I'm addicted to coke, I only use around once a month but big binges, out of control, unable to function for a few days. And the guilt and shame afterwards. I am now at the point where I don't want any drugs in my life I just want to be sober (occasional drinks but I am not a big drinker). I keep trying to quit the coke but it's like the drug warps my mind and makes me think I don't have a problem, I can just use a little bit, it's not so bad.... like a virus getting into my thoughts really.
I think I am finally ready to stop. I don't enjoy it any more, really or even get excited about it. I just feel like it won't let me go....if that makes any sense. But whereas before a part of me wanted to stop and another part use, now the stopping part has got bigger and the using part smaller. I feel like it 's time to quit, I am commiting to a year of abstinence as it feels less scary than 'forever'. If I never saw another line again, i'd be happy. I just want out now, It was fun in the beginning but I've realised now that it's just not worth it, the fun times are long gone. any other recovered stimulant addicts out there I'd love to hear how you did it,