A War for Me to Be Me AND You think i've grown up??.. 2 poems

[BLULITER LackofMorality]

this isn't in my belief structure at all...but more of an expression of if i wanted to be truly accepted for who i am...everyone else would have to die and i'd be the only person around to accept me..if that makes any sense...
maybe i need to fail at art...like Hitler
and render a new loathing
intelligent and focus..
rise rise climb climb in your system tree
with big black boots
and the rid myself of my slouching
become a leader and prey on those more ignorant than me
just to sell them a scapegoat hate
and march us through another Nanking Rape..
and holocaust pits
see how mimetic i can be of the French
in their war against the Algerians
a new breed of facist...a copycat murderer
with a manifesto that you'll never see
and a serial psychotic libido..
sick of not being able to be me...
a carnage and slaughter from a heathen's havoc
burns you all and leave a blanket of ash on the ground
and wave my hammer and sickle....
salute the swaztica of my own device
and finally be able to breathe
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you think i grew up? became a responsible numb adult?
because i gave up substances? or because i take respect with sex?
or maybe its me caring about my future now..
or newly founded financial consciousness
FOOLS! I'll never grow up... Right Tink?
I'm still mixing all ALL the drinks as fast food soda fountians
you can catch me running into the ocean so fast and carefee,
that i slaph and soak total strangers near by
a 21 year old boy who still sleeps cuddled to a stuffed animal
forever getting burnt with an insatiable curiosity
reaching out to play with who'll ever will play in my little sandbox of a world..
amusement and delight wiht every moving animal
re-reading one fish, two fish, red fish, blue fish
only difference now...i see the genious behind the simplicity
walking trails in woods. but not for adult relaxation
but for a journey of discovery
still splashing in the pool
barefoot in the wet grass and sometimes even the mud
find me a better view than from the trees that i climb...
so to those who think i'm growing up
you are right and wrong...i've shed my adolescence...
and become responsible...
but its not all adult cage at all...
wide eyed and wonderous views of the world...
is the perception in which my eyes belong
[ 21 October 2002: Message edited by: BLULITER LackofMorality ]

 

[*Cosmic Mist*]

You should be careful about using the imagery you do in connection to the swastika (and Sauvastika), because although i realise what your intentions were, you must realise that the swastica is a religious symbol stolen by the Nazis from the Hindus, Jainas, and many others. In sanskrit the word Swastika means "conductive to well-being" and the symbol has been used very widely throughout many different cultures over many different periods of time, and across several different continents.

 

[*Cosmic Mist*]

salute the swaztica of my own device
Actually, now that i have re-read your piece, the true meaning of this symbol could work well...
Bah, it's all good. Once more, i like your work, it's interesting - not like much else i have read here...
PS, i like your opening by the way - the best way to capture someone's attention is to be controversial.
PPS, What about Musselini? And all the fascist dictators in places like Kurgestan and Kazakastan, and etc...? They may feel a little left out

 

[BLULITER LackofMorality]

i am well aware of many historical and current facists..but i was trying to name some that are widely percieved as icons of evil and without of having a too much of a history course needed. I wanted it to widely relate anyways, not that i think anyone feels that way exactly.. but i just wanted to be more understandable...anyways...
i'm aware of the swaztica..and yeah..you found the point i was making "swaztica of my own device" a symbol that is/was used for many things in the past, but widely regarded as a symbol of hatred.

 

[BLULITER LackofMorality]

any comments on the 2nd poem?

 

[TiggerLuvsX]

I like the 2nd poem. It makes me feel good to know that there are people like that around. Just because you mature, you never have to grow up and stop having fun. It's like the Toys R Us song....I don't wanna grow up!!