chrisinabox
Bluelighter
i'm an only child and just a recent fuckup b/c of my fascination with opiates i.e. heroin.
Addiction and younger siblings
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JV
Bluelight Crew
haha, i like how i try to block out that ive actually been (and always will be) an addict, but i like to attribute withdrawal to a shitty day, whatever. ive just recently admitted it to myself, and ive denied it for a long time, but thats for another thread.
my family still doesnt really know about my use, and my brother has been doing good for a long time now. hes really changed his life around and is now engaged.
StonyMcDumbass
Bluelighter
Even though I'm 2nd youngest I still chose "I'm older and I've had a history of addiction". Because I am older than someone, and I think that the fact that I'm a roll model is bigger to me than my older brother and sister being roll models to me...
I didn't read the original post, haha sorry. But in my experience older siblings being addicts is a factor in whether or not you become a drug user. For example:
My older brother is about 12 years older than me, so when I was first starting to have conversations and all that jazz he was getting into drugs, and I grew up with that. Then when I was 6 or 7 my brother moved back to Arizona to be with his old friends. He eventually started selling ecstasy, haha K'dOutInAZ probably knew him before he joined the Navy. He eventually got dangerously high up, like to the point where your life is in almost constant danger... My mom always knew about this and was really shaken up about it. But she didn't do a good job at not glamourizing the lifestyle and drugs in general, so I had to grow up around that my whole childhood. I think that it has at least somewhat contributed to my drug use and addiction. So I guess that's kind of due to being a younger sibling. Because one of my sisters, who's only two years older than me and also grew up around that too is also a drug user, but she isn't addicted to anything except cigarettes.
I didn't read the original post, haha sorry. But in my experience older siblings being addicts is a factor in whether or not you become a drug user. For example:
My older brother is about 12 years older than me, so when I was first starting to have conversations and all that jazz he was getting into drugs, and I grew up with that. Then when I was 6 or 7 my brother moved back to Arizona to be with his old friends. He eventually started selling ecstasy, haha K'dOutInAZ probably knew him before he joined the Navy. He eventually got dangerously high up, like to the point where your life is in almost constant danger... My mom always knew about this and was really shaken up about it. But she didn't do a good job at not glamourizing the lifestyle and drugs in general, so I had to grow up around that my whole childhood. I think that it has at least somewhat contributed to my drug use and addiction. So I guess that's kind of due to being a younger sibling. Because one of my sisters, who's only two years older than me and also grew up around that too is also a drug user, but she isn't addicted to anything except cigarettes.
Youngest
Smartest
Destined for a very lucrative career
Have started experimentation the youngest, but probably haven't done as much as one of my older siblings. No addictions on the horizon for me. None of us are particularly 'fucked up', rather adventurous and 'naughty'.
Smartest
Destined for a very lucrative career
Have started experimentation the youngest, but probably haven't done as much as one of my older siblings. No addictions on the horizon for me. None of us are particularly 'fucked up', rather adventurous and 'naughty'.
I Have a younger sister, she is about a year and a half younger than me, she has no history of drug use as a teenager ( not even drinking )
I Consider myself the smartest person in my WHOLE family ( my family is fucking stupid )
I've had a VERY long history of addiction starting with weed, xanax to coke and crack and back lol.
I Consider myself the smartest person in my WHOLE family ( my family is fucking stupid )
I've had a VERY long history of addiction starting with weed, xanax to coke and crack and back lol.
theotherside
Ex-Bluelighter
I've got an older brother and younger brother. I personally don't think it makes much of a difference unless your older brother is an addict and gives you your first hit.
ToxicFerret
Bluelighter
I think it has more to do with the relationships between the siblings and mother and or father than the order they came in.
