About 3 days ago i bought 5caps of Red Buddha after deciding to take a tolerance break from weed a week earlier. it was not my first time as i have railed and parachuted mdma 3 times before but it was more of a hyped energetic high then what i experienced on Thursday. i took 3 pills and waited about 40-45 min when it hit me. I have never had this feeling it was like my heart was going faster by the minute and i was having difficulty breathing and walking straight. i kept telling myself i wont od on 3 pills and slowly i calmed down. i then start feeling scared and cold so i put on my sweater and like magic everything went away and i felt safe. I was so comfy and i finally got the "ecstasy" feeling everyone always talked about. Problem is it only lasted 2 hours then so i took 2 more but they did nothing. The next day i asked him about it and he said i should take 4 to get a 6 hour roll for me since i'm 6'1 180 pounds. Being brand new to ecstasy i just did what he said so i took 4 all at once and again 2 hours of amazing feeling then gone completely. i was already hooked i even said "why does this have to end" as i felt the comedown and was kind of depressed, i wanted it so bad that i actually went out and picked up some more 3 hours after i took 4. He ended up giving me twice as much and i got 5 extra yellow pills which at the time i thought was great. When i got home i crushed 2 red and 1 yellow and then parachuted it. I read somewhere that if you parachute you should start feeling it 10-20min so after 35 min i took 1 more red n 1 more guessing i didn't take enough and i was rolling hard for like 4 hours before i felt the dreaded comedown. This time though it was bad, worst than any other i have had. I was hearing things and seeing shadows in the corner of my eyes but when i looked at where i saw movement there was nothing. I took the rest of what i had and swallowed it hopping it will stop the hallucinations, voices, and bring back that amazing feeling. It worked but not as well it was nice but just not the same. then i felt it fading away after 30 minutes. I looked at the clock 3:30 am and i knew it was going to be a long wait until i can pick up more. Then i realized how quickly i have become a junky, i have taken 15 pills within 8 hours and 20 in the past 2 days (mind you they are not that strong). When i realized how many pills i have taken i started to panic, my chest felt like it was closed up so it was hard to breath and visual hallucinations such as animals running across the floor and people whispering my name. I began to actually get used to it and i eventually calmed down and i remember lying down at 6 because i was extremely tired but i could not sleep while laying down i saw this full body figure in a suit and top hat wave at me. This made me jump and i was considering two options i was either OD or it was laced my heart started beating faster and i started to get another panic attack. I then started looking up ways to help a comedown and i had all the ingredients luckily htp-5, banana's, orange juice, oranges, and vitamin C. 30 min later all hallucinations and voices were gone. Anyways it was the worst trip of my life but probably the best because now i'm completely turned off of mdma/E i'm sure in a couple months ill might do it but will never do as many as i did in such a short time, at least 2-3 months in between each roll. Hope you got a good laugh from my very poor judgment calls.
I also have some questions if anyone would be willing to answer
-Is what i experienced normal? Hallucinating, hearing noises, and panic attacks (The only panic attacks i have ever gotten was yesterday.
-Did i cause any permanent brain damage? such as short term memory loss (really bad this morning getting better)
-I have not eaten in two days and haven't slept in over 24 hours ( i am hungry/Tired but can repress it easily, but how until i can start eating/sleeping again
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I also have some questions if anyone would be willing to answer
-Is what i experienced normal? Hallucinating, hearing noises, and panic attacks (The only panic attacks i have ever gotten was yesterday.
-Did i cause any permanent brain damage? such as short term memory loss (really bad this morning getting better)
-I have not eaten in two days and haven't slept in over 24 hours ( i am hungry/Tired but can repress it easily, but how until i can start eating/sleeping again
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