Played around with the combo the other night.
20mg was the dose.... dose with 2 other people, A and B. B went with a stronger dose and A was around the same level as me. Snorted about 40-50 mg ketamine at the peak.
I'm still new to the ketamine experience.... maybe a dozen experiences with/without the use of other materials. I generally have the same experience every time with a variation in the degree of intensity.... low doses are more malleable and I can slip in and out of what usually happens with a stronger dose.... The low dose on psyches generally gives me a very disoriented feeling.... With this experience, although a low dose, I was able to focus more deeply on the mind state I achieve from the stronger doses.
We took the lines about 2.5 hours into the journey. B took his line 10 - 15 minutes after me and A took our lines. There were some distractions that kept us staggered a little bit. B was really sent off. Me and A were feeling good, but A wanted to go outside... I went out with him and we each had a cigarette. I don't usually smoke 'em... I had quit for a year, but recently just started smoking them every couple weeks or so I'll have 1 or 2 (Better watch myself). The cig itself was probably enough to get me buzzed, so I'm sure it had some interaction with the other chems. I had smoked a generous amount of hash and weeds before even consuming the 2ce. The comeup was very hazy.
The ketamine brought the trip to a level where it would remain until the sun had risen and our bodies were tired from lack of sleep. I got this doom feeling, that I had to express with A and B.... I have felt it before, and generally feel it... It's probably something that happens from my focus or attention to the possibilities of life. I feel that every time I use ketamine my mind cycles through all of my experiences.... the things that give me a character as a process..... and there's an idea of how far I think I can go.... and I'm doomed not to get there.... and from there I just gotta let go... It feels like I am dying... That's generally what has happened during the couple k-holes I have experienced... I'm still trying to figure it out.... It is a bit scary, but seems very natural all the same.... K is pretty dark for me, similar to dxm. The next hour comprised me and my trip companions laying on the ground in whichever strange positions felt most comfortable. I really like sitting down with my knees tucked up into my chest with the floor touching my head, my arms holding me.... fetal position sorta. Then i would flip over, sprawl out on my back... close my eyes ...and try to focus.... try to breathe. The visuals were very sparse... and my thoughts were drifting to fast into the mind-fuck to even be able to pay attention to the visuals.
B was in the visual scape before snorting the ketamine. I was there in a strong trip space, but B was experiencing a more DMT-like trip. The visual were flying fast for B.... It was my thought that maybe the K would slow things down for him, and let him catch up to all the things he was viewing.... not so sure if it did that.... My only comparison was to a strong dose of acid with about 80-90mg K. I ended up flying through other dimensions in and out of losing my mind, and feeling like I'd never be the same person again, or I'd never be able to do the things I've done... It's all pretty true though... seems unbelievable in the experience.
Mostly for me, I was sent to a very introspective state....
This happened a couple of days ago... still deep in thought about it. gotta write about it soon. will post back later to make some clarifications on thoughts.... sorry if some of this can't be understood.
... edited the fuck out of it... let me know if its still out there... the first post was pretty looped out. peace!