I'm an only child and I always wanted a brother or more so a sister when I was younger. Especially when I was getting into drugs I wanted a partner in crime so to speak, someone I could count on to have my back in business and play. My dad was completely overwhelmed by one kid, so another wasn't really in the plan. Now he's married again and I've got a stepbrother, and I love him dearly, but I can't let on about drugs quite yet. I have told him I will kick his sorry ass if I ever catch him smoking cigs, like my parents should have done with me but didn't.
When you've got younger siblings and you're an addict it's rather your job to keep the little fuckers out of trouble. I hope my stepbrother grows up to be a nicely controlled drug user, smoking pot and whatnot, and psychedelics, but no hard drugs. And so it's my job to keep him on the straight and narrow.
I'm an only child and I always wanted a brother or more so a sister when I was younger. Especially when I was getting into drugs I wanted a partner in crime so to speak, someone I could count on to have my back in business and play. My dad was completely overwhelmed by one kid, so another wasn't really in the plan. Now he's married again and I've got a stepbrother, and I love him dearly, but I can't let on about drugs quite yet. I have told him I will kick his sorry ass if I ever catch him smoking cigs, like my parents should have done with me but didn't.
When you've got younger siblings and you're an addict it's rather your job to keep the little fuckers out of trouble. I hope my stepbrother grows up to be a nicely controlled drug user, smoking pot and whatnot, and psychedelics, but no hard drugs. And so it's my job to keep him on the straight and narrow.
Bomboclat
Bluelight Crew
now that i think about it
i see a definite pattern
we have a family friend who's younger son had a drug problem.
I myself being the younger sibling have a drug problem
and a bunch of my friends who are younger siblings have drug problems.
I think it stems from a few major issues.
Be it that looking up to the older sibling and trying to be older got you influenced at a young age to do drugs which hasn't stopped, or its the cry for attention because the parents are looking at the older sibling.
Theres tons more issues it can stem from along with pure brain chemistry
but theres definitely a pattern.
i see a definite pattern
we have a family friend who's younger son had a drug problem.
I myself being the younger sibling have a drug problem
and a bunch of my friends who are younger siblings have drug problems.
I think it stems from a few major issues.
Be it that looking up to the older sibling and trying to be older got you influenced at a young age to do drugs which hasn't stopped, or its the cry for attention because the parents are looking at the older sibling.
Theres tons more issues it can stem from along with pure brain chemistry
but theres definitely a pattern.
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the_ketaman
Bluelighter
Im the youngest and the worst fuckup. at least I see it that way coz im the only one who touched needles or anything apart from speed and pot, I had to go further with opiates, heroin, ice and all the "bad" drugs.
I am the most all round intelligent though, my two sisters have their areas where they would be a lot smarter than me but I am more intelligent and more areas. Just like one sister is an amazing artist the other is amazing with putting her head down and writing essays and papers for uni whereas im more creatively intelligent.
They are more successful that me at the moment but thats coz theyre 8 and 10 years older than me so wait a few years and with the motivation and ambitions I have im sure I will end up respected for my chosen career path and I plan to gain a reputation as the best chef in whatever area I end up in.
but yes I had bad problems with addiction whereas both my sisters have been able to surpass their habits and adictions, it seems a little more difficult for me for some reason but im determines to keep being a good boy. Im 18 and it took my sister until she was 28 to realize drugs fuck you up, so at least I have a head start.
I am the most all round intelligent though, my two sisters have their areas where they would be a lot smarter than me but I am more intelligent and more areas. Just like one sister is an amazing artist the other is amazing with putting her head down and writing essays and papers for uni whereas im more creatively intelligent.
They are more successful that me at the moment but thats coz theyre 8 and 10 years older than me so wait a few years and with the motivation and ambitions I have im sure I will end up respected for my chosen career path and I plan to gain a reputation as the best chef in whatever area I end up in.
but yes I had bad problems with addiction whereas both my sisters have been able to surpass their habits and adictions, it seems a little more difficult for me for some reason but im determines to keep being a good boy. Im 18 and it took my sister until she was 28 to realize drugs fuck you up, so at least I have a head start.
artaxerxes
Bluelighter
Only child. Adopted. Always was the one who liked the drugs, tho not alcohol til way later. Mostly weed and psychs and then came opiates and we all know the end to that story.
