Louisville13
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Hey everyone, Ive been using this site multiple times on a daily basis (seriously like hours at a time I am on here researching) since I started treatment but this is my first post. Sorry if its the wrong section I didn't see any stimulant section or anything.
So a few months ago I was diagnosed with severe ADHD and was started on medication. This was in like July and the plan was to get it under control before school started so I wouldn't end up dropping out of college again. Anyways I have tried so many different drugs since then. Ive been on adderall (xr and ir), concerta, strattera, vyvanse, and currently dexedrine ir. Along with these meds I have been on I don't even know how many anti depressants to try and clear the fog/numbness/lack of motivation I have been experiencing.
Everything I have tried has failed me. Every once in awhile if I get on a high enough dose and the stims will help, but only the first time I take that dose. I have been on high doses of all the meds listed because the doc ended up gene testing me and I apparently metabolize everything really fast. The only thing I have noticed is every once in awhile (for maybe a week) while on dexedrine I would hyper focus on things, but only late at night. My second dose never was later than 2pm and I would feel nothing through out the day, couldn't pay attention in class, etc. But when it got to be about 12am or so and I was writing a paper I would get hyper focused and OCD and have to make it perfect. I would take 3+ hours writing a one page paper because I would have to go back and constantly change words around to something "better".
Yesterday though I had to cram for a big bio exam in about 3 hours (my anxiety kept him up all night 2 nights before the test as usual so I wasn't able to study the night before the test). I decided to mix 60mg adderall ir and 60 (maybe 90?)mg dexedrine at 730am. Let me tell you, that was the first time I has really seen any results! I was able to read through his notes and remember everything. But around 1130am I took another 30mg dexedrine to get me through his exam at 1pm, that did not go well. My head became more foggy than ever and I couldn't concentrate at all. During the test my vision was a little blurred and my anxiety was higher than ever. I skipped the rest of the day and went home to lay down the rest of the day. My anxiety had never been so high and I was hallucinating a little. Was this because I had too many stims with not enough food/sleep, or was it an intense crash? Today I took 60mg dexedrine and feel slow (I am even typing slower than ever), a bit shaky, foggy, and my neck is tense. Must be because of my previous day as I usually take 60-90mg dex at a time.
I've also tried ice by accident. I knew cocaine didn't work for me as I always would do it when people offered and never felt any effect. I was told by his buddy that this was real good coke and it'll do something, it turned out to be ice. I mixed it with water and drank it and had the clearest head I had ever experienced and wasn't high at all. I was able to think, concentrate, and wasn't super anxious anymore. It was a high dose as this friend does it often and gave me what he did. I later tried it again months later as I was frustrated with all the other meds I was on not working. I took the same amount as before and felt maybe a third of the effect! I still had a foggy head etc.
My question is, what should I do next? My doc is started to lose help and is acting like they're running out of options. Thats not what I want, I need to get this under control so I can actually have the ability to use my brain. Does anyone have any suggestions? I realize this isn't much of a question but I really had to get out some of this frustration. I have tried adding ginkgo bilboa, drinking baking soda, and other things I have found on this forum. I could say a lot more but I need to get to class now. I don't know what to do about this. Im just totally lost.....
So a few months ago I was diagnosed with severe ADHD and was started on medication. This was in like July and the plan was to get it under control before school started so I wouldn't end up dropping out of college again. Anyways I have tried so many different drugs since then. Ive been on adderall (xr and ir), concerta, strattera, vyvanse, and currently dexedrine ir. Along with these meds I have been on I don't even know how many anti depressants to try and clear the fog/numbness/lack of motivation I have been experiencing.
Everything I have tried has failed me. Every once in awhile if I get on a high enough dose and the stims will help, but only the first time I take that dose. I have been on high doses of all the meds listed because the doc ended up gene testing me and I apparently metabolize everything really fast. The only thing I have noticed is every once in awhile (for maybe a week) while on dexedrine I would hyper focus on things, but only late at night. My second dose never was later than 2pm and I would feel nothing through out the day, couldn't pay attention in class, etc. But when it got to be about 12am or so and I was writing a paper I would get hyper focused and OCD and have to make it perfect. I would take 3+ hours writing a one page paper because I would have to go back and constantly change words around to something "better".
Yesterday though I had to cram for a big bio exam in about 3 hours (my anxiety kept him up all night 2 nights before the test as usual so I wasn't able to study the night before the test). I decided to mix 60mg adderall ir and 60 (maybe 90?)mg dexedrine at 730am. Let me tell you, that was the first time I has really seen any results! I was able to read through his notes and remember everything. But around 1130am I took another 30mg dexedrine to get me through his exam at 1pm, that did not go well. My head became more foggy than ever and I couldn't concentrate at all. During the test my vision was a little blurred and my anxiety was higher than ever. I skipped the rest of the day and went home to lay down the rest of the day. My anxiety had never been so high and I was hallucinating a little. Was this because I had too many stims with not enough food/sleep, or was it an intense crash? Today I took 60mg dexedrine and feel slow (I am even typing slower than ever), a bit shaky, foggy, and my neck is tense. Must be because of my previous day as I usually take 60-90mg dex at a time.
I've also tried ice by accident. I knew cocaine didn't work for me as I always would do it when people offered and never felt any effect. I was told by his buddy that this was real good coke and it'll do something, it turned out to be ice. I mixed it with water and drank it and had the clearest head I had ever experienced and wasn't high at all. I was able to think, concentrate, and wasn't super anxious anymore. It was a high dose as this friend does it often and gave me what he did. I later tried it again months later as I was frustrated with all the other meds I was on not working. I took the same amount as before and felt maybe a third of the effect! I still had a foggy head etc.
My question is, what should I do next? My doc is started to lose help and is acting like they're running out of options. Thats not what I want, I need to get this under control so I can actually have the ability to use my brain. Does anyone have any suggestions? I realize this isn't much of a question but I really had to get out some of this frustration. I have tried adding ginkgo bilboa, drinking baking soda, and other things I have found on this forum. I could say a lot more but I need to get to class now. I don't know what to do about this. Im just totally lost.....
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