A Few More by a100unitSHOT

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OVER AND DONE WITH
I take a look around, the world is so serene
I close my eyes and take a breath, the cool air feels so clean
a subtle smile across my face, believing you are there
I have no worries on my mind, I breathe without a care

I open my eyes to see you're gone, my air starts to thin
My muscles tense, my stomach cramps, now suffering begins.
I want to cry, but I can't breathe, I struggle just to live
I run to catch up to you, but my week knees start to give.

My face is turning blue, and there's nothing I can say
Deep inside, I feel you wanted it this way
I reach for you and gasp for breath, but you don't seem to care
I don't think you understand, you're all that is my air.

You know it's you I need, but still you're pushing me away
You sit back and watch me struggle, as my lungs decay
and so, I stop breathing, knowing I will die
And this last breath that I let out, I use to say, "Goodbye."

I used to say "Goodbye"

I use to....

 

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YOU'RE WORSE THAN AN EX-GIRLFRIEND
(a poem about the struggles with Heroin)

Looking back, the last four years
Through it all, you've been here
Helping me feel not quite so lost
I'm not alone, but at what cost?

When I wake up, you're sitting there
Telling me I shouldn't care
About the life I've spent on you
And all the pain you've put me through

You say it's love, you mean no harm
But still you stab me in the arm
Then you take me to the stars,
But I can't keep hiding all my scars

The pain, the shame, the lies and guilt
I think of all the blood I've spilled
In your name and for you bliss
Deathly addicted to your kiss

I drive to you almost twice a day
Only to throw what I've earned away
For all I give, I get nothing back
Except my blood going red to black

So many times, I've walked away
Telling you, "I cannot stay"
I say my heart, you cannot keep
But then you lull me back to sleep

You pull me away from everything
People warn my death you'll bring
Of my friends, you've taken two
If I don't stop, will you take me too?

 

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MEANT FOR ME
I turn around to see her, she's coming down the stairs
Everybody in the room can't help but to stare
My stomach ties in such a knot that I can hardly breathe
She blows a kiss into the air for all the room to see

At the landing of the stairs, she turns and bats her eyes
I can't help but show a smile, I can't hide my surprise
I've never felt this feeling I now feel deep inside of me
She blew a kiss into the room, it was meant for me to see

She makes her way towards me, and I can hardly wait
I pause for a moment, try to think of what I'll say
I want to tell her something that I know she's never heard
But the look in her eyes tells me I don't have to say a word

She's so close now, I can smell the perfume on her skin
But she walks right past my open hands, into the arms of him
My stomach ties in such a knot that I can hardly breathe
She blew a kiss into the room, but it wasn't meant for me.

 

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The Last Thursday (in January ('03))

I lean in for my goodnight kiss
I'm repulsed by the dust breathed from your lips
Pull away, choke, I ask you why
You'd rather not speak tonight

Visions of emptiness, the false caress
Flowers picked clean of butterfly wings
Paying now for the rip in the dress
Why won't you let me sleep, let me dream.

Oh, how the eyes leap tonight...
Now how will I sleep tonight?

And I lie awake just to hear you stop breathing
I'm repulsed by the taste of bitter words leaving my mouth
Slide in closer, you never said why
You won't speak again tonight

Denim on floorboards, a promise was made
Just to be broken by words never spoken
Echoes of silence all still betrayed
You never let me dream, let me sleep