Adoptive parents: psychologically and physically abusive drunks. But the maintaining kind. Still at it at 78 years old. My dad had a few strokes a few years back so he drinks more to forget the fact that he's getting old. After doing my best for him, I have to respect that.
They're not really depressive types, they just had REALLY hard lives growing up: deaths of all parents, one by suicide, hung himself in the barn, my mom found him. She was 8. I forgive her everything she did in my childhood. My dad ended up with a really abusive-- sexually and physically and psychologically-- step-father until his mom died when he was 14.
Anyway, they're those people who eat the same exact food every day, do the same thing everyday, totally ok with that. They don't need anything else to feed their souls. Don't read books, don't like watching movies, just news and food network, lol. I'm an artist as well as a business person and they've resisted looking at my work forever. Not interested and perhaps a little intimidated maybe cuz it's not their thing. That's ok.
Then comes me. I was by far the most successful person in my family even when I was still in school. Won all kinds of awards, scholarships, etc. Parents weren't having it, wanted me to go to junior college near their home when I was being courted with scholarships by Yale. (My mother's the most insane control freak you've ever met and I was a loser chump for letting her manipulate me. Still am.) Brought home A's forever, never heard a word of acknowledgment. "Oh, ok." Found report card in trash next week. Whatever. Worked my way thru the university closest to my house.
Went on to be quite successful in life, especially compared to the rest of the extended family. I have started 4 companies in my life, 3 were successful. Ended up making what I thought was quite a bit of money (grew up barely lower middle-class, so my understanding of what a big amount of money was a little skewed. My dad still thinks it's highway robbery to pay more than $6 for a haircut.), had a nervous breakdown eventually. I had been a workaholic and I'm bi-polar and a slew of other psych diagnoses. I kept my demons in check with work. Used to work 90 hours a week. Would leave work and get back to it when I got home. Slept 4 hours a night without any drugs whatsoever. For a long time: 15-30 y.o.
Took time off because I was a wreck and I had money stashed up. Didn't work for a few years and shit went downhill from there. Locked up in my house, really fucking depressed. Seriously injured my back by running 6+ miles a day on a ruptured disc from an injury at my college job. (In my family, you don't whine about shit like pain.) Got scripted pills, already had an affinity for dope, which I fought.
I am so different from everyone in my extended family it's almost funny. I am totally creative and hyper-sensitive (bleh), and they're all hard-knock, no imagination farmer types. (Not dissing farmers, it's just that my family is just about nuts-and-bolts. None of their houses have books. I was actually punished for reading too much. Unbelievable I know, but true.)
Trying to get my shit together now. Bad bad place I'm in. But I'll make it out, albeit with shittons of debt and a strictly proscribed life.
If anyone else who tends towards depression finds themselves in a position where they don't have to go to a job or volunteer or whatever thing, do like Chef says in Apocalypse Now. He goes out looking for mangoes and runs in to a tiger. When he gets back to the boat, all he can say is, "Never Get Off the Boat. Never Get Off the Boat."
This fucking post turned into a pity-party bullshit piece of shit, but there's my answer. Yeah, I'm addicted currently, though tapering, and I've always been the one for drugs, psychedelic to narcotizing.
Adoptive parents: psychologically and physically abusive drunks. But the maintaining kind. Still at it at 78 years old. My dad had a few strokes a few years back so he drinks more to forget the fact that he's getting old. After doing my best for him, I have to respect that.
They're not really depressive types, they just had REALLY hard lives growing up: deaths of all parents, one by suicide, hung himself in the barn, my mom found him. She was 8. I forgive her everything she did in my childhood. My dad ended up with a really abusive-- sexually and physically and psychologically-- step-father until his mom died when he was 14.
