Thought I'd give this blog thing a go. Living a life like Eastenders I may aswell write about it!
Tomorrow I have to go meet bail. Because not only do I retreat into my drugs but I make stupid decsions about the people I allow into my life aswell. Got involved with someone else who liked to retreat into drugs. Turns out he's missing a few things upstairs. Controlling son of a bitch.
I even helped him run his company so he could live the good life while his women do his bidding. Turns out he gets a bit pissed when his women decide they can't handle checking in every hour and not being allowed friends and walk away. That's what I did last June.
Since then I have been arrested twice on accusations of fraud. First one fell through quite easily. This one is not going to be so nice. Turns out when the other party has all the evidence they can farm it out as they please to make you look guilty and the police allow it, no, encourage it. Doesnt bother them that I have evidence of his stalking me, they have to investigate everything, no matter how often the person cries wolf!
So, got this horrible feeling i'm going to be charged tomorrow.... and I have nothing here to take my stress away, in fact I'm in withdrawal so it's hardly improving my mood. A good shower has just helped me decide however I will not let him break me! I will also not let him make me loose my job, it's not like he hasn't tried, sending my boss long letters with lots of libellous claims about me.... haven't lost my job yet, i'm sure lots of absense for the court time will bring me close though.
I just want a fucking cigarette and some opiates. Make myself totally numb through this whole fucking mess!
Tomorrow I have to go meet bail. Because not only do I retreat into my drugs but I make stupid decsions about the people I allow into my life aswell. Got involved with someone else who liked to retreat into drugs. Turns out he's missing a few things upstairs. Controlling son of a bitch.
I even helped him run his company so he could live the good life while his women do his bidding. Turns out he gets a bit pissed when his women decide they can't handle checking in every hour and not being allowed friends and walk away. That's what I did last June.
Since then I have been arrested twice on accusations of fraud. First one fell through quite easily. This one is not going to be so nice. Turns out when the other party has all the evidence they can farm it out as they please to make you look guilty and the police allow it, no, encourage it. Doesnt bother them that I have evidence of his stalking me, they have to investigate everything, no matter how often the person cries wolf!
So, got this horrible feeling i'm going to be charged tomorrow.... and I have nothing here to take my stress away, in fact I'm in withdrawal so it's hardly improving my mood. A good shower has just helped me decide however I will not let him break me! I will also not let him make me loose my job, it's not like he hasn't tried, sending my boss long letters with lots of libellous claims about me.... haven't lost my job yet, i'm sure lots of absense for the court time will bring me close though.
I just want a fucking cigarette and some opiates. Make myself totally numb through this whole fucking mess!
Unfortunately stalking is very hard to prove 
Well, in terms of trying to get an RO awarded. Keep fighting!! As they always say "It'll get worse before it gets better" so hang in there! Don't let him break you!! You're definitely in the right mindset!
