Rio Fantastic
Bluelighter
Hello,
Out of respect I think it's only right to disclose my friend's name if it becomes totally necessary, for now I shall call him Adam. All you need to know is that Adam has been an active member of this forum for three years and has got quite a high post count. He loves to help people, which is why he spends most of his time on here trying to be supportive & encouraging and answering questions and generally promoting harm-reduction as much as he can. Now Adam has been battling with clinical depression on and off since he was a young teenager, exasperated I suspect by his heavy drinking & cocaine use. He has now stopped drinking to excess but still uses cocaine on a semi-regular basis.
When I saw my friend yesterday, I instantly knew something was very wrong. I have never seen him look so miserable, and this aura of total despondency didn't even appear to be touched by the whiskey he was throwing down him or the huge lines of cocaine. I tried to cheer him up futilely and advised him to seriously lay off the substances until his head was a bit better, but he didn't listen to me.Half a gram of cocaine & five jack and coke's later, he finally starts to open up a little, but still doesn't seem happy. He told me that his main reason for living has been to help people on this forum, and that that is what gets him through every day, the knowledge that if he just gives up someone might OD or become hospitalized or addicted to drugs, and he thinks that his excessive post count is justified as even if he had to make 1000 posts a day, if he could genuinely help one person, then it would all be worth it.
Now this may seem silly or trivial, but he has told me that recently he's "noticed a trend" whereby everyone ignores his posts, and he hasn't been getting any replies. He hasn't posted about his problems but has posted general questions or discussion points and claims that they've been totally ignored as well. He feels like the one refuge & respite from the world on his shoulders - Bluelight - has turned into a cold, lonely place full of strangers who refuse to even acknowledge his existence. He told me Bluelight was his life, and without it he feels like there is no point in going on, and has been talking about ending it all. I've tried to calm him down and explain he's taking it too personally and it's just a coincidence but he won't take it.
So I've contacted his sister who has gone to stay with him to keep an eye on things, but past that I have no idea what to do. I want to help him, I really really do, but I feel like I'm powerless and impotent. Any suggestions or advice would be massively appreciated!
Out of respect I think it's only right to disclose my friend's name if it becomes totally necessary, for now I shall call him Adam. All you need to know is that Adam has been an active member of this forum for three years and has got quite a high post count. He loves to help people, which is why he spends most of his time on here trying to be supportive & encouraging and answering questions and generally promoting harm-reduction as much as he can. Now Adam has been battling with clinical depression on and off since he was a young teenager, exasperated I suspect by his heavy drinking & cocaine use. He has now stopped drinking to excess but still uses cocaine on a semi-regular basis.
When I saw my friend yesterday, I instantly knew something was very wrong. I have never seen him look so miserable, and this aura of total despondency didn't even appear to be touched by the whiskey he was throwing down him or the huge lines of cocaine. I tried to cheer him up futilely and advised him to seriously lay off the substances until his head was a bit better, but he didn't listen to me.Half a gram of cocaine & five jack and coke's later, he finally starts to open up a little, but still doesn't seem happy. He told me that his main reason for living has been to help people on this forum, and that that is what gets him through every day, the knowledge that if he just gives up someone might OD or become hospitalized or addicted to drugs, and he thinks that his excessive post count is justified as even if he had to make 1000 posts a day, if he could genuinely help one person, then it would all be worth it.
Now this may seem silly or trivial, but he has told me that recently he's "noticed a trend" whereby everyone ignores his posts, and he hasn't been getting any replies. He hasn't posted about his problems but has posted general questions or discussion points and claims that they've been totally ignored as well. He feels like the one refuge & respite from the world on his shoulders - Bluelight - has turned into a cold, lonely place full of strangers who refuse to even acknowledge his existence. He told me Bluelight was his life, and without it he feels like there is no point in going on, and has been talking about ending it all. I've tried to calm him down and explain he's taking it too personally and it's just a coincidence but he won't take it.
So I've contacted his sister who has gone to stay with him to keep an eye on things, but past that I have no idea what to do. I want to help him, I really really do, but I feel like I'm powerless and impotent. Any suggestions or advice would be massively appreciated!