So what I gather from your post is that the 75mg dose last week did nothing if I felt nothing? I'm curious, how does that work?
If the dose had very little effect then it stands to reason that the physical impact would be lessened. Just like if you had a higher dose then the physical impact would be increased. There is a direct correlation between quantity consumed and receptors depleted/tolerance accrued/length and intensity of comedown/etc. This is just basic cause and effect. Seemingly you took a very low dose and the experience you had (i.e practically nothing to the point you weren't sure if it was working) reflects that.
I'm curious, how does that work? The body destroys a certain amount of mdma you put in and the rest that it misses get absorbed in your system or something?
Not really sure what you mean here.
But I'm being given contradictory information here because on one hand I'm told mdma is anxiolytic but it causes panic attacks on the other if you receive the slightest negative stimuli. I fired my doctor over this same bullshit when he couldn't explain why he prescribed me a medication designed to combat anxiety yet had "anxiety" on its list of side effects. A stimulant can't reduce anxiety, that is just plain illogical. The unique thing about ecstasy is that it's an empathogen and a stimulant at the same time. I've slammed several vials of oxytocin when I first joined this site in february. I was freaking the hell out while doing it, afraid the cops would bust my door down anytime etc. and within minutes of shooting up, all that paranoia was gone. I was so chill I even left the bloody vial and needle on the counter in plain view. THAT is anxiolytic medicine but it makes sense because oxytocin is a downer.
I guess the lovey, empathogenic effects of mdma are supposed to counteract the stimulant effects or something. Am I close to being right?
Well just to clarify, I am not your doctor and I am not giving you conflicting information (I think you just have some general misunderstandings which are confusing you); I am simply a contributor to a drugs message board (like you) who is attempting to answer your queries. It's not an obligation...
What I said was: "MDMA has anxiolytic effects, although certainly not in the classical sense". This is absolutely true. It is not a classical anxiolytic in the sense that benzodiazepine/opiates are, which are guaranteed to pretty much completely eliminate anxiety. However, it has such a pushy feel good high that it does tend to have very strong anxiolytic effects. I did not say that it causes panic attacks at the slightest hint of negative stimuli. However, given that it is not a classical anxiolytic, and that it is quite a powerful experience with somewhat psychedelic/mind expanding undertones, it can certainly cause anxiety - especially in people who are prone to anxiety/paranoia.
The source of your confusion seems to stem from a belief that stimulant properties are antithetical to anxiety reducing properties. In reality this is not the case and they are not inherently mutually exclusive. It's kind of irrelevant anyway, because like you say MDMA is also a very strong empathogen; but if you read peoples experiences with methamphetamine (and other stimulants), you will quite often see them discussing a powerful release from anxiety when the drug hits; especially with smoking/injecting.
To summarise, stimulation does not inherently = can't reduce anxiety. And empathogens tend to be such powerfully pushy feel good chemicals that they tend to reduce anxiety somewhat. Generally speaking of course; this isn't to say that you won't feel a bit edge at points or will experience full on anxiety, and obviously this depends on person/dose/day/mental health/predisposition to anxiety/chemical involved/health/time spent without sleeping/etc.
