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your still a young man so things are never hopeless. i know youve been using most of your life, but you can definatly turn this around.

i think you need to take the same approach as you do for using as you would for recovery... not sometimes, but all the time!

if you can try rehab, if its too expensive try hitting daily A/A or n/a meetings, get a sponser.

if its more than just substances on your mind, talk to your family doctor about seeing a shrink or a social worker. good luck mate let us know how you work out.

as for me, i was sober for 16 days but went on a 3 day bender, and i think im having withdrawls but is it even possible? im hallucinating when i close my eyes and i think im going to have a heart attack all kinds of chest pains and my heart keeps double pumping, been doing this for a day and a half now. i think i might go to the emergency room.
 
I feel very mopey today, and ordinarily I would drink when I felt this way. Luckily, I am a hair from dead broke and need to buy food, not booze!

There have been a lot of reports in the news about the anti-smoking drug Chantix reducing cravings for alcohol as an unforeseen positive side effect. I may do an in vivo trial of this once I am again insured - Chantix is freaking expensive.

Here's a study from pubmed

I am starting to view this struggle as the lifelong battle it will be. I feel very much in suspended animation - mopey, lost, blah. I think I'll make something tasty for dinner and try to be thankful for another day alcohol-free. I hope that I can avoid the fucking booze aisle. I won't see the liquor store if I use the back store entrance, which is a very good thing.
 
Ok i got loaded drunk yet again last night along with the 4 some odd grams of gabapentin and the wack of clonazepam i took. I havent felt alcohol cravings or liked alcohol this much in years.

It's fucking scaring me at this point because if i go back to being a full time drunk i'll be dead before 35. And thats being generous.
 
Dude, you be careful okay?? You know what you could be in for so just take it easy.

Mariposa said:
I am glad to still be abstinent; today was the day I thought I'd get it all wrong, but I didn't.

*faceplants on warm, comfy, just right, bed*
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That's so great hun, I am proud of you <3
 
paranoid android said:
Ok i got loaded drunk yet again last night along with the 4 some odd grams of gabapentin and the wack of clonazepam i took. I havent felt alcohol cravings or liked alcohol this much in years.

It's fucking scaring me at this point because if i go back to being a full time drunk i'll be dead before 35. And thats being generous.
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Be careful. The longer you go on for the harder it will be to stop. If I remember correctly you've run out of your opiate script early is that correct? If so just try and take it easy until you get it refilled, then after that you'll most likely be less inclined to drink too much.
 
I need to stay sober and though I believe 12 step programs are probably ineffective, I found an atheist/agnostic AA group that meets Tuesday nights very near where I live.

I plan to go and at least tell my story then. It is not pretty at all and although I'm a halfway decent public speaker, I fear I will die on the spot of embarrassment as there is a lot I won't admit anything but anonymously.
 
Quitting Alcohol for the long haul

Well, I've been a heavy drinker for many years now and I'm 36. My wife said I should stop drinking. It's become so heavy, it's starting to affect my life and my relationship. I quit drinking on Jan 31st and I've been clean every since?

I didn't have the withdrawl that other heavy drinkers describe, but I've had some depressive episodes. My best advice is talk to someone about what you're going through. AA probably isn't the answer. Find your own way.

I've noticed that since I've focused more on MDMA and clean living (no more fast food crap) I'm finding a new way to live. I've gone to several parties where everyone is pissed out of their minds and unhappy. Really was an awakening.

Do I miss liquor? Sometimes. I think I rather miss the routine and the instant relaxing. I'm a lot more wound up these days, but that's for me to unwind and figure out. Good luck everyone.
 
Spurs_1882 said:
Be careful. The longer you go on for the harder it will be to stop. If I remember correctly you've run out of your opiate script early is that correct? If so just try and take it easy until you get it refilled, then after that you'll most likely be less inclined to drink too much.
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I get my morphine script in a few days this shit always happens when i give up opiates. The alcohol cravings come back with a vengence but this time it's been worse then ever. I only drink a beer or 2 at most when on morphine because alcohol doesent give me a high really when im on morphine.

It just scares me that instead of opiate withdrawals now im getting cold sweats passing the liquor stores and the beer at the gas stations and convienance stores. Morphine withdrawals and cravings i can handle but this shit is brutal.

Thankfully i got some sleeping pills so i may be able to actually sleep and they help the cravings. Im almost 2 days sober now that's a start atleast.
 
Mariposa said:
I am starting to view this struggle as the lifelong battle it will be. I feel very much in suspended animation - mopey, lost, blah. I think I'll make something tasty for dinner and try to be thankful for another day alcohol-free. I hope that I can avoid the fucking booze aisle. I won't see the liquor store if I use the back store entrance, which is a very good thing.
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It's still early days though hun, it will get easier as time goes on.
Great tactic by using the back entrance to avoid the alcohol aisle. Sometimes we need to pull out all stops to get through cravings/habitual callings!
You're doing great love <3
 
I haven't been drinking, or wanting to drink, at all (too busy using felonious substances)
Naturally overall I feel better physically & mentally (tho nowhere near 100%).

I think the alcoholic failure living in my house is a good negative-reinforcement. Hopefully I channel all the hate into alcohol-memories once I finally regain control of my space. Still wish I lived out in the woods tho.

Drugs + distance, my anti-alcohol.
 
^^ Me too; I caved yesterday though.

Went to visit my GP to get some sleeping-aids, had a long chat about my meds, depression, drinking etc, then he asks whether I was after any meds.... his tone made me panic (instantly paranoid that he might think I was just seeking drugs - which I was in a way) so I said "no I'm fine"... fuck I'm a moron. Long story cut short I had a little anxiety attack, got some wine, and drank myself silly 8) Oh well, there's always tonight for sobriety.
 
^^ Aww damn belarki :(
Next time be honest with your doc, he can only say no to giving you meds but if you aren't honest then you really won't get any! :D
 
^^ hehe yeh I know :D I'm having a bad run of sillyness lately; I missed a bus on Sunday purely because I was sitting there in the sun, day dreaming away, and it drove straight past me. The next scheduled bus? An hour later...
 
Ugh. I drank a lot this past week.

The St. Patrick's Day celebrating that began on Tuesday lasted well into Saturday night.

I slept, ate, shat, and worked inbetween binges out with my friends.

I haven't felt like this since my short stint as a coke head a few years back. I was drinking a case of beer a day back then.

Jameson will be the death of my goodtime spring mood.


I am resisiting the urge to lift my mood with a couple of beers over a paper at a local Irish joint.

I've opted out of smoking pot for a few days as well.

Being sober is rather dull for me for now.

:(
 
i caved in
all was well
just figured a bottle of wine
would make cleaning the apartment a whole lot more tolerable

now im here and still not cleaning :\
 
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