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Addicts: Who is workin on decreasin their use? Tell us about it!

I've really been working on slowing down my cocaine/crack use. I think now I do it once every other month or so... Sometimes longer depending on my work schedule... I once had to do it every day to even feel half decent.. It ruled my life...hopefully i can rule it now. i had some tonight, and i am glad to say i don't feel so crazy sketchy as i usually get... now if i can only stop one day..
 
i've reduced my daily MMT from 90mg/day to 60/day... bassically putting the rest aside to get really high like today.... =D

oh and i do the same with my valium... prescribed 30mg/day and i take 20mg/day so that days like today i can chiiiiiiiiiillllllout massive.... and i stopped using the needle alltogether, after about 4 months of regular use...
 
started MMT ~7weeks ago. before that i used to shoot dope 3 times
a day and used what ever i could get my hands on. mostly benzos
and booze.

now i just smoke pot and drink my methadone syrup. life is so much better
right now. %)
 
I haven't used since Friday. And I'm not sick strangely. A little bored and slightly aggravated though. I think I dodged a bullet.

Trying to hold off until later this week. Feels good man.
 
Sad that this is one of the shortest threads on the front page of Drug Culture.

Anyways, I've been working hard to decrease my drug use for a few months now. I have cut out the opiate use (heroin/oxy was getting bad, tolerance was getting high, W/Ds were really fucking my life), now I'm working on stopping other things. I still smoke way too much pot and its negatively affecting my life almost as badly as opiates were. I still use benzos every now and then for sleep, and adderall for studying. I rarely drink.

I think I'm doing pretty good! Its the hard fight, everybody in this thread should be proud.
 
CII~360 said:
I am working on decreasing my benzo use. Out of all the drugs I have ever abused, which is everything but snorting the kitchen sink, I have never abused Xanax or any benzo for that matter.
Frankly, I hate the feeling of taking more than one...that sleepy/zombie feeling.
However, I have a pretty bad panic disorder, so I have been taking two a day for years (perscribed by my doctor) to try and abort anything that should come my way and in doing this I have become dependent.
Reading all the horror storys on BL mortifies me so I am doing it slow and am down to 1 and 1/2 a day. When I get down to 0, I will just use them under my tounge when I actually have a panic attack. (I have not had a full blown panic attack in months...but the fear of having one is worse than anything. People with this disorder will know exactly what I am talking about)
Wish me luck! I am going to need it.
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you should read my thread in TDS about detoxing from 10mgs of kpins....

Either way, after 2 months of abstinence, i got back on benzos...I also have a panic disorder and need them to function....

don't taper off unless you are ready and content with every aspect of your life.
 
I'm no hardcore addict but after doing about an OC80 or bag of brown every night this summer (and for close to 7 or 8 months a year before that, minus the dope) I decided to cut back for school. Even though I'm closer to the city, I have less connects here and have only done dope a few times and oxy once since classes started.

it feels good though.
 
Trying to significantly cut down use from every day to once a week. And it's been working for several months, I'm not really happy about it, but I know I need to. rehab helped for a two month break. But it was hard once I got back. some weeks are worse than others and I can't be perfect. If I really want drugs I usually just talk to my boyfriend about it, and then I'm fine after a few hours most times. It's hard... but I need to do it. I can't risk my relationship or my scholarships. =o But I'm doing a lot better and it's getting easier.


<3
 
I'm trying to taper. Trying. I'm 19 years old and I've had an opiate addiction since i was ~13. Back when i was 12 i found a bottle of 120 of the watson 7.5mg hydros (in my mom's cabinet). I had rememebered hearing about hydrocodone somewhere and how well it works for pain. So i had decided to take 2 when i had a bad headache one day. I was in love. It was the best feeling i had ever had back then.

Soon enough, that bottle of 120 was empty. I was stealing pills from uncles, aunts, grandparents, friends of parents, parents of friends. When i was 14 i broke into one of my friends house's when him and his parents were going to his family's house. Came through the back window and found ~500 hydrocodone, a bottle of 100 valium, ~30 OC 40's. I was in heaven.

Now i shoot dope. And have been for the past 2 and half years.


This shit started when i was fucking 12. What the fuck was i thinking?

And i can't find a damn suboxone clinic that will accept my fucking insurance and i'm too fucking broke to get on any different insurance that these fucks will take.

I'm trying to taper. I'm trying very hard. Even 1 day a week i schedule to not use at all. That day is hell every week. But each week that day seems to get less and less sickening.

For my life, job, college career, and future career, i need to quit.

I'M GOING TO QUIT..
 
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I'm done with dope. I may have said that before, in fact I know I have. This time is different though, there's too many reasons to not do it. She's a better and longer lasting high and if she found out I used, I'd lose her and that would be worse than any withdrawal. <3

I'm only on suboxone, so maybe I don't count, but I'm working on getting off. The last few nights I've started WDing between midnight and 4am, but waited until 8am to take anything. Dose is going down, natural highs are feeling better...hopefully another week and I'll be free from sub once again. :)
 
From Drink A Fifth A Day, To Jus' A Hal' Gram.... Healf Yo'Delf......................

Over the last few months
I done the maddest flip
alcohol-wizzzzze.

An' I can drink,
casual-like,
like tonight...
...I'm drinkin'....
...but the DT's were B..A...D....

& halv'ed my daily Benzo 'depends'....

Hardcore pain.

Damn Xanax.

But whatdoeth any1eth expect
from me
I'm listenin' to Chukka Demus & Pliers -
The Album not a Si-

So,
t'night I drink a case to celebrate.

Express Yo'delf.
 
