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10.02pm
24mg 4-aco-mipt hcl down the hatch on a somewhat empty stomach. mindset uncertain but ready. would like insight into current life situation & relationship with mother. taking it tonight was a split-second decision... it was almost because i knew i had some work to do & i was sick of being anxious to do it. the chemical, dissolved in liquid form onto tissue paper, tastes very bitter. i don't wash it down with anything.
10.18pm
mild tremors... may be from nervousness, or maybe not. very very mildly starting to feel "something"?
10.29pm
made phone call about a ride for a psytrance party this weekend. my first. i'm excited about that. more trembliness & slightly more trippyness. ended the phone call with "hey man, i'm about to start tripping really hard... i'll call you tomorrow..."
10.37pm
harder to walk.. will go under covers. definitely covers time.
10.45pm
reaching +++... very aroused. need to act on it.
10.52pm
still trembly... visuals becoming present, need to go lay down again.
11.07pm
laid down... religious scenery present in visuals... looks almost like moving stained glass... visions of endless grids & storybook depictions of eyes floating in the dark, perfectly shaded & detailed. also, an octopus-like figure. grim visions of people with their heads in machines, being controlled. this may have to do with debating advertising earlier in my sociology class. with eyes open, shadows were very intimidating. lots of coughing (probably my cold) & good body buzz. i am cold. (the lights are on now, visuals still heavy.)
11.18pm
having trouble figuring out what exactly to with the expereience, or where it will take me. have put on some hallucinogen just for the hell of it. i do hope i will come out of this experience with some kind of insight into my situation, i guess i am expecting the substance to do the work for me really. this is probably wrong.
11.26pm
this material has a somewhat lazy quality to it that seems to be particular to the 4-aco's from what i understand.
11.50pm
on the phone with A. kind of wish i didn't call, because i feel as though this isn't where my trip was supposed to go. can't decide how i want the lighting in my room to be.
12.10am
fractalized visuals while on the phone. i put on shpongle for background noise, but it's a tad distracting.
12.33am
going to call A back in a second. kinda feel like i'm wasting my trip, but obviously i'm being led this direction for a reason. otherwise it wouldn't keep happening. hopefully i'm right in thinking this.
-in between-
me & A had alot of very deep discussion, alot of purging of insecurities. talking wasn't too difficult after the peak, & the conversation was somewhat intense... alot of discussion of our pasts, personal demons, etc. i discussed why i had taken the mipracetin, & what i felt i was trying to do. near the end of our conversation, i started to realize that it was probably a good thing that i'd spent the bulk of my trip on the phone. maybe what i needed was communication.
5.00am
i eat two pills of kava extract & go try to go to sleep after finally convincing A i have to go.
next day:
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woken up by the phone at noon. still very tired, but no hangover & slight afterglow. over all, i don't know if i accomplished what i wanted to, but i guess i do feel more assured. i need to integrate the experience. 4-aco-mipt is very interesting, & much different than all of the phenethylamines i've worked with... it is erotic, pleasant, relaxed, & maze-like in nature. the visuals are VERY unique, i don't think i've seen anything like them in all of my tryptamine/phenethylamine experiences.
i suspect it takes some practice to successfully utilize it. i also wish i had more, first because it seems to have plenty of potential, & second because i STILL don't think i dosed high enough. i also feel set & setting play a huge role in the intensity of the experience, but this is probably true of all psychedelics.
substancecode_4acomipt
24mg 4-aco-mipt hcl down the hatch on a somewhat empty stomach. mindset uncertain but ready. would like insight into current life situation & relationship with mother. taking it tonight was a split-second decision... it was almost because i knew i had some work to do & i was sick of being anxious to do it. the chemical, dissolved in liquid form onto tissue paper, tastes very bitter. i don't wash it down with anything.
10.18pm
mild tremors... may be from nervousness, or maybe not. very very mildly starting to feel "something"?
10.29pm
made phone call about a ride for a psytrance party this weekend. my first. i'm excited about that. more trembliness & slightly more trippyness. ended the phone call with "hey man, i'm about to start tripping really hard... i'll call you tomorrow..."
10.37pm
harder to walk.. will go under covers. definitely covers time.
10.45pm
reaching +++... very aroused. need to act on it.
10.52pm
still trembly... visuals becoming present, need to go lay down again.
11.07pm
laid down... religious scenery present in visuals... looks almost like moving stained glass... visions of endless grids & storybook depictions of eyes floating in the dark, perfectly shaded & detailed. also, an octopus-like figure. grim visions of people with their heads in machines, being controlled. this may have to do with debating advertising earlier in my sociology class. with eyes open, shadows were very intimidating. lots of coughing (probably my cold) & good body buzz. i am cold. (the lights are on now, visuals still heavy.)
11.18pm
having trouble figuring out what exactly to with the expereience, or where it will take me. have put on some hallucinogen just for the hell of it. i do hope i will come out of this experience with some kind of insight into my situation, i guess i am expecting the substance to do the work for me really. this is probably wrong.
11.26pm
this material has a somewhat lazy quality to it that seems to be particular to the 4-aco's from what i understand.
11.50pm
on the phone with A. kind of wish i didn't call, because i feel as though this isn't where my trip was supposed to go. can't decide how i want the lighting in my room to be.
12.10am
fractalized visuals while on the phone. i put on shpongle for background noise, but it's a tad distracting.
12.33am
going to call A back in a second. kinda feel like i'm wasting my trip, but obviously i'm being led this direction for a reason. otherwise it wouldn't keep happening. hopefully i'm right in thinking this.
-in between-
me & A had alot of very deep discussion, alot of purging of insecurities. talking wasn't too difficult after the peak, & the conversation was somewhat intense... alot of discussion of our pasts, personal demons, etc. i discussed why i had taken the mipracetin, & what i felt i was trying to do. near the end of our conversation, i started to realize that it was probably a good thing that i'd spent the bulk of my trip on the phone. maybe what i needed was communication.
5.00am
i eat two pills of kava extract & go try to go to sleep after finally convincing A i have to go.
next day:
------------
woken up by the phone at noon. still very tired, but no hangover & slight afterglow. over all, i don't know if i accomplished what i wanted to, but i guess i do feel more assured. i need to integrate the experience. 4-aco-mipt is very interesting, & much different than all of the phenethylamines i've worked with... it is erotic, pleasant, relaxed, & maze-like in nature. the visuals are VERY unique, i don't think i've seen anything like them in all of my tryptamine/phenethylamine experiences.
i suspect it takes some practice to successfully utilize it. i also wish i had more, first because it seems to have plenty of potential, & second because i STILL don't think i dosed high enough. i also feel set & setting play a huge role in the intensity of the experience, but this is probably true of all psychedelics.
substancecode_4acomipt
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glad someone took the time to read my babblings. i learned that it's very hard to plan a trip...