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Social Age is an ongoing depreciation of body and mind

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Age is an ongoing depreciation of body and mind, to clarify it is not that I care less for my mind and body. On the contrary, I really love my mind and body. The term depreciation I refer to a gradual decrease in the the value of an asset over time due to wear and tear, age or obsolesce.

I guess what I'm trying to say is I haven't been feeling 100% for awhile and it's becoming a concern. For one, I regularly get steroid shots every 3 weeks for my back, however, I had to contact pain management after 2 weeks and an updated MRI was scheduled. Don't like old age.
 
I'm in chronic hip and back pain. Already been through the MRI routine.
I smoke some weed and sometime even a sip of scotch but it numbs it a bit.
Not complaining as much as letting you know your not alone.

For me the worst part is my vision is getting worse. I have a 48" OLED monitor set at 250% and I still don't see it easily
 
On top of the physical ailments I was doing ok for a while until the over-the-counter mood stabilizer price jumped outrageously high I sought other OTC supplements to take its place. This is day 2 of taking L-Methylfotae, didn't sleep much last night I assume because of change in supplement? This morning I took 2 caps instead of one of the L-M looking for relief.

I know myself pretty good after all of these years, and I recognize certain behaviors and thought patterns that occur when mental health issues start up again.
 
Well, it's kind of like with a car that never leaves the garage except to go to church on Sundays. It's gonna depreciate a lot less than one driven across the country a bunch of times, but then again the driver is going to see a lot less exciting times and places.
Then again, it's good to avoid the potholes when you're out driving no matter what
 
chippermonk said:
Well, it's kind of like with a car that never leaves the garage except to go to church on Sundays. It's gonna depreciate a lot less than one driven across the country a bunch of times, but then again the driver is going to see a lot less exciting times and places.
Then again, it's good to avoid the potholes when you're out driving no matter what
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And...
Caution, (do not stop on tracks) ...

 
chippermonk said:
Well, it's kind of like with a car that never leaves the garage except to go to church on Sundays. It's gonna depreciate a lot less than one driven across the country a bunch of times, but then again the driver is going to see a lot less exciting times and places.
Then again, it's good to avoid the potholes when you're out driving no matter what
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If you’re going to use the car analogy
 
Feel for you old age is a pain in the ass. Ignoring it but woke up after doing a noon nap. fuck thats geriatic. Old people stuff but after taking my meds dextro-Amphetamine oral

 
i was so sore from muscle damage and spinal arthritis from a car accident in my late 20's and early 30's. luckily the injury has healed a bit learning what i can and can't do.

at 40, my knees feel achy sometimes like i imagine a lot of people feel. most of my arthritis symptoms in my hands have went away. i worry sometimes though that my knees are gonna be locked up or something even by my 50's or 60's, but sometimes i feel like i could be mobile till i'm in my 80's. i thought i was gonna be dead cause the symptoms i was getting in my back in my mid 20's.. i thought i was gonna be dead at 27 like the rock star curse cause i was caught working in a warehouse exacerbating the injury and the pins and needles through out my body and headaches were so intense that i couldn't see how it wasn't a sign i was about to pass out and die. lucky i'm on social security now. i was working at wendy's for a few month doing the frialator in a lot of pain. not having to stress my back out let the injury heal. .... ..

i feel grateful for any time i have left at 40. really was convinced i was gonna die in my 20's or early 30's.... i always think about that some people have really painful conditions or have gotten in worse accidents than me too and even children get cancer and die young. it's kind of a fucked up way to think, and doesn't really help. it's kind of self loathing.

hope everyone in this thread has a few years left. plenty of room on the planet at this point cause of new farming techniques and the fact the ozone layer is healing... imagine living in an ancient culture where you're still healthy and you have to die for the new life. lol. still must be the same vibe for some people psychologically even if they under go death by body deprication, but we are living in good times.

hope you guys have a few good years left appreciating what you have. hopefully you have enough of everything you crave till you pass on, unless you believe life is a test or something.. i always worry i'm gonna end up in the hospital. that shit is a test. it wouldn't be a test if i weren't addicted to weed. i'm not particuar about food and weed is the only drug i'm addicted to. idk. hopefully they make weed federally legal, so people can at least take edibles at hospitals. don't know if ya'll on any drugs that you won't be able to get if you are hospitalized. probably a thread on BL about what drug you'd want to take in your final moments if any... cool archive shit.

any ways, just want to say i was reading which BL posters are the old folk and what the post triggered in my head. sorry i'm not really in your age group club. i guarentee i've been in some extreme pain though. my story is crazy. i cry in public all the time. lol.
 
foodcrisis said:
i guarentee i've been in some extreme pain though.
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just wanted to add a thought that pain doesn't necessarily have to be a part of aging... i know the OP was saying they were uncomfortable though... lol.. i dunno. don't know if this thread is about pain or what... i'm gonna go know. have fun being born in a time when you were subjected to way different stuff different age group than me people.
 
You can kind of fight age abit. Im 44 and in way better shape now then when i was 25. TRT really helps
 
foodcrisis said:
lol.. i dunno. don't know if this thread is about pain or what...
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The pain doesn't have to be physical ...

Sometimes it's just in one's head.


foodcrisis said:
just wanted to add a thought that pain doesn't necessarily have to be a part of aging... i know the OP was saying they were uncomfortable though... lol.. i dunno. don't know if this thread is about pain or what... i'm gonna go know. have fun being born in a time when you were subjected to way different stuff different age group than me people.
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Actually part of the "inside joke" might be explained by the fact the "Our Generation" was the one proclaimed "I hope I die before I get old" ...
And here we are



Technically I'm from the crossover generation before ...
but still I sorta fit in

Here's to the Beats... We proceeded the flood

 
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