Carl Landrover said:
I'm done with dope. I may have said that before, in fact I know I have. This time is different though, there's too many reasons to not do it. She's a better and longer lasting high and if she found out I used, I'd lose her and that would be worse than any withdrawal. <3

I'm only on suboxone, so maybe I don't count, but I'm working on getting off. The last few nights I've started WDing between midnight and 4am, but waited until 8am to take anything. Dose is going down, natural highs are feeling better...hopefully another week and I'll be free from sub once again. :)
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congrats Carl and good luck...Don't worry, kicking suboxone isn't all that bad....After 48 hours with no Sub, I was pretty much back to normal....Maybe take some benzos to help when no using the sub
 
I'm done with the oxy and roxys. I've been getting subs on the street level and I only need about 1 mg a day to stay straight. I feel like a fucking genius compared to being warm and fuzzy all the time. I don't have many regets in my life but hitting pills like I have is something I wish I could erase. I gave up a lot to those things. If I had the money alone I'd be sitting pretty right now and thinking of that alone pisses me off. These subs are miraculous
 
I limit my access to opiates. I have tried many times to prove to myself that I have self-control but like every addict it's another delusional tactic to justify using! I always lose control, get addicted, and then have to w/d (duh) if I am in control of my access. But, I have moved to a new city and decided not to look for hook-ups. I made the self-conscious decision not to visit doctors for pain management BUT occasionally I'll ask my GP for a light script of hydro. This allows me to have some fun without giving me enough to get addicted.

So I would say that I have really had to take responsibility for my addictive behavior and take the steps necessary to prevent myself from getting physically addicted. But I'll always be psychologically addicted...
 
I want to move to the other side of Australia to be close to my family. This means I have to stop using Heroin. I've tried doing this by using weaker opiates. It's not working that well so far, but I'm hoping I won't fiend as badly as I have been.

To be honest I don't enjoy being high anymore. I think about the money I could be saving and where I would be if I had just stopped when I had the chance in the past. So that kind of ruins the high for me.

I'm trying to get back into video games again. When I started getting heavily into opiates I forgot how much fun it is to actually do things, even if it is just playing games.

I haven't used Heroin since Monday though. And technically it's Friday now (12:13am). So I guess that's something. It just means instead of having a $50-75 daily habit, I have a $10-20 one. Next week I'm hoping to cut down even more. I guess time will tell.

Be safe BLers.
 
I used every day since august 28th when i had my sub dr appt, except one day where I ate my pill becuz I was hangin out with somebody who gave me a natural high and i felt good just to be around them but that was the end of that after that one day.

Now today im doin my usual 6 days of bein clean before the sub dr. so that there aint no way my piss will come up dirty. im sure i could use and give myself like 4 days to get clean but if they say its 5 days max that dope stays in ur system, then i like to give myself 6 days just to be sure, cuz its easy to loose sight of wats really important with that shit and end up pissin dirty becuz "it aint gonna show up" and then fuckin myself over with no sub script. And that shit would not b pretty. havin that script is the only thing keepin me straight becuz i kno i can go back to it when i dont want to use. not havin that? Shit would turn me into a straight junkie again. sub gives me the power to just give up, wen i cant get money for dope, i can fall back and take my pill. Instead of feenin out and chasin money to get a couple bags to get right for the day and not even get high just not feel sick and have the relief from that bein your high.

For the past month i been doin 6 bags a day usually , shootin up like 4 maybe 5 times a day, IMO that aint that bad, 6 bags really aint shit but I feel like i would b doin alot more if i had the money for it becuz 2 bags in a shot aint enough to give me a rush I need at least 3,and if i had the choice to do a "Get nice and nod" (3-4 bag) shot instead of a "I will feel this a little bit and it will hold me over" (2 bag) shot like i usually do , the # of bags per day would b a lot higher but its like 6 bags of maintenance a day, instead of really gettin high, u feel me?

But the point is 6 bags is 2 good shots for me but i end up spacin that shit out over the course of the day in one and two bag shots becuz i dont want to get sick so its such a waste. and if u think about it that means I only get 3 nice shots outta a bundle and that shit aint cool I remember when a bundle was like the holy grail and if i had that i was fuckin SET for a few days and now its like if i wanted to party and binge out for two days id need multiple bundles n shit aint cool. so hopefully my tolerance will go down in this next week til i see my sub dr. Im plannin to get some money before the appointment and cop a bun hopefully or at the least 5 bags for that day so i can bring it with me to the appt and i can get high in the dr office bathroom as soon as i finish my piss test and visit with him. LOL

Next month my goal is NOT to use everyday liek i have been. Also tell me why I stayed home from school ever day last week and half of this week, to drive right down to passaic and get high with my boy. I jus straight up got dressed like i was goin to school and drove down there and as soon as i got in the area hit up my connects and scooped up my homeboy n went and copped and spent the entire day roamin around shootin dope and smokin blunts on peoples front porches who we dont even know and just sat on their property cuz we had nowhere to go....Prolly some old ladys house who would look out the window n catch a heart attack seein our asses out there on her steps. lol.

Ima try n post in here as much as i can becuz its a good way to keep track of myself n wat im doin wit my habit over time...Im sure that in a year readin this will b a trip...
 
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How much sub are you taking out of curiousity?


PARooolller said:
congrats Carl and good luck...Don't worry, kicking suboxone isn't all that bad....After 48 hours with no Sub, I was pretty much back to normal....Maybe take some benzos to help when no using the sub
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Thanks man! I was on suboxone for 14 months before getting off it last september, so I do have some experience with it.

I haven't been on it too long now, but it still sucks getting off, no benzo's either, only booze or weed. Hopefully I took my last dose yesterday, but I might take a tiny bit tomorrow if I'm still feeling like I am now/worse. It's hard having to work and go to school still, but hopefully I'll be clean soon again.
 
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