So Molly came to me in a dream last night. I dreamed my eyes were wiggling so I was seeing double vision the whole time. I think Molly is trying to tell me "I'm sorry I hurt you! Give me another chance, let's try it again sometime!" It's been 3 months since last time when I had a bad trip and ever since then I have been nervous that I'll downward spiral into a series of panic attacks if I roll again. Any ideas on how to maintain my cool and stay relaxed and what to do when I do start devolving into negative thoughts? I wanna have a good time like I did in April. That time I took a shower while rolling but I do not wanna repeat that because it's dangerous to be in a hot shower while on ecstasy. This time I just wanna listen to music and dance with all the wicked lights I have set up.
To be clear, in June I took the pill while I had a stomach flu and while I was on Buspirone AND while I was in a really shitty mood. I've been told all of these factors greatly contributed to the bad trip. Currently, I've been off Buspirone since early July, am not sick and I'm not experiencing a depressive episode. I'm currently relaxed while typing this but a moment ago while setting up my lights I was all excited and nervous which is what I'll be feeling when I take the pill and start anticipating the comeup. MDMA is supposed to have calming effects which I find hard to believe cuz it's a fucking stimulant!
I'm planning on taking 1.2mg per KG this time instead of the usual 1.5 to hopefully reduce the severity because that bad trip in June was a serious deterrent. I love Molly but not when she hurts me.
To be clear, in June I took the pill while I had a stomach flu and while I was on Buspirone AND while I was in a really shitty mood. I've been told all of these factors greatly contributed to the bad trip. Currently, I've been off Buspirone since early July, am not sick and I'm not experiencing a depressive episode. I'm currently relaxed while typing this but a moment ago while setting up my lights I was all excited and nervous which is what I'll be feeling when I take the pill and start anticipating the comeup. MDMA is supposed to have calming effects which I find hard to believe cuz it's a fucking stimulant!
I'm planning on taking 1.2mg per KG this time instead of the usual 1.5 to hopefully reduce the severity because that bad trip in June was a serious deterrent. I love Molly but not when she hurts me.