Bomb319
Bluelighter
First, dissociate yourself from your body. Pretend you are coming in to kick the addict you out and reclaim your life. Have the attitude that you're taking back what's rightfully yours, and watch yourself from the sidelines as much as you can. When you feel sick, think to yourself "that's what the addict me gets for doing this, not so much fun is it?" Now here's the key. When you go to your source and buy, as quickly as you can, as automatic and detached as humanely possible, flush it down the toilet, or get rid of it immediately in a way you can't retrieve it. It's critical you do this without thinking, before you rationalize what a waste of money it will be, because you will of course talk yourself into using it every time if you think about it. You just can't think. Flush. Then think, shit, what a waste of money. Wait a minute, I would have flushged this money down the toilet anyways, only by doing this I saved myself a few days of withdrawal. What else could I have bought with that money? Delete all contacts, stop hanging out with people who will be using or tempt you back. You will always find a way to justify it. You need a clean break, and have the attitude that you are the master of your life, and will rush in and defend you from yourself. Of course not many people will be able to flush their stuff at first. If you stop to think about it, you've already lost. Once you start to feel better from physical withdrawal, it will be much easier psychologically and almost eliminate PAWS because you have already done the worst thing you could possibly do to your addict self and destroyed your drugs.
I know it sounds crazy. I know people will say they would never be able to do it. I know people will say that it is a stupid idea because you didn't have to waste the money if you were going to cold turkey anyway, but the thing is, you DO. You need to REALLY feel that loss, your worst fear. Not having your drug and feeling like shit. Don't run away from that feeling or be scared to withdraw, because your fear will get you in the end. This way, you are facing your fear head on, and it really DOES WORK!
I know it sounds crazy. I know people will say they would never be able to do it. I know people will say that it is a stupid idea because you didn't have to waste the money if you were going to cold turkey anyway, but the thing is, you DO. You need to REALLY feel that loss, your worst fear. Not having your drug and feeling like shit. Don't run away from that feeling or be scared to withdraw, because your fear will get you in the end. This way, you are facing your fear head on, and it really DOES WORK!