its not hard to fair evade bart, just follow behind someone at the gate.

this city is definitely expensive but you can get by with some determination and ingenuity. 550 for a room is about as good as it gets.
hope you can find some friends. its really hard to be living in a new place with zero support network. theres a lot of amazing people in the bay, just avoid the tech people and you should be fine haha

good luck at the job interview! you got this man
 
lovertown said:
one nice thing about sf is its not hard to get around the city without a car. muni is great and its not hard to fair evade bart
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It's also a pretty small city so you can get places by foot easily, unlike LA. I'm not sure on the state of social services these days but they use to be pretty generous with things like free bus passes and stuff. There are various places with free food but I highly recommend St Martin de Porres on Portrero Ave at 16th St. Genuinely good food, nice staff, and some other services ( I haven't been there in some years though)
 
opiatekrzy said:
I made the decision to move to San Francisco from new york. I've been here for about 7 days now and it is absolutely horrible. I pretty much left New York without a plan in place and without much money all I know is I wanted to start a new life and do things different.
I have been staying in a motel for the past week and I can't keep affording it. My family is sending money helping me out but I know that will come to a stop because I can't do this forever the prices for a motel are actually outrageous or even affording an apartment.
Im really trying to avoid this but I probably have to go to a shelter which I am not looking forward to doing.
I was clean five and a half months until I came here I decided to pick up meth and ever since I've been doing it the last couple days I've been absolutely miserable.
I'm just feeling really regretful for moving and I'm really feeling uneasy about this whole shelter thing and finding a job because it is so expensive here to live and I'm going to be struggling the whole time even if I'm working.
I have been single for 2 years and I must say I am absolutely lonely right now and being in the city with nobody is absolutely the worst.
Sorry for venting I just figured I would talk
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brooo why. I desperately want to leave NY for somewhere nicer to. Would have came along.
 
It's pretty cold in San Francisco lately the temperatures have been in the high 50s and 60s definitely hoodie weather most year round. Where in New York are you from? I'm from buffalo
 
opiatekrzy said:
It's pretty cold in San Francisco lately the temperatures have been in the high 50s and 60s definitely hoodie weather most year round. Where in New York are you from? I'm from buffalo
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Brooklyn. Have't been able to leave in 8 years. Panic Disorder. I know the feeling though man. 3-4 times a years I say I can't take it anymore, I have to leave, go far away. But never make it.
 
I have really bad social anxiety and even worse anxiety on meth and lately I been by myself in my motel room and only leave when I absolutely have to. I met another tweaker on The street and bought some off him and went to his place and listened to music and chilled but I quickly became panicked that I'm.new to the area and felt very vulnerable and felt so out of place I quickly cut the visor short and left and went back to being miserable in my motel room. I need to stop doing this to myself it sucks being all alone in a city where you know nobody. I can relate to the panic definitely
 
opiatekrzy said:
It's pretty cold in San Francisco lately the temperatures have been in the high 50s and 60s definitely hoodie weather most year round. Where in New York are you from? I'm from buffalo
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Yeah, that's how the weather is here. Takes some getting use to for sure. My first year, I couldn't believe I was wearing a winter coat to see 4th of July fireworks! It's actually warmed up some since I came here, but you also get used to it. I like it. Also, in the summer, if you head due east 20 miles, it could be 90 while it's still 65 in SF. Big changes.
What do you like to do? Any hobbies or interests? How did your job interview go?
 
chippermonk said:
Yeah, that's how the weather is here. Takes some getting use to for sure. My first year, I couldn't believe I was wearing a winter coat to see 4th of July fireworks! It's actually warmed up some since I came here, but you also get used to it. I like it. Also, in the summer, if you head due east 20 miles, it could be 90 while it's still 65 in SF. Big changes.
What do you like to do? Any hobbies or interests? How did your job interview go?
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"The coldest winter I ever spent was a summer in San Francisco" Mark Twain

Funny, that's how I remember it, too ...

But that was a long, long time ago ...
 
chippermonk said:
Yeah, that's how the weather is here. Takes some getting use to for sure. My first year, I couldn't believe I was wearing a winter coat to see 4th of July fireworks! It's actually warmed up some since I came here, but you also get used to it. I like it. Also, in the summer, if you head due east 20 miles, it could be 90 while it's still 65 in SF. Big changes.
What do you like to do? Any hobbies or interests? How did your job interview go?
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I am absolutely shocked about the weather here I figured going to California it would be hotter cuz it's close to Mexico. My job interview got rescheduled for tomorrow at 11:30. I also have to go to access point to get help for housing I got to fit time for that and I need to go to social services for a housing interview soon.
I don't really have any hobbies unfortunately. I spent the last seven years in a toxic relationship that revolved around getting high. I feel so guilty for doing meth again, I started doing it last week after having five months clean. I definitely don't miss being an anti social wreck glued to my phone with horrible anxiety. I came to California to start a new life not keep doing what I was doing in New York. I really hope things get better for me
 
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