Because from the sounds of it you're experiencing a psychotic break. Seriously, check yourself in somewhere before you get involuntarily admitted.
What a SHAME ON YOU!!
First,you tell me to STOP drinking,then you tell me that,after all,I might NEED ALCOHOL because YOU KNEW that I need something STRONGER to get BACK ON MY FEET and NOW,NOW,YOU TELL ME THAT IM CRAZY!!!
I WILL TELL YOU ONCE AGAIN,so YOU,WILL UNDERSTAND: YOU WONT FOOL ME THIS TIME,IM PROTECTED BY THE HOLY HOLINESS OF THE SPIRIT OF THE MUSHROOM!!!!!!
NOBODY,NOBODY CAN DESTROY ME NOW,I'M,I'M,I'MMM IMMORTAL!!!!!!!!