A month later

So the guy who introduced me to my DOC, well, have gave me some more last Tuesday, which was my 7th day and I knew he would, I didn?t have to go meet up with him (though he did owe me money). So it?s a week later into this relapse. Have talked to a couple places about rehab but none so far arr willing to let me stay on benzos (21 Years and I?m not ready!) - so I?m just feeling super anxious and a little desperate. I?m going to try subs at home. Have a friend watch me the first day. Wait 30hrs before I take and start at 1mg. My therapist doesn?t love the idea but I want to just be off the oxy for more than a week. I got enough to last one month I think but if I feel I can do it in two weeks I?m going to try.

 

A Suboxone doctor won't give a shit about your benzos long as he isn't required to write the script. Go get a professional induction cause it can be tricky.

 

Shrink won’t see me if I get on sub, so will lose my script, all the controlled substances are visible now to docs

Which I’d be fine with only both sub docs I talked to won’t write both

if anyone can recommend a good doc in nyc feel free to PM me

im open to a long term benzo taper but not going to go in again and get ripped off meds