i've hit a weird point with alcohol too. i think it is because even though i would not get anywhere near drunk or even buzzed from a single drink, i could feel a little warmth, and that would make the first drink worthwhile and make me want a second. now, because of years of drinking and, i think even more so, benzo use, my tolerance makes alcohol a struggle to abuse. having to quickly drink knowing i wont even feel the slightest touch of anything until my 3rd drink is discouraging. for 2 reasons, 1. sometimes i just want to have a beer or two--no point to that anymore. 2. even if i want to get drunk, it's just too much work and i do not reap the rewards quickly enough for my first few drinks to be reinforcing.
only time i ever drink now is with benzos, to help the benzos.