My problem is task-starting, much more than sustained attention, except for super boring tasks like studying or reading/doing something I hate (like paperwork)
I guess that I don't respond well to NE releasers, but that's not the case with NE reuptake inhibitors... for me yohimbe feels pretty nice, I feel very motivated while on yohimbe, but I'm totally unfocused, same with NEP which seems to be pretty potent on NE ...
I do consider 2-fma useless but I remember that my first batch was pretty nice, and it worked nicely, but it was much more euphoric.... So, what was that? who knows, I guess we are receiving poison from China/India and not actually any pure racemic anything, let alone pure l-/d-enantiomers...
I also think you're right about euphoria and mood lift, too much is too distracting, but not enough makes everything robotic and boring, and 4f-mph and specially late batches of 2-fma feel too robotic for me , boring as fuck (but I much prefer 4f-mph as functional adhd medication).
3-mmc after peak effects would be the perfect adhd medication for me but obviously it's too much serotonin to waste daily...
The problem is that any dopamine releasers that create serious task-starting inducing euphoria doesn't seem sustainable long term in terms of subjective effects... for example kratom could be euphoric for a bit more than a year, taking daily, but after that... it's "something" but not enough to induce starting tasks....
In anycase, I subjectively feel 2-fma more much dopamine dominant than 2-FA or 4f-mph, but yeah, you could be right and perhaps it's the sigma fuckery what feels so zombieish, I don't like that feeling to be honest, I only enjoy the 2-fma "rush", if we can call it that way..., the comeup, maybe?
Grading papers, for me, was always hell on Earth, partially because of the classes I had to teach, and for that, BOTH initiation and attention were problems. Sometimes, psychostimulants alone won't do it, and the fear and dread of missing an obligation has to be added on top...
Aside from testing what you have, it's hard to say what you're getting. That's a problem with RCs, but also a problem, obviously, with medical and pharmaceutical regulation since it is hard in most countries to get affordable, convenient treatment and in sufficient doses of the right agents to effectively treat symptoms. In America, for dextroamphetamine prescription, I have to pick it up at the pharmacy on the exact right day, or else have to schedule an appointment with the physician a month early, and it is difficult to manage obligations and trips to the pharmacy during the day sometimes. The alternative is unfortunately not always being sure ahead of time what you're getting. Impurities, like unreacted reagents, leftover solvent, and so on, can definitely be in RCs, but obviously the worst case is that the substance is incorrectly or fraudulently identified. Government agencies, sometimes foreign ones (foreign to the sellers), have a habit of crashing the parties of RC sellers, which I'm sure makes the reliability of the sellers lower given they're playing a cat-and-mouse game at the same time as they're trying to offer grey-market retail services. This reliability problem happens with street drugs too, as in the case of PMA being sold as "ecstasy," which to normal people means MDMA. If the effects really feel different, testing might be a good idea, either with common reagents, or a friend in the chemistry department... That said, if other agents work better than 2-FMA, or "2-FMA," for you, I hope your loss is at least limited to the money invested in it.
I'm just speculating on (making up) the pharmacology. The 2-fluoro substitution in the ring theoretically, I'm not sure if it's been measured specifically for 2-FMA but the models are pretty well characterized, increases lipophilicity, but if that were the only relevant action, the 2-FMA would just be "more lipophilic meth," and yet the 4-fluoro substitution also increases lipophilicity, and yet 4-FMA is a much less potent compound with stronger entactogenic properties (so also not "more lipophilic meth"); calculated logP for 2-FMA is 2.3, and for 4-FMA is 2.2, which is consistent with the greater potency of 2-FMA, but is 2.1 for meth (it's a logarithmic scale, so 2-FMA is about 50% more lipophilic than meth). Another reason lipophilicity can't be the entire story is because 4-FMA intermediate in lipophilicity, but lowest in potency, and highest in entactogenic effects, there is a clearly not a linear relationship in all properties from meth -> 4-FMA -> 2-FMA. So the fluoro- ring substitution is affecting some combination of metabolism and binding properties. Non-psychedelic substituted phenethylamine tend to not bind to NE and DA receptors directly, but α2 binding could be another mechanism of anxiolysis, for example. I doubt 2-FMA is an α2 ligand, though, given it's apparent effects on vascular tone. NE release
will increase α2 activation (via NE itself), but any agent that causes NE release would do so. Lipophilicity could, however, alter tissue volume distribution, even in the brain, so the biasedness towards certain NE/DA pathways might be altered, changing effects.
d-meth and
d-amph are already anxiolytic for most people at low doses, but also anxiogenic in higher doses (I would guess 2-FMA would become anxiogenic too, if your heart were racing and fingertips blue from >100 mg or etc.). All of this, of course, is caveated by the fact that even this rampant speculation requires that the agent in question
is actually 2-FMA.
A lot of drugs, approved pharmaceuticals, plant compounds, and RCs alike, do have "rush"-like properties. And yes, subjective rushes are great for getting going, but sustained mood lift and enthusiasm is better for focus. Drugs can be tremendously beneficial in ADHD, as with many other conditions, but none are miracles, at least not yet, and at least not after tolerance and adaptation to their subjective effects. It's certainly worthwhile to get one's treatment regimen in order, but sometimes the best point of view is "I have to do this work that sucks, and I'll do it, and drug therapy will help it only suck two-thirds to three-quarters as much." Of course the more optimistic view is that medication can make already gratifying things incredibly sublime.
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