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alcoholism thread

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i kinda define an alchoholic like i define an addict. just someone that cant stop doing their preffered substance.
i've done plenty of drugs, but booze is the only thing that REALLY does it for me. i think its just how i'm wired.
 
managed to cut drinking down to 4 or 5 nights a week. cant drink liqours anymore as my stomach is damaged. better off anyways, as i love beer to death.

its unbelievable how much oneself can make an ass out of..... onesself, while under the influence. that, minus the financial/physical/mental wear and tear should be enough to make you quit. but whats one to do when you really truly want it?

im not saying alcohol is difficult to quit for me, i just dont want to quit, no matter what the alcohol takes from me.

in rehab they were right tho... they said even if u go back to using we will do one thing... make ya guilty as fuck about using.
 
^ Good to see you around....I was wondering where you'd been. 4-5 nights a week is better than being drunk 24/7. I hope they keep you feeling guilty, maybe you'll make it to 3-4 nights instead. :)
 
usdathashield said:
in rehab they were right tho... they said even if u go back to using we will do one thing... make ya guilty as fuck about using.
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Yep.

I'm gonna be checking into this thread regularly fellas... here's the deal.

I've had a drinking problem since I was like 16-17. I'm gonna be 22 now in October. I've been through treatment, AA meetings, therapy... done it all. And while I have grown much as a person over those stretches of sobriety (longest was 10 months) eventually I always go back to using.. trying to make it "better" than the last time.

Anyway this time hasn't been really that bad so far, though I have been taking stupid risks like driving a car under the influence when I'm already on probation... so this is a problem. I'm not ready to give in though and quit. I had 10 months sober and drank about a month ago, maybe a little more. Theres been a couple times since then that I have lost control of what I told myself at the beginning of the night and ended up comsuming drugs and doing stupid shit.

Can anyone else relate?
 
i can suympathize man, its just good i ncanda u can drink at 18 i ncertain provences.

until you get out what really bothers u u will never quit man...
 
today is day 1 of quitting for me, minor wds seeing shit.


yesterday was a bad day, thats making me want to quit.

woke up 10 am, went to the beer store, drank, went to my therapists, nearly piss drunk, went home, drank, went out at night to get beer, drank alone outside the beer store in the dark sitting in the parking lot.

bussed home, met a friend walking home and drank again.

also, lately ive been drinking on benadryl to get more messed up.

not a good path...


and yes silverfeniks, youll always find a way to drink if you want it
 
I honestly don't know if I'm an alcoholic or not.

I used to drink very rarely and since September of last year I've drank every weekend. I've worked myself up to the point that a liter of tanqueray or bourbon is an every friday and saturday night thing....usually chased with beers and drinks given by others

Recently I've been finishing half gallons of bourbon by myself on weekends.
 
zophen said:
^ Too much, much much much too much.



Good luck :)
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I manage it well. Alcohol is definitely my drug of choice as I don't get strung out on it.

I never drink during the week or by myself, thats unimaginable and seems like it wouldn't really be fun.

I'm at ends with the fact that if I am an alcoholic I am, and if I become one I will.
 
lol half gallon of bourbon, goddamm. yeah mate id try to cut down on that.

strangely i have never tried bourbon and never will, stomach is a lil weak. canadian club and ginger ale, thatd be real nice
 
usdathashield said:
lol half gallon of bourbon, goddamm. yeah mate id try to cut down on that.

strangely i have never tried bourbon and never will, stomach is a lil weak. canadian club and ginger ale, thatd be real nice
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I take after my father...he's legendary for it in our country and the U.S. :)

I don't really see the point to cut down, I don't suffer great negative effects from it and it really is socially acceptable and encouraged here.

Crown and ginger is good, I like it but lately I prefer my liquor straight with water, it feels better.
 
I'm not really worried about my alcohol intake, it depends who I'm with really (I mean depending on who I'm with I'll think I've drank too much/not enough, I always drink about the same).

Recently its been maybe a pint, maybe a bit more of spirits and between 6-15 beers every day I go out, whether that's just a saturday night, or if I go out on friday, do some speed, do it again saturday, maybe do some speed do it again sunday etc. so that much, each time I go out.

but its not every day, and most weeks I'll only get drunk on a saturday night.

meh.
 
ok, now i am quitting for real. :|

physical this week shows elevated liver ASL (?) levels. not dangerous yet, and they did a more complete workup to check on hepatitis and cholesterol levels, but i know it is the alcohol. luckily, it isn't bad enough to be hep, i know that it won't be. but that shit is poison!

all of you heavy drinkers, please get your blood work up done on a regular basis, please. it is easy to be in denial until you see a wakeup call such as this.
 
I need to get back on track. I'm nowhere near as bad as I was at my worst and have made improvement but I'm taking steps back over the last few weeks.

I'm back to the daily drinking, but I'm not going out alot nor am I drinking really large amounts. But I had it down to fridays and saturdays and sunday for awhile and that was really working out for the best.


I'm really stressed out for now reason. Actually the reason is school but I'm doing really damn good in it right now. I've been doing solid A and B work for the past three years and still think I'm gonna screw it up. Even though I know all I have to do is keep working as hard as I am.

So in response to this I start drinking more often. Its what I have been doing for years.
 
been drinking alooooot less lately. i took on a new job...well, technically its at my current place of employment, but with the new one, i not only have to wake up about 4 hours earlier than usual, but i'm dealing with people (as opposed to my other shift where i'm back in a kitchen)
its a good thing i think, i make more money, and i sure as hell wont get obliterated the night before i gotta go in for one of the earlier shifts. because if i'm hungover as shit, or smell like booze or something and a guest comments, i'm fucked and i lose both jobs lol.

actually, my boss told me if i fuck it up, she'll kill me. but i think she just meant i'm double-fired haha. i still dont sleep much w/o drinking, but i've almost gotten used to that at this point.
 
I used to be able to get drunk without a hangover, when I first started and barely drank often.

Now I'm lucky if I don't get a hangover from six beers.
 
Really, I harbor no delusions about my situation.... my name is Mike and I'm an alcoholic lol. I get drunk at least 6 or 7 days out of the week, whether I have the cash for it or I gotta steal it. It's just like, the only time I can "chill" or the only time I can slow my mind down is when I'm drunk.... so I get drunk too much.

It's just the most accessible thing there is. I love having an altered mind and I can attain that at any corner store. My addiction certainly isn't helping anything, and I just...... fuck, I don't know. I'm drunk right now.
 
A little update on me. Recently I kind of have things "under control" but the weekends are a little wild I have to admit...

Dude I know it isn't healthy for me but I've been gettin' down on the cocaethylene every week lately... this past weekend it was thursday night and saturday night. Yeah I'm starting to feel bad about it but goddamn it, its just so much fun, and the feeling from that first nice line of blow after about 6-7 drinks is the BOMB... ahhh I love it so much! I'm definitely an addict to this combo... I need to have it like once a week, even though I am kicking myself for it the next day.

How bad is it really? Because to be honest, I don't ever do coke if I HAVEN'T been drinking. In my life I've had probably somewhere in the neighborhood of 100 times roughly doing coke, and probably like 3-4 of those were going from a sober baseline. The rest, was booze and blow, I dont really like the high from regular coke that much, it just isnt that good, but I am head over heels in love with coke + booze.

Also.. I generally stay clean as a whistle during the week. An exception to this could be like, a couple drinks on ONE night during the week, nothing else. No drugs or anything. Then thursday rolls around (my friday basically) and I pretty much always party... normally do coke and blow one night of the weekend, just drinking and maybe a little bud on the others.
 
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