Dearest A?????????,
This I unlike any of the letters I have written you before, this is not from baby to baby. This is from Matthew Connolly to A??????? W??????. This is to read when you want to feel like a Human Being, not a girlfriend.
In your life the question to be answered is when? When can I stand on my own two feet again? When will I be better? When will it be over? I know I cannot answer these questions, (like we both knew when we started going out, I can only help you, hold you when you cant stand). It isn’t your fault your path was like this, but it is in you to follow it, and so is the strength. Because you got this far, and to turn away now is too loose everything you have ever fought for in your entire life, (the love, the happiness, the guilt, the shame, the justice, the beauty).
At the moment you cannot feel these aspects of life, but you can see them, you know they have existed, do exist and will exist. Beauty exists in your life right now, it just may be hard to see, but I promise you it is there. Although you may not agree but it is generated in both direction, received and produced.
For someone who leads a sheltered life, due to her fragile state, you still seem to exist amongst such unity, peace and love. You do not go looking for friendship and companionship but it seems to find itself to you. In your mind, most of the time you do not return calls, reply to messages, or even approach aspects of your life. But these people still hold to you, and count you as a part of their life and value what you bring to them.
Well what does this say about A?????????? W??????? In your mind you have depression making you function not at your best, making you feel like shit, sad, and miserable, and most importantly, not being able to see the beauty in everyday life. It’s hard to imagine what you are going be like when you are better. Because you are depressed and you are never alone, no matter how much you think you are, your not, even if I was to leave. People hold you when you don’t, people love you, when you don’t know how too. People will surround you no matter what is happening in your head, ready to catch you when you fall. Aimee you will never fight this by yourself, although this only a concillation, it is something you forget sometimes. It is something to be thankful for.
Admitingly I know things are not right in your life, but it is never as bad as it seems. It’s only a state of mind that you are in, it is escapable, and you will see soon. You are stepping in the dark at the moment, but nearly every step is in the right direction, because the light is coming. How can someone who is dying on the inside, still generate happiness in other people’s life and produce so much without them knowing. You are a valuable contribution to this life beautiful, hold true and live to see the beautiful things again.
Love from
Matthew Connolly
This I unlike any of the letters I have written you before, this is not from baby to baby. This is from Matthew Connolly to A??????? W??????. This is to read when you want to feel like a Human Being, not a girlfriend.
In your life the question to be answered is when? When can I stand on my own two feet again? When will I be better? When will it be over? I know I cannot answer these questions, (like we both knew when we started going out, I can only help you, hold you when you cant stand). It isn’t your fault your path was like this, but it is in you to follow it, and so is the strength. Because you got this far, and to turn away now is too loose everything you have ever fought for in your entire life, (the love, the happiness, the guilt, the shame, the justice, the beauty).
At the moment you cannot feel these aspects of life, but you can see them, you know they have existed, do exist and will exist. Beauty exists in your life right now, it just may be hard to see, but I promise you it is there. Although you may not agree but it is generated in both direction, received and produced.
For someone who leads a sheltered life, due to her fragile state, you still seem to exist amongst such unity, peace and love. You do not go looking for friendship and companionship but it seems to find itself to you. In your mind, most of the time you do not return calls, reply to messages, or even approach aspects of your life. But these people still hold to you, and count you as a part of their life and value what you bring to them.
Well what does this say about A?????????? W??????? In your mind you have depression making you function not at your best, making you feel like shit, sad, and miserable, and most importantly, not being able to see the beauty in everyday life. It’s hard to imagine what you are going be like when you are better. Because you are depressed and you are never alone, no matter how much you think you are, your not, even if I was to leave. People hold you when you don’t, people love you, when you don’t know how too. People will surround you no matter what is happening in your head, ready to catch you when you fall. Aimee you will never fight this by yourself, although this only a concillation, it is something you forget sometimes. It is something to be thankful for.
Admitingly I know things are not right in your life, but it is never as bad as it seems. It’s only a state of mind that you are in, it is escapable, and you will see soon. You are stepping in the dark at the moment, but nearly every step is in the right direction, because the light is coming. How can someone who is dying on the inside, still generate happiness in other people’s life and produce so much without them knowing. You are a valuable contribution to this life beautiful, hold true and live to see the beautiful things again.
Love from
Matthew Connolly
this was a beautiful inspiring peice and it really encouraged me cause i have been in a slump lately emotionally...and felt detatched from people and things...i hope the reciprecantof this letter appreciates the heart felt feelings put in it (if intended for someone)