johanneschimpo said:
Youngest sibling here. Two older brothers. Both of them did the typical "smoke a small amount of pot, nothing else" thing that everybody does.
I'm the one who's done every drug on the planet, spent plenty of years addicted to opiates, been arrested a handful of times sporadically in that period, now on suboxone and addicted to benzos, etc
All in all, I'm the "fuck-up" of the family - but the most successful of the three of us. LOL!
wow dude... we are pretty similar in a few aspects of life.... i'm the youngest of three. an older brother and older sister. they smoked pot, drank, did coke, shrooms, meth, but only experimented, neither did anything but pot/cigarettes/alcohol on a regular basis, and maybe a coke binge for a few days once in a blue moon. i'm the youngest and i've done every drug commonly abused besides ketamine, PCP, methamphetamine and oxymorphone (opana).
and not only have i taken dozen different types of opioids, and multiple types of stimulants and all of the common benzos and anti-depressants and other street drugs, but i've IV'd many drugs, many times. a level of drug abuse neither of my siblings got to...in fact they never were addicted like i am/was.
anyway i went on suboxone for a year after a 1.5-2 year morphine/oxycodone habit, hated the suboxone and was in pain and got a scriipt for morphine so i'm not in pain anymore (tnank science) and i'm not abusing my opium tincture (morphine) script even though i could be.
i've never been arrested but i am a benzo addict 4 years and going strong. on 20-30mg valium (Roche only) a day. love the valium, it saved my life. got me the best job i've ever had. got me out of $5,000 worth of drug-related debt. got me functioning, got me back into society and life and not constantly sweating/trembling/shaking/nervous/anxious and got me to realize that benzos CAN help severe cases of SAD+GAD+PD but you just need to find the right benzo (i figured if one didn't work none of the other benzos would even be worth trying) but i ended up switching to librium (which was an improvement over klonopin believe it or not. i cannot stand klonopin. it helped me for 1-2 days and that was it. takes WAY too long to kick in and is useless for acute anxiety or panic attacks IME and makes me feel irritable, angry and very depressed and complete loss of inhibitions. (was on 1-4mg a day for 2-3 years).
the librium was ok was taking a hefty dose which was nice (four to six 25mg capsules a day) helped me when i went thru opiate withdrawal for the first time in my life.
then was on ativan, and xanax for short periods of time but both were too short acting for me and the rebound anxiety drove me completely nuts especially right when i'd wake up in the morning feeling like i was in mild W/D or something (every single morning).
then valium. 15mg a day wasn't enough, but i switched docs and got 20-30mg a day and now things are good but yea i'm a benzo addict. the youngest of three siblings and the most nuts with drugs. high now, on oxycontin, morphine, valium, cannabis, diphenhydramine, and jenkem.
peace.