Catax, i feel ya. I really want to break it, it sucks!
but i keep telling myself i have to keep it up.
if only it was like 20 days instead of 40!
But yeah at the moment i am most dangerously close to breaking.
And my friends ask me about it, are like "how are you going" and i get so annoyed that they've brought it up. i mean cmon how do you THINK im going? Why must they remind me of my pain!!
but yeah got pretty stoned yesterday morn and almost masturbated, not thinking properly.
i didn't though, so i'm still in!
i should get a lock down there or something.
But yeah its a painfully horny state. and made even worse cos i've got my rags and that makes me even hornier. 22 days to go i think.
almost half way... but only half? aRG!