AllAroundGoodGuy
Greenlighter
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- Jun 9, 2018
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- 17
Hey friends,
I've been in this pattern of drug abuse that has become all too common in recent years. Started at a young age to cope with depression and anxiety. Ultimately turning into a lifelong struggle with many substances. Namely opiates and benzos. I've come to a point where I've seen my life take a turn for the worst when I had all the opportunity from stepping out of rehab to have a fulfilling and happy life. I just cannot for the life of me stay away from using long enough to make any significant long-term progress. I was in inpatient treatment for 7 months, got a job, moved into an apartment with a girlfriend and as soon as I was able to I started using again. Lost all of that twice over 2 years and here I am homeless again, on methadone but still smoking 5 blues a day with little to no effect. To sum it up I am just so tired of doing the same shit. But I can't convince my addict brain to do anything different for any significant period of time. I just got approved for state funded section 8 housing and I really want to get my shit together, start working again and move on with my life. I just picture the same pattern happening all over again. Am I just one of those people who will always be a junkie until I go to prison or die of an overdose? It sure seems like I am. Anyway thanks for listening. Any ideas or support in any way is greatly appreciated. Take care ❤
I've been in this pattern of drug abuse that has become all too common in recent years. Started at a young age to cope with depression and anxiety. Ultimately turning into a lifelong struggle with many substances. Namely opiates and benzos. I've come to a point where I've seen my life take a turn for the worst when I had all the opportunity from stepping out of rehab to have a fulfilling and happy life. I just cannot for the life of me stay away from using long enough to make any significant long-term progress. I was in inpatient treatment for 7 months, got a job, moved into an apartment with a girlfriend and as soon as I was able to I started using again. Lost all of that twice over 2 years and here I am homeless again, on methadone but still smoking 5 blues a day with little to no effect. To sum it up I am just so tired of doing the same shit. But I can't convince my addict brain to do anything different for any significant period of time. I just got approved for state funded section 8 housing and I really want to get my shit together, start working again and move on with my life. I just picture the same pattern happening all over again. Am I just one of those people who will always be a junkie until I go to prison or die of an overdose? It sure seems like I am. Anyway thanks for listening. Any ideas or support in any way is greatly appreciated. Take care ❤