Please help me.. These drugs have changed my life for the complete worst and I have no idea what to do. So about two years ago in the year 2014 I started to what most would call "abuse" the substance known as 25i NbOME. Me being the idiot that I was at the time I thought the whole time that what I was taking was pure LSD and didn't think anything else of it during this binge period. So anyways, for about 3-6 months I took the substance anywhere from around 15-20 times all at different dosages. Some being higher some being lower. I also used during this three month period what is known as "Molly" or "MDMA" about three times. But the last time i tried that i freaked out and so did everyone else i was with so it was obviously bunk shit and I had stayed home from school the whole next week after that and I stopped my "binging" but not because I felt bad or "fried" but because of the scare that it put me through and i knew i would never want to go through that again.. Time kept on however and I found myself trying pure lsd and shrooms about 5-6 times all together.
Then I decided it was time for a break.... Once the year 2015 started i completely stopped my drug use as far as phycs and "Molly" go but continued to smoke weed because i always have almost everyday since I was a sophomore in highschool and I still even do it to this day. Anyways once the year 2015 started basically shit just hit the fan. I'm not the same person i once was and I'm afraid I never will be. My anxiety, depression, irritation and anything of that sort is just completely through the roof. My short term memory as well as my long term memory is also completely destroyed. I can't smoke weed anymore socially because it just makes me weird and I almost feel like im having flashbacks. I'm also more anxious then I have ever been in my entire life. I feel like thats from all the tripping though but I don't know.. I just feel like the magic from my life is completely gone. Almost as if my reality has changed and life will never be the same. I think about this almost everyday and about how my life was before tripping and doing all these drugs and it just makes me sad. I've heard stopping smoking weed and keeping a clean and healthy diet as long as exercise comes a long way but I haven't even wasted my time yet because I'm afraid the damage is permanent. I could go on all day about the issues I'm dealing with but that would take forever. I just want to be myself again..Can anybody help me?
Then I decided it was time for a break.... Once the year 2015 started i completely stopped my drug use as far as phycs and "Molly" go but continued to smoke weed because i always have almost everyday since I was a sophomore in highschool and I still even do it to this day. Anyways once the year 2015 started basically shit just hit the fan. I'm not the same person i once was and I'm afraid I never will be. My anxiety, depression, irritation and anything of that sort is just completely through the roof. My short term memory as well as my long term memory is also completely destroyed. I can't smoke weed anymore socially because it just makes me weird and I almost feel like im having flashbacks. I'm also more anxious then I have ever been in my entire life. I feel like thats from all the tripping though but I don't know.. I just feel like the magic from my life is completely gone. Almost as if my reality has changed and life will never be the same. I think about this almost everyday and about how my life was before tripping and doing all these drugs and it just makes me sad. I've heard stopping smoking weed and keeping a clean and healthy diet as long as exercise comes a long way but I haven't even wasted my time yet because I'm afraid the damage is permanent. I could go on all day about the issues I'm dealing with but that would take forever. I just want to be myself again..Can anybody help me?