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Alcoholism Thread V. ti martwonies

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Slipped a damn god 'nother time. Drinking devils springs alone. It seems like it will never end. Fuuuuckkk.
 
ocean said:
Let's get back on topic.......
This is not the MJ thread v. BeBlueery (or however you do that thing like martwonies ;))
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OK, just before we get back On topic .. WTF does the thread title mean?
Its been irritating me since Day 1 :p
 
^

well glad you asked, how do i explain this.

ti martwonies, ive only had ti martwoonies, i meanss two martinies... haha :) :P

get it? got it? good...

Edit:

ill will be dry one year on 1-27...!
yes, life is much much better with/out alcohol.
 
I've started drinking agin the last 3 nights. I'm on xmas duties with the Army and live on a large barracks. Everything's quiet at the moment with everyone being dissipated around the country on xmas leave. There are only a few poeple living back in camp and the bars and shops are closed.

I feel quite chilled about the fact that I'm getting sloshed at night and turning up for guardroom duty in the morning. I'm not sure if my alcoholism problems were caused by othert people annoying me or if I was the root cause of my alcoholism... hmm :-/
 
By the sounds of it, boredom.

A wise man once said, "Boredom is the first step on the road to relapse"

I think that was Jay on Clerks II.
 
^You're not kidding. I long ago lost count of the times I drank solely because I was bored. :|

I'm glad not to be doing that anymore.

I think more and more about a dry 2010 every day. Although moderation has somewhat sought its own level for me, when I do drink, I find myself becoming more depressed at times - should be obvious given that alcohol is a depressant, but we alkies do have that eternal question: when will I learn?
 
Mariposa said:
^You're not kidding. I long ago lost count of the times I drank solely because I was bored. :|
...when I do drink, I find myself becoming more depressed at times - should be obvious given that alcohol is a depressant, but we alkies do have that eternal question: when will I learn?
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Words of learned wisdom ..
For me I learn easy, but forget easier .. Boredom comes around and I'm all too eager to obliterate whatever lingering memories of misery remain, until its a few hours too late ...

SilverFeniks said:
An ex is going to spend the night with me on Christmas, though, and already shared her plans to have "a merry fucking drunken christmas." Not sure I'll be able to resist . . Hopefully she brings me some real drugs for the Holiday :D
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This isn't happening now.
So of course I'm thinking of just drinking alone .. But I'd really feel like an alcoholic heading to the store tonight.
Either way going to be another miserable holiday.
 
Aw Feniks :(

If it makes you feel better, I had a terrible time with my gf's family, and had to drive 2 hours each way in the dark, while it's pissing rain. All the while, cutting my drinking short because I have to drive, and it's killing me inside because I want to take the bottle and start chugging.

Now I finally got home and the first thing I do... Crack a beer :(
 
went totally nuts the last two times i drank recently at family parties

i guess i just cant handle booze anymore since i took this break and lost my tolerance

still hurts my stomach alot , im gonna keep away
 
Fuck it. Picked up a 30 rack of Pabst. Too much to drink > too much to think. Good luck to you all.
 
7 days no drink
3 days no pills

i'm craving candy like a mofo!

In treatment for my recovery, it's not bad. I finally asked for help.
on my laptop, and hooked up to wireless signal, keepin a blog of all my ordeals n stuff.
 
D's that is GREAT news!!
Very excited for you!!

You might consider posting some of yoru journal enteries (if you wanted to share them) in BL Blogs.
OverDone kept a journal during his treatment and posted his entries there-
It is a great inspiration to alot of people-
If you decide not to, that is understandable, as it can be very private- but I think a great tool for you in the future.
Gives you something to look back on.....

I wish you lots of luck and hope to hear more good news from you soon!! <3
Yay for you!! :)
 
I feel shit. i don't feel healthy.
drank again tonight.
My ex told me that im a shelfishbulshitter and to fuck off.
I tell myself to keep off it but i just can't.
drink driving, i feel so fucking pathetic.
If this isn't the bottom i don't know what else will be.
 
It happened on Christmas and it happened again today. I didn't realize the night before that all liquor stores in my state are closed on New Years Day, so I didn't save some booze for today. Maybe this is a "sign," or a kind of kick in the ass to stick to my New Years resolution and cut down. Or maybe it's the state trying to get all the alcoholics here to stick to their resolutions to abstain and stop getting into fatal car accidents.
 
Been staying on a dry reservation since Christmas day, so I've been in an enforced state of no alcohol, my question is to you who have achieved longer term sobriety just what motivates you to rise above the cravings? My stay here will end on the 10th when I'll return to the city with all its bright lights and temptations and all....really looking for a strong reason to commit emotionally this time to sobriety.
Good luck to everyone else trying to stay dry!
 
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