Anyway, they're those people who eat the same exact food every day, do the same thing everyday, totally ok with that. They don't need anything else to feed their souls. Don't read books, don't like watching movies, just news and food network, lol. I'm an artist as well as a business person and they've resisted looking at my work forever. Not interested and perhaps a little intimidated maybe cuz it's not their thing. That's ok.
Then comes me. I was by far the most successful person in my family even when I was still in school. Won all kinds of awards, scholarships, etc. Parents weren't having it, wanted me to go to junior college near their home when I was being courted with scholarships by Yale. (My mother's the most insane control freak you've ever met and I was a loser chump for letting her manipulate me. Still am.) Brought home A's forever, never heard a word of acknowledgment. "Oh, ok." Found report card in trash next week. Whatever. Worked my way thru the university closest to my house.
Went on to be quite successful in life, especially compared to the rest of the extended family. I have started 4 companies in my life, 3 were successful. Ended up making what I thought was quite a bit of money (grew up barely lower middle-class, so my understanding of what a big amount of money was a little skewed. My dad still thinks it's highway robbery to pay more than $6 for a haircut.), had a nervous breakdown eventually. I had been a workaholic and I'm bi-polar and a slew of other psych diagnoses. I kept my demons in check with work. Used to work 90 hours a week. Would leave work and get back to it when I got home. Slept 4 hours a night without any drugs whatsoever. For a long time: 15-30 y.o.
Took time off because I was a wreck and I had money stashed up. Didn't work for a few years and shit went downhill from there. Locked up in my house, really fucking depressed. Seriously injured my back by running 6+ miles a day on a ruptured disc from an injury at my college job. (In my family, you don't whine about shit like pain.) Got scripted pills, already had an affinity for dope, which I fought.
I am so different from everyone in my extended family it's almost funny. I am totally creative and hyper-sensitive (bleh), and they're all hard-knock, no imagination farmer types. (Not dissing farmers, it's just that my family is just about nuts-and-bolts. None of their houses have books. I was actually punished for reading too much. Unbelievable I know, but true.)
Trying to get my shit together now. Bad bad place I'm in. But I'll make it out, albeit with shittons of debt and a strictly proscribed life.
If anyone else who tends towards depression finds themselves in a position where they don't have to go to a job or volunteer or whatever thing, do like Chef says in Apocalypse Now. He goes out looking for mangoes and runs in to a tiger. When he gets back to the boat, all he can say is, "Never Get Off the Boat. Never Get Off the Boat."
This fucking post turned into a pity-party bullshit piece of shit, but there's my answer. Yeah, I'm addicted currently, though tapering, and I've always been the one for drugs, psychedelic to narcotizing.
jackie jones
Bluelight Crew
I am male and have four sisters. two younger, two older.
mrs_mia_wallace
Bluelighter
I'm younger and have a history of addiction....
My brother is 12 years older than me and moved out of my house when I was six years old, though, so I've felt like an only child for most of my life.
My brother has an addicion to benzos and heroin.... he's been clean from H for 15 months but is still using benzos.....
My brother is 12 years older than me and moved out of my house when I was six years old, though, so I've felt like an only child for most of my life.
My brother has an addicion to benzos and heroin.... he's been clean from H for 15 months but is still using benzos.....
TwistedReality
Bluelighter
I'm the older of two, and have a history of addiction. My brother is 13, which is the age I started drinking, smoking pot, and taking pills, and he just channels all that energy into being on every sports team imaginable. However, since he is still so young only time will tell. I seriously doubt he will like drugs as much as me though. I really, really hope not.
harley89
Bluelighter
My two younger sisters can see that i am a drugged up mess, hopefully they will not follow my lead.
The Chemist
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youngest, biggest fuck-up.
but managed to un-fuck myself really well
but managed to un-fuck myself really well
papa
Bluelight Crew
I'm the oldest of 4 brothers and my younger brothers have avoided addiction. I think it is partly because they saw what happened to me.