Disgruntled
Bluelighter
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Was just wondering if anyone else has an experience in a relationship with an addict, being an addict yourself.
I'm an opiate addict personally, was using IV oxycodone/morphine/hydromorphone daily, as well as handfuls of percocet and vicodin in between. Got on sub, got off that, and have been fairly clean for like nine months. I guess I'm a polydrug addict these days though, I drink and smoke frequently and will take/shoot anything else I can get my hands on, be it meth, mephedrone, benzoes, coke, whatever. No physical addictions but the mental craving to get fucked up on something. Still, definitely beats the opiates.
I met my (now ex) boyfriend last year when I was going through my needle days. We actually shared a house with a couple of other people when I was on suboxone, and were best friends almost immediately. After a few months he admitting feelings towards me and we started a relationship. We've lived together just the two of us since about April I would guess. I loved him, he helped me stay clean.
Long story short, he started having terrible problems with xanax. Eating forty five bars in three days bad, spending all his rent money on it, and committing burglaries while blacked out. He's been in and out of jail three times for the stuff he's done and is just out of control.
Sorry for the long backstory but it seemed necessary.Was just wondering if anyone else has experience dating another addict, and how did that work out? Did you just enable each other to relapse, or did you find the strength in each other to be sober? In my case it was the enabling, his relapses would lead to me getting fucked up so I didn't have to think about it, and vice versa. And all the dishonesty about taking drugs and going behind each other's backs ultimately proved fatal. We were in love, but couldn't trust each other and knew it, and ultimately had to go our separate ways. After this, I know I can't be in a relationship with another person that has the same drug problems I do. It's hard enough focusing on your own sobriety without having to worry about what your SO picked up that day.
What about you?
I'm an opiate addict personally, was using IV oxycodone/morphine/hydromorphone daily, as well as handfuls of percocet and vicodin in between. Got on sub, got off that, and have been fairly clean for like nine months. I guess I'm a polydrug addict these days though, I drink and smoke frequently and will take/shoot anything else I can get my hands on, be it meth, mephedrone, benzoes, coke, whatever. No physical addictions but the mental craving to get fucked up on something. Still, definitely beats the opiates.
I met my (now ex) boyfriend last year when I was going through my needle days. We actually shared a house with a couple of other people when I was on suboxone, and were best friends almost immediately. After a few months he admitting feelings towards me and we started a relationship. We've lived together just the two of us since about April I would guess. I loved him, he helped me stay clean.
Long story short, he started having terrible problems with xanax. Eating forty five bars in three days bad, spending all his rent money on it, and committing burglaries while blacked out. He's been in and out of jail three times for the stuff he's done and is just out of control.
Sorry for the long backstory but it seemed necessary.Was just wondering if anyone else has experience dating another addict, and how did that work out? Did you just enable each other to relapse, or did you find the strength in each other to be sober? In my case it was the enabling, his relapses would lead to me getting fucked up so I didn't have to think about it, and vice versa. And all the dishonesty about taking drugs and going behind each other's backs ultimately proved fatal. We were in love, but couldn't trust each other and knew it, and ultimately had to go our separate ways. After this, I know I can't be in a relationship with another person that has the same drug problems I do. It's hard enough focusing on your own sobriety without having to worry about what your SO picked up that day.
What about you?