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This is trip report of 3 years of 5-meo-dmt use. Over a 3-4year period I used about 3 grams or 5-meo-dmt. My use of 5-meo-dmt was extreme and abuse. At the end of my use of this substance I experienced some severe breathing problems I do not know if it was from the 5-meo-dmt but I have a deep feeling it was.
I tried to condense this as much as I could and give some of the highlights of my 3 years of 5-meo-dmt use. It was hard to condense
I am in good shape I run, bike, swim, never had any serous health problems I have used psychedelics for a couple of decades.
My first time smoking 5-meo-dmt blew me away and I fell in love with it. I put 10mgs on some tin foil, smoked it and laid on my back. In a few seconds this powerful rush was growing, I watched my ego and pieces of my life disintegrate and go flying like confetti in a windstorm then it was like an avalanche rushing down on me until-- I was this white rush that was all of all and none of nothing all at the same time.
I came back, I was blown away, I was in awe and love.
The next 10 times or so I was scared, I would put the chemical in front of me with the lighter and I felt like I was standing on the edge of a skyscraper getting ready to bungee jump. After about another 10 times I felt like it was getting used to it, after about 30 times I felt like it was a nice jump into bliss, I trusted the chemical and was not worried anymore.
I played around with different dosages 8mg was perfect for me, less I might not break through, more was a waste. You can only get so high on 5-meo-dmt, the void is the void.
This was a favorite substance for me I could be blown away in an earth shattering bliss and 30-45 mins later be back at daily life. So I started doing a hit on spare moments in my days and evenings, I almost never smoked it more then once in a day, I believe you need to sleep to integrate a psychedelic experience. But I would smoke it 3-5 times a week most times.
It almost never gave me any side effects just a little tired or burnt after sometimes but nothing a cup of coffee wouldn't fix.
This pattern of smoking 5-meo-dmt 3-5 times a week went on for a couple of years. Into the 3rd year I started having some breathing problems in some of the trips. Sometimes I would have to force myself to breathe, it wasn't like I couldn’t breathe but I would just have to make myself breathe. The breathing problem started to fade and my trips were back to normal. But I started to get a feeling that I was pushing too far.
Shortly after I had a couple of scary trips on 5-meo-dmt, a couple of the trips I was trapped in the death state on the way back.
One of the trips was so vivid and strong, I got stuck in the death state on the way back. I had my life go before me and saw my loved ones without me. It gave me such a bad feeling sorrow, grief, sadness, Why.. I destroyed my life just to take a chemical for no reason.. What a waste.. I hoped my soul could recreate something again and not waste it.
I started coming back.. I was just saying “please let me come back” over and over. Relief.. I should do no more of this chemical.. But days later more.
I got a cold shortly after and stopped for a few weeks then started doing more. The cold lingered.
One night I woke up and could not breathe, it was intense, I struggled through the night and went to walk in hospital the next morning. They said I had very little lung capacity but no scarring or damage maybe bronchitis. They sent me home with steroids and inhaler. The breathing problem was continual in the nights I would wake up gasping and choking. My lungs had no capacity in the day. I went from running miles to hardly making it up a flight of stairs.
After 3months they changed the diagnosis to “asthma” and prescribed daily steroids, neutralizer, inhaler.
I have always believed in holistic health. I decided I was going to breathe and struggle though this until it was over. I went off all the medications and only used the inhaler to rescue me during hours of struggle in the night. The first week was hard.. I would just breath through it..after hours of struggle exhausted and spent I would do the inhaler so I could sleep.
After a week small improvement. Continually Breathe, Breathe, .... After a month I was greatly improving. 2-3 months off the steroids on I was back normal.
On a side note- If I would of followed doctors orders I would still be doing daily steroids, inhalers, other asthma drugs and calling myself “asthmatic”
This sent me into a lot of thought about my use of 5-meo-dmt could the breathing problems be from this chemical ? Did I almost destroy my health from abusing a drug ? I don't know.
In reflection (this is about 3 years later) I pushed it way too far.. I had warnings, strong feelings, visions of death, lingering cold, breathing problems and I still went on until I was in very serious condition.
I don't like bring up negative symptoms that *could* be a side effect of a substance but I wanted to put it out there in case others had similar experiences or have similar experiences in the future.
