fungus44
Bluelighter
2CD - fifth time - wonderful thinking, wish it would last
Had the day off. Some interesting intellectual work to do - writing about photographs - and a beautiful day outside and I thought I might garden.
Had decided to take day off "sick". Woke up 7:30am or so. Got up read newspaper. Spouse is working crazy hours doing media for coming election. Drank licorice tea.
9:30am Took 25mg 2CD, thought it would help me with my brainstorming for a small display of photgraphs.
9:40am Empty stomach. first alerts. Brew mild passionflower tea to potentiate. I have years and years of experience around drug mixing. Very cautious. Take betablockers to prevent high blood pressure.
10:00am Laughing and joking about news. Political news has moral weight and will influence spouse's life. Discuss Iraq, Palestine, government corruption.
10:20 Gather up shopping list - bristol board, unusually sized lightbulbs, blank VHS tapes to tape political news. At the hardware store, a little lost. Trying to figure out all the varieties of lightbulbs. As an extra bought a tiny swiss army knife for keychain. Tiny scissors, knife, tweezers.
10:25am Go to nice photocopy place, make weird photocopies of drawings over text about Zeno's paradoxes.
10:30am Go to dollar store. Find everything intersting but not in a stupid stoner way.
10:35am Home. Garden a little. Irises about to come, cosmos going, sunflowers growing rapidly. Beautiful shades of purple. Go inside. Lightbulbs all correct. Watch awful interviews with different party hacks. Laugh at them. Knew one when he was moderate student leader, I was on radical left. He lost his job.
11am Decide to eat. Ideas are just flooding me. try to write. Too many good ideas. Watch Jay-Z's 99 Problems video. Very powerful. Keep writing but thoughts are colliding.
11:15am Eat bagle, drink water, read old Mad magazine. Jokes seem very obvious, but also kind of good. Some headache, nervousness.
11:30am More writing. Reading about education theory for young children.
12pm Decide to check email, discussion boards. Very smart for a while.
Summary: It's great stuff! I just don't know how to use it yet, in terms of intellectual labor, dose, etc. I was entering pretty trippy zones, just thinking, and spacing out. Thought was lovely. I'd read Spinoza the other night: God is thought + God is extension (stuff) = ???? Maybe a much higher dose would send me further out, or the same dose divided or several hours, to stay a little more present. It felt how I imagined Aldous Huxley's first trip -- a state of grace, a minor satori -- things were as they were as they were, reflections of the infinite, but also just themselves. Gardening is wonderful. Looking at all the shapes of leaves and buds, and trying to decide what's a weed and why. Afterwards, a bit tired
Had the day off. Some interesting intellectual work to do - writing about photographs - and a beautiful day outside and I thought I might garden.
Had decided to take day off "sick". Woke up 7:30am or so. Got up read newspaper. Spouse is working crazy hours doing media for coming election. Drank licorice tea.
9:30am Took 25mg 2CD, thought it would help me with my brainstorming for a small display of photgraphs.
9:40am Empty stomach. first alerts. Brew mild passionflower tea to potentiate. I have years and years of experience around drug mixing. Very cautious. Take betablockers to prevent high blood pressure.
10:00am Laughing and joking about news. Political news has moral weight and will influence spouse's life. Discuss Iraq, Palestine, government corruption.
10:20 Gather up shopping list - bristol board, unusually sized lightbulbs, blank VHS tapes to tape political news. At the hardware store, a little lost. Trying to figure out all the varieties of lightbulbs. As an extra bought a tiny swiss army knife for keychain. Tiny scissors, knife, tweezers.
10:25am Go to nice photocopy place, make weird photocopies of drawings over text about Zeno's paradoxes.
10:30am Go to dollar store. Find everything intersting but not in a stupid stoner way.
10:35am Home. Garden a little. Irises about to come, cosmos going, sunflowers growing rapidly. Beautiful shades of purple. Go inside. Lightbulbs all correct. Watch awful interviews with different party hacks. Laugh at them. Knew one when he was moderate student leader, I was on radical left. He lost his job.
11am Decide to eat. Ideas are just flooding me. try to write. Too many good ideas. Watch Jay-Z's 99 Problems video. Very powerful. Keep writing but thoughts are colliding.
11:15am Eat bagle, drink water, read old Mad magazine. Jokes seem very obvious, but also kind of good. Some headache, nervousness.
11:30am More writing. Reading about education theory for young children.
12pm Decide to check email, discussion boards. Very smart for a while.
Summary: It's great stuff! I just don't know how to use it yet, in terms of intellectual labor, dose, etc. I was entering pretty trippy zones, just thinking, and spacing out. Thought was lovely. I'd read Spinoza the other night: God is thought + God is extension (stuff) = ???? Maybe a much higher dose would send me further out, or the same dose divided or several hours, to stay a little more present. It felt how I imagined Aldous Huxley's first trip -- a state of grace, a minor satori -- things were as they were as they were, reflections of the infinite, but also just themselves. Gardening is wonderful. Looking at all the shapes of leaves and buds, and trying to decide what's a weed and why. Afterwards, a bit tired