I took 10-12 mg and arranged some music on my pc then lied down on my bed.
20 minutes in and I felt my body getting tense and not so relaxed, then after like 10 minutes I got a feeling of joy.
I was still on my lying down on my bed and had my wireless mouse near me so I can play music on my pc.
I started listening to some epic music. Then 5 minutes into the music I started getting visuals. The paintings on my wall were moving, changing shapes, and melting. It was a gentle visual and can be controlled, as if I focus a bit harder they would stop. I started moving my hand in front of my eyes and traces of the movements would appear. All of sudden I could see shadows on my ceiling, these shadows were forming into various complex geometric shapes, the varied in visibility and would come and go.
At this point I decided to close my eyes and let the experience get me wherever it does. I closed my eyes and saw strokes and lines of different colors, mostly yellow and red. And suddenly, boom, I’m in hyperspace! I’m somewhere in the universe observing stars, or suns since I was close to them, and planets. I saw snapshots of “life” in these planets, life very different than ours. Life there seemed digital, efficient, and magnificent beyond words, but above all… beauty was key!
At this point I was feeling so happy, so happy in fact that I felt my body can’t handle this much happiness and joy! But I still felt this happiness and joy were forced.
I was in space looking at stars and planets and different forms of life in the universe. Then I came across Earth. This is when everything got really, really interesting. Planet Earth was different. Because right behind there was this being, or deity, it was Mother Earth. She was beautiful and had the Earth in her hands! Her eyes were closed and she had this subtle gentle and warm smile. She started communicating with me, with no words and gestures. I just felt what she wanted to communicate without any cognitive effort on my part. I just knew.
She invited me to come closer to her. As I went closer I felt her love and warmth which brought my eyes to tears.
She wanted to show me something. And suddenly I am in this room made of light, and Mother Earth was in front of me with her subtle smile. She made a gesture with her and pointed to right. I looked in the right and saw three surreal dimensional concepts! I can’t explain it with words. I saw the embodiment of “virtues” in front of me, and not individual virtues but rather the types or categories!
The first virtue was “Humanly Virtues”, she told me this is commonly mislabeled as “Earthly Virtues”.
The Humanly Virtues were represented with human faces. Just by looking at these faces I could identify the virtue, like a face would represent courage, another would represent honesty, and so on. These faces were aiming at the next type or level of virtues.
The next level which was to the left of the first one and was hovering higher. It was the “Divine Virtues”. They were represented by rectangular blocks of grey matter with colored borders/strokes. The colors were yellow, blue, and red.
They had faces drawn on them. These faces were just like sketches with not effort. Like this ^_^ or o_o or something similar, but all of them were emotionless and dull. I couldn’t identify any of the virtues or what they meant. Then I was told that aiming here, as the faces were aiming at this, was aiming at the wrong place. These virtues are fake! Work of imagination, they don’t exist, thus you can attain them! This was as an analogy for religions, false hopes and false promises!
Then I was told to look at the last type of virtues. Again, it was to the left and hovering even higher. It was the “Earthly Virtue”. It was a type as well as a single virtue. It was represented by… a void, and yet everything! It emitted yellow light while the room was made of white light. It was small, the side of a basketball. It is the real higher virtue that no one aims to since everyone is busy seeking false virtues that don’t exist. Mother Earth stepped behind the “Earthly Virtue” and presented it to me with her hands, without touching it, and asked me to enter.
I started approaching it and as I approached I started feeling pure. Mother Earth told me she will take me where I belong, and suddenly I’m inside the “Earthly Virtue”. A room made of yellow light, like a glass ball since Mother Earth’s face was visible from above, it seems as if I changed sizes and was inside that ball. Inside I felt just right. I felt that this “Earthly Virtue” was in me the whole time, yet I can’t put in words what it is. It is something so real, so pure, so unfathomable yet is the only truth. I saw souls wandering there, very few compared to the humanly virtue or the divine virtue. I felt and was told that these few souls, or consciousnesses, are not only human, or living creatures on Earth. These are the few souls that keep the collective consciousness of the universe going on existing, or kept it existing in the past. Mother Earth told me that this is where I belong. I felt that my potential is limitless and infinite, yet there is an edge I need to reach to earn my place in the “Earthly Virtue”, I felt the other souls there reached that edge. Mother Earth wanted to show me how these souls ended up here, by showing me how I will end up here. Suddenly I saw myself killing myself, committing suicide, and dying. (I’ve been suicidal for years). I died. I was reborn… and died again. I was reborn and died many, many times, perhaps in the thousands! Until I got the life in which I utilized my potential. My potential was limitless and infinite, it always been in all those lives, but in this one I reached the edge of it. I saw the state of myself, other people, humanity, life on earth, and the universe once I reach the edge. It was just… beautiful. So beautiful that I was crying, other people were crying, and millions, if not billions, of voices were cheering! I saw all that while Mother Earth was showing her smile to the entire world. I was happy, everyone was happy, I accomplished my duty and Mother Earth was happy.
Suddenly I was in space again, Mother Earth was behind planet Earth again presenting it to the universe.
I was told that killing myself is ridiculous and would make Mother Earth sad, so Mother Earth will rebirth me until I see what she sees in me!
Then I was fallen from space towards earth! Not like a vertical fall, but rather an inter-dimensional fall into reality!
It was not terrifying or anything. It was wondrous. I got to see different dimensions and different possibilities of worlds that never been! The fall was getting more and more intense! And suddenly I’m back into my body lying down on my bed!
The trip was over. I was feeling fatigued, my body was sore, perhaps from the fall.
Mentally though, everything was clear.
20 minutes in and I felt my body getting tense and not so relaxed, then after like 10 minutes I got a feeling of joy.
I was still on my lying down on my bed and had my wireless mouse near me so I can play music on my pc.
I started listening to some epic music. Then 5 minutes into the music I started getting visuals. The paintings on my wall were moving, changing shapes, and melting. It was a gentle visual and can be controlled, as if I focus a bit harder they would stop. I started moving my hand in front of my eyes and traces of the movements would appear. All of sudden I could see shadows on my ceiling, these shadows were forming into various complex geometric shapes, the varied in visibility and would come and go.
At this point I decided to close my eyes and let the experience get me wherever it does. I closed my eyes and saw strokes and lines of different colors, mostly yellow and red. And suddenly, boom, I’m in hyperspace! I’m somewhere in the universe observing stars, or suns since I was close to them, and planets. I saw snapshots of “life” in these planets, life very different than ours. Life there seemed digital, efficient, and magnificent beyond words, but above all… beauty was key!
At this point I was feeling so happy, so happy in fact that I felt my body can’t handle this much happiness and joy! But I still felt this happiness and joy were forced.
I was in space looking at stars and planets and different forms of life in the universe. Then I came across Earth. This is when everything got really, really interesting. Planet Earth was different. Because right behind there was this being, or deity, it was Mother Earth. She was beautiful and had the Earth in her hands! Her eyes were closed and she had this subtle gentle and warm smile. She started communicating with me, with no words and gestures. I just felt what she wanted to communicate without any cognitive effort on my part. I just knew.
She invited me to come closer to her. As I went closer I felt her love and warmth which brought my eyes to tears.
She wanted to show me something. And suddenly I am in this room made of light, and Mother Earth was in front of me with her subtle smile. She made a gesture with her and pointed to right. I looked in the right and saw three surreal dimensional concepts! I can’t explain it with words. I saw the embodiment of “virtues” in front of me, and not individual virtues but rather the types or categories!
The first virtue was “Humanly Virtues”, she told me this is commonly mislabeled as “Earthly Virtues”.
The Humanly Virtues were represented with human faces. Just by looking at these faces I could identify the virtue, like a face would represent courage, another would represent honesty, and so on. These faces were aiming at the next type or level of virtues.
The next level which was to the left of the first one and was hovering higher. It was the “Divine Virtues”. They were represented by rectangular blocks of grey matter with colored borders/strokes. The colors were yellow, blue, and red.
They had faces drawn on them. These faces were just like sketches with not effort. Like this ^_^ or o_o or something similar, but all of them were emotionless and dull. I couldn’t identify any of the virtues or what they meant. Then I was told that aiming here, as the faces were aiming at this, was aiming at the wrong place. These virtues are fake! Work of imagination, they don’t exist, thus you can attain them! This was as an analogy for religions, false hopes and false promises!
Then I was told to look at the last type of virtues. Again, it was to the left and hovering even higher. It was the “Earthly Virtue”. It was a type as well as a single virtue. It was represented by… a void, and yet everything! It emitted yellow light while the room was made of white light. It was small, the side of a basketball. It is the real higher virtue that no one aims to since everyone is busy seeking false virtues that don’t exist. Mother Earth stepped behind the “Earthly Virtue” and presented it to me with her hands, without touching it, and asked me to enter.
I started approaching it and as I approached I started feeling pure. Mother Earth told me she will take me where I belong, and suddenly I’m inside the “Earthly Virtue”. A room made of yellow light, like a glass ball since Mother Earth’s face was visible from above, it seems as if I changed sizes and was inside that ball. Inside I felt just right. I felt that this “Earthly Virtue” was in me the whole time, yet I can’t put in words what it is. It is something so real, so pure, so unfathomable yet is the only truth. I saw souls wandering there, very few compared to the humanly virtue or the divine virtue. I felt and was told that these few souls, or consciousnesses, are not only human, or living creatures on Earth. These are the few souls that keep the collective consciousness of the universe going on existing, or kept it existing in the past. Mother Earth told me that this is where I belong. I felt that my potential is limitless and infinite, yet there is an edge I need to reach to earn my place in the “Earthly Virtue”, I felt the other souls there reached that edge. Mother Earth wanted to show me how these souls ended up here, by showing me how I will end up here. Suddenly I saw myself killing myself, committing suicide, and dying. (I’ve been suicidal for years). I died. I was reborn… and died again. I was reborn and died many, many times, perhaps in the thousands! Until I got the life in which I utilized my potential. My potential was limitless and infinite, it always been in all those lives, but in this one I reached the edge of it. I saw the state of myself, other people, humanity, life on earth, and the universe once I reach the edge. It was just… beautiful. So beautiful that I was crying, other people were crying, and millions, if not billions, of voices were cheering! I saw all that while Mother Earth was showing her smile to the entire world. I was happy, everyone was happy, I accomplished my duty and Mother Earth was happy.
Suddenly I was in space again, Mother Earth was behind planet Earth again presenting it to the universe.
I was told that killing myself is ridiculous and would make Mother Earth sad, so Mother Earth will rebirth me until I see what she sees in me!
Then I was fallen from space towards earth! Not like a vertical fall, but rather an inter-dimensional fall into reality!
It was not terrifying or anything. It was wondrous. I got to see different dimensions and different possibilities of worlds that never been! The fall was getting more and more intense! And suddenly I’m back into my body lying down on my bed!
The trip was over. I was feeling fatigued, my body was sore, perhaps from the fall.
Mentally though, everything was clear.
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