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36 hrs into opiate withdrawal. Been messing with H and Oxy for about 11 months and it's time to quit. Made it out once before a couple years ago trying again. Just need some accountability. Anxiety, the sweats RLS, depression, nausea, shakes etc all present. Currently sitting on my hands so to speak. Trying not to run to "doods" place.
 
Yesterday at 7 pm was 48 hrs. So no idea what I'm at now, brain is too fuzzy. Just need some energy I have to work in an hr and a half. The b vitamins aren't helping. Any suggestions?
 
You may want Google it, I did about 2 months ago I bought some I think I took maybe 3 at a time but I felt lots better I have faith in that one! Best to ya
 
Get some immodium for the shits. The next 24-48 hrs will be a lot worse then the last 48 but then your over it so to speak.

May have stomach issues and insomnia + rsl for a while. At least in my experience it last for months. That was off 4 yr heavy IV run though
 
As far as wimpy vitamins go, the proper magnesium supplement helped me a lot with RLS when I had a young habit. Same with vitamine B12/6 during the day. Little bits of cannabis for nausea, lack of appetite and general malaise and boredom.

Good luck OP! Regardless of anything, you can do it?
 
I've been using immodium since day 1. No mega dose.
24 mg day 1
12mg day 2
6mg today.

Been helping a bit. At least I can shuffle around at work lol. Thanks for the magnesium tip didn't think about that. I can't seem to get coffee down something about the warmth sets off nausea. Ah well, day 4 will be here soon enough. That's when I started feeling better my last 2 yr H run. I'm young so I've got that on my side, I seem to bounce back fairly well. It isn't until six months in that I get hit with heavy depression. PAWS is a bitch lol.

Thanks for all the replies and support. I've got my gf here helping me but she's a "normie" (hate that word). So she's trying her best but she doesn't understand you can't force feed a Withdrawaling addict lol. But I'm counting my blessings. Girl was strong enough to not only catch me but help me taper and jump as well. We've been together 5 years and this is the second time I've put her through the ringer and there she stands strong and supportive. Found myself a real woman :). Now I just need to do my part.
 
God Damn fuck this fucking depression! I just wanna scream. Physical symptoms mostly gone. Now this bleakness is creeping in and everything is grey. I know it's normal but that doesn't make it any better. This didn't kick in til months afterwards last time I seriously kicked this shit.

Meh whatever. I'll just sit and wait it out... I hope. Trying not to let this break me (again).
 
Keep at it, friend. The RLS and insomnia during withdrawal kills me the most. Literally crawling in my skin from the neck down. The anhedonia (inability to feel joy or pleasure) will last a while but fades with time and things like exercise regularly. Keep it up. We're all slaves to this game but we'll make it out one day.
 
Thanks dil. You're right it will fade. I just had myself a nice little fit and completely destroyed my office. And for some reason I feel a bit better. All I could feel was sadness and anger. So I let the anger kinda consume me. At least I felt something other than sad for a while.
 
Fitting (just as long as it doesn't entail and actual seizure) is good fun when kicking! I always felt like saying fuck it and trashing the room, or going somewhere else for that purpose, was very similar to working out in terms of relief, just more potent. Not a very sustainable or really healthy way to deal with frustration or anger, but hey withdrawal is not exactly an every day occurrence either. (Well, actually I guess it is for many, but you get what I mean... Like really making a good effort to kick isn't something you do every day even if you do get sick every morning.)
 
Channel that sadness and rage my friend! Your emotions are raw and real for the first time in a while...do you like to make artwork of any sort?
 
Feeling loads better today. You're right about the relief toothpaste was almost instant lol. I actually had practice with the band last night chef and I think that's why I'm feeling better today. I got everything out and left it in the jam room.
 
Isn't it a great feeling when you can unburden yourself through creative channels? I would paint everyday, and I wrote a bunch of electrobreak tracks and remixes when I was trying to kick in my early twenties. Some of my best work was done in withdrawals because of the feelings of loneliness and isolation...very real feelings.
 
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