5-meo-dmt is a very powerful substance it gave me unspeakable experiences, visions and pleasures. I wish I would not of abused it and not tainted my experience with it.
I tried to condense this as much as I could and give some of the highlights of my 3 years of 5-meo-dmt use. It was hard to condense
I am in good shape I run, bike, swim, never had any serous health problems I have used psychedelics for a couple of decades.
My first time smoking 5-meo-dmt blew me away and I fell in love with it. I put 10mgs on some tin foil, smoked it and laid on my back. In a few seconds this powerful rush was growing, I watched my ego and pieces of my life disintegrate and go flying like confetti in a windstorm then it was like an avalanche rushing down on me until-- I was this white rush that was all of all and none of nothing all at the same time.
I came back, I was blown away, I was in awe and love.
The next 10 times or so I was scared, I would put the chemical in front of me with the lighter and I felt like I was standing on the edge of a skyscraper getting ready to bungee jump. After about another 10 times I felt like it was getting used to it, after about 30 times I felt like it was a nice jump into bliss, I trusted the chemical and was not worried anymore.
I played around with different dosages 8mg was perfect for me, less I might not break through, more was a waste. You can only get so high on 5-meo-dmt, the void is the void.
This was a favorite substance for me I could be blown away in an earth shattering bliss and 30-45 mins later be back at daily life. So I started doing a hit on spare moments in my days and evenings, I almost never smoked it more then once in a day, I believe you need to sleep to integrate a psychedelic experience. But I would smoke it 3-5 times a week most times.
It almost never gave me any side effects just a little tired or burnt after sometimes but nothing a cup of coffee wouldn't fix.
This pattern of smoking 5-meo-dmt 3-5 times a week went on for a couple of years. Into the 3rd year I started having some breathing problems in some of the trips. Sometimes I would have to force myself to breathe, it wasn't like I couldn’t breathe but I would just have to make myself breathe. The breathing problem started to fade and my trips were back to normal. But I started to get a feeling that I was pushing too far.
Shortly after I had a couple of scary trips on 5-meo-dmt, a couple of the trips I was trapped in the death state on the way back.
One of the trips was so vivid and strong, I got stuck in the death state on the way back. I had my life go before me and saw my loved ones without me. It gave me such a bad feeling sorrow, grief, sadness, Why.. I destroyed my life just to take a chemical for no reason.. What a waste.. I hoped my soul could recreate something again and not waste it.
I started coming back.. I was just saying “please let me come back” over and over. Relief.. I should do no more of this chemical.. But days later more.
I got a cold shortly after and stopped for a few weeks then started doing more. The cold lingered.
One night I woke up and could not breathe, it was intense, I struggled through the night and went to walk in hospital the next morning. They said I had very little lung capacity but no scarring or damage maybe bronchitis. They sent me home with steroids and inhaler. The breathing problem was continual in the nights I would wake up gasping and choking. My lungs had no capacity in the day. I went from running miles to hardly making it up a flight of stairs.
After 3months they changed the diagnosis to “asthma” and prescribed daily steroids, neutralizer, inhaler.
I have always believed in holistic health. I decided I was going to breathe and struggle though this until it was over. I went off all the medications and only used the inhaler to rescue me during hours of struggle in the night. The first week was hard.. I would just breath through it..after hours of struggle exhausted and spent I would do the inhaler so I could sleep.
After a week small improvement. Continually Breathe, Breathe, .... After a month I was greatly improving. 2-3 months off the steroids on I was back normal.
On a side note- If I would of followed doctors orders I would still be doing daily steroids, inhalers, other asthma drugs and calling myself “asthmatic”
This sent me into a lot of thought about my use of 5-meo-dmt could the breathing problems be from this chemical ? Did I almost destroy my health from abusing a drug ? I don't know.
In reflection (this is about 3 years later) I pushed it way too far.. I had warnings, strong feelings, visions of death, lingering cold, breathing problems and I still went on until I was in very serious condition.
I don't like bring up negative symptoms that *could* be a side effect of a substance but I wanted to put it out there in case others had similar experiences or have similar experiences in the future.
5-meo-dmt is a very powerful substance it gave me unspeakable experiences, visions and pleasures. I wish I would not of abused it and not tainted my